Terlebih Sudah!

Aku ttibe rase nak berlakon plak. Adoiyai...bnyk sgguh ko nak. Ambik sket2 sudah.

Lebih tepat lagi aku rse nak blakon cite2 seram, horror or cite2 action. Ceh, ni sume bahana tgk filem2 barat la nih! Huh!

Bkn apew lah, aku rse cam sonok la tgk org takut2 bile nmpak antoo ke, or xpon org yg perangai cam antoo. Bkn la aku nak kata aku ni penakut kan. Wah, blagak sgguh ko!

Apew2 pon, persoalan pokok kat sni...ade ke org nak amek aku blakon????

P/s: Aku terjerit tgk muka sendiri...

That Little Thing Called Life

Salam all.

There’s a lot to say now. But I’m still figuring out the words that I want to use. I don’t know how accurate the words would be, but there’s no harm in trying. What can I say, my whole life’s been a lesson. Sometimes there are just those times that I don’t want to learn. It’s more like I chose to ignore them. It’s like they say, ignorance is bless. But it’s also a murderer.

Throughout my life, I’ve seen in all. Lots of different- yet similar characters in this little play in life. There are many things that life can give us. You see, life, is a crazy thing. There’s good and bad, honesty and lies,loyalty and betrayal, love and hate, hello and goodbye. There’ll be good times and there’ll be bad times and also everything in between. But we can never know which way it’s going to go.

We are constantly finding ourselves in the middle of the crowd. Some will get lost on the way. And some will get caught up in all there was to offer. Life is like that you know. It’s just crazy and impossible - and sometimes it just doesn’t make any sense at all. It is unthinkable and unpredictable. Because there will be those things you see around you that you can’t understand. Yes, I’ve seen it all. Mistakes that people make and chose to hide. Trying to move on with a dark past catching up behind. But still we’re not willing to take the opportunity that comes by.

Maybe we can all be honest, but we can’t stop from hurting others with the truth. Sometimes the truth can get back to our face because nothing we do, is without consequences. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect.

What you’re going through in your life makes you think that you’re the only ones ‘acting’. Then all that’s left is by looking at other people’s scene. It can make your mind wonder if you can be like them. We look at the world through our eyes and we are the ones acting in our own play. We think that we have all the problems in the world on our shoulder and then we cry every night. We often wonder why it’s happening to us and not other people. But we’re far from truth. Like I said, our eyes, our play. We only see what’s inside but the outside counts too.

If we can see the world through someone else’s eyes, perhaps we would understand. Not everything bad is ours. And not everything good either. Anyone with a gift, will have a flaw. And anyone who laugh, can also cry. When there’s ‘easy’, there’s ‘hard’. We’re given different scripts to our lives. Scripts that we made for ourselves. And we choose how the plot would be.

And then there’s just some people who stood still and watched. Spectators with eyes wide open. But their hearts are closed. Watching but not seeing. It’s much easier that way sometimes. But their hearts will burn. It’s just how it goes.

What we say matters, regardless of anything else. But so is our silence. So which one is better? How do we know we have the right line? Maybe we have people to help us at the side, but too much help can make you weak.

Then you make the choice of burying your secrets way deep in the well. So deep that no one can trace it. So deep that you don’t even think it’s yours anymore. We forget that the way of knowing ourselves is through those secrets. But we don’t want people to judge us. Criticize us. Hurt us. So it’s better if no one knows. But people with too many secrets will die and the grave will be their only witness. Is that how we want people to remember us?

There’s only so much we can take. But we can’t take it all, and we certainly can’t have it all. Maybe it’s time to stop trying so hard. Because we’re not the only ones living.

Sometimes life would give you a hard time and a reason not to live anymore. But there’ll be plenty of other reasons why you should stay. That is what we have failed to see. We don’t want to see beyond what is written for us. You will be left, hurt and broken. But time will keep you company. Or maybe you just would never heal. It’s not easy. But sometimes you have to sit down when standing up is hard to do.

When you think leaving is the only way, then leave. Don’t try so hard when you know deep down, everything is a mess. You can hide the bruise and damage that’s been done. But the scar remains in your heart. And that scar hurts more than anything else. Draw the lines to how much you can take. There’s a difference between sacrifice and being stupid. They can stand and watch everything fall apart and they can say anything. But you know why you have to leave.

You can’t make everything last forever. What goes up must come down and whoever says hello will someday says goodbye. All you can do is make the most of your life and cherish what you have with the people you love and people you meet along the way. ‘Cause in the end, that is all you got.

We are all actors in this little play. Choose our character well. Choose our story well. And tell them in the most beautiful way you can someday. Only then you will have no regrets in your life. Knowing that you have given the best you can in your part.

Iera Azmi : Sincerely from my heart :)

Goodbye Baby

Salam all.

This is going to be a heart breaking story. At least for my part. As I'm writing this, my eyes are swelling and I can't see clearly because of the tears. Yes, I am crying. You may think it's because of something that must be really sad. It is.

Me and the rest of my family just witness our new cat Tia, died. By new I meant she was just taken last weekend. I had just came back from campus and I couldn't wait to see her (I only had a picture of her sent by my mother). I came home yesterday, and the first thing I did was look for her. She is beautiful. I mean was beautiful. Of course she was, Allah is perfect.

I played with her, and cuddled her. She was a light. But there was something wrong. She wouldn't eat or drink. She was not happy. We could feel it.

So this morning, we took her back to the shelter place where we got her to get her examined. The woman there said she was a little skinny. Another one said didn't look like she was sick. I was a bit relieved. They gave us some kind of vitamin and told us what kind of food to give her. We went back home, she was still the same. We gave her food she won't eat. We gave her water she won't drink. We were scared for her because if she doesn't eat something, she'll be sick.

But Allah decided that she should go. She is not meant to live with us. But she is meant to bring smiles to us. Even just for a while.

We looked at her. Her breathing was heavy. But a moment later, it went slower and slower. I saw my mother cried. I googled something about why cats won't eat. They say, talk to your cat and give them food. So I tried it. I talked to her. I tell her please just hold on for a little longer. But she was just so little, and delicate. She wasn't strong enough. She looked like she was in a lot of pain. But we couldn't do anything. All the Vet's are closed at this time of hour. We thought maybe we could take her there tomorrow.

But I had a feeling - a strong feeling - that she won't make it through the night. I was right.

For a moment, I couldn't stand the sight of her like that. So I went inside my bedroom and cried. I cried and cried until my eyes are swelling. After a while I went out, but I heard my mother said softly. She's gone. I cried again, heavily. We all did. Me, my mother, and my sister. It was really painful.

After that, I told my brother, and he was speechless. Angry maybe.

Thank you Allah, for giving us a chance to live with this one perfect creature You've created. Thank you for giving us the smiles and laughter. Oh, Allah, take care of her well up there in heaven. Insyaallah, if You will it, I would like to see her again one day...

Tia baby...I am sorry. We are sorry. We love you so much. I love you so much. Thank you for the smiles you gave me. Even if it was just for 2 days, they were beautiful days.

WE'LL MISS YOU A LOT TIA BABY. WAIT FOR US THERE.

I am sorry if it was my fault that you died. I am so sorry.

Door oh Door!

Salam all.

Look at my title. Well, the main character in my story is not going to be that door. However the door is also a part of my story. So, listen well for all that will be said is important for all men out there (notice the word men instead of guys?).

Anyway, my story will not be complete if I do not address all of you, a very important question. A question that will serve as the main opening for my story. A man is a man, but is he a gentleman?

Now what does gentleman means? Some say son of ruler, some say a prince, and some say noble.

Be it a gentleman or proper man or whatever you call it, the main purpose of this character is subjective. But if I have to tell you one, it is a person that can brings you comfort or conveniences. As Cardinal Newman would say:

A true gentleman in like manner carefully avoids whatever may cause a jar or a jolt in the minds of those with whom he is cast --- all clashing of opinion, or collision of feeling, all restraint, or suspicion, or gloom, or resentment; his great concern being to make every one at his ease and at home.

And I agree, for it has happened to me once. In fact, it was just yesterday. I'd just arrived to my class and I was looking for my group mate. But he wasn't there. So I decided to look outside. I put my bag and I walked towards the door (ah...the door). Then one of my classmate - a guy I should tell you - walked in. After a few steps he stopped at the side, and just stood there. The eyes do what they always do so, I looked at him. He replied my look and then he moved towards the door and opened it for me. He probably realized that I was going out.

Please. Do not think that I was hoping for him to get the door for me. No, that wasn't what the 'look' was for. Like I said, the eyes are only doing their job. I didn't even expect him to walked back to the door and open it for me. Yes, I was taken aback. Not a lot of gentlemen can be found these days. But perhaps I'm just being bias.

Forgive me. I am only say telling you this story because of another story. Another door episode. But with a different character.

I was walking toward my class and then I reached for the door and opened it. Again I was taken aback. No, this time I am the gentleman. The moment I open the door, one of my classmates - a guy of course - walks in.

Now I am not trying to be giddy. I'm not even trying to compare these two situations. I am merely making a point as to what a gentleman is. But remember, I am being bias. However, I have gone through similar stories as the first one.

I leave it all to you to do the comparison. Then only you can answer the question earlier.

HAVE A NICE DAY...

::Narcissistic Production::

See the title? I think they're self explanatory. Told ya I'm a photoholic! :)

Cute face. Failed! :)

Candid.really :P

Girls' Crazy Day Out!

Salam all.

The other day, I suddenly had this crazy idea about going out and spend the whole day at KLCC. I told it to my sister and she said : Yeah, let's do it!

Okay, so I was kind of in a dilemma. Then I said: ok...let's do it!

So the next morning, we went to KLCC with mummy. It's a good thing that she worked there so we got a free lift.lol. But the not-so-best part is that she goes to work at 7.00 a.m. Ok, what are we suppose to do in KLCC so early in the morning? But we go ahead with the plan anyway.

At the security entrance, mummy asked us to wait. She said maybe she could take off for a while. So we waited there for her. There was this security guard who kept looking at us with a very suspicious look. Like he's thinking, what are these kids planning huh? (Cause we are not Petronas employees) . So we went outside. Then another guard outside gave us the same look! Oh kenapa? hahaha...kami bukan penjahat.hehe

Anyhoo. We went for breakfast with mummy and then she went back to work. So we started our day with jalan2 and taking pictures. Yes. We took lots of pictures!! All over KLCC.

Owh and we saw Real Steel!!! It was an awesome movie I tell you! We were almost screaming and jumping in the theater because of the fights (no one heard us cause they were screaming too!). And the OSTs are great. Especially the one by Eminem. It was worth it!

Owh, there was an incident. A stupid one actually. I was holding my sister's hand when we were walking and then two guys from behind screamed at us, saying : wooo, lesbian!!! (mmg jerit betul lah). I heard him said it but I didn't turn but I said: Ade aku kisah? And my sister turned and stared at those guys. haha..bodoh punye lelaki! Not that I was embarrassed or anything. But they are the ones who should be. Nak je aku jerit: ni adik aku la bodoh! But, orang zaman sekarang mane bleh tegur cmtu. Silap2 ktrg kene bunuh kat ctu jgak.haha.. owh and ntah2 drg yg GAY x? hahaha!

Ok lah itu ajer. I'll post some photos on my next entry. Be warned. Very narcissistic!

:P

Laziness and Other Disasters

Salam uolz...

Let's cut the story short okay. Now let me tell you about the things that makes me lazy and the things that doesn't. This entry was a request form a friend of mine who's really interested to know. So I'm giving all the info. Although I have no idea what good it'll do for him.lol.

1. Sy rajin klu sy mmg btol2 nak buat satu2 bende tuh. Tp kalu sy ade persaan nk buat, mmg sy xbuat, or maybe sy buat tp xsiap.haha. Cth: Assignment, download movie...etc...
2. Sy rajin kalu sy buat bende yg sy suka. Cth: Membaca, menulis. Tp klu sy xsuka, sy malas nk pikir. Cth: Mengira...haha
3. Sy malas layan org yg xphm ape yg sy nk ckp.
4. Sy malas dgar ckp org yg ckp buruk pasal org lain tp die sndiri buat.
5. Sy malas nk pretend sy suka kalu sy xsuka. Sy tunjuk je sy xsuka. Watpe jd hipokrit kan?
6. Sy malas layan org yg tersangat sensitif. Maybe that's why klu ade org merajuk, sy diam dan biar die elok sndiri.
7. Sy rajin klu ade org yg ckp perkara yg sy suka dgar. Cth: About music, film, poetry...
8. Sy rajin klu ade org yg membantah ape sy ckp. Sy akan blas blek dgn hujah2 sepatutnyer. Xkisah la klu sy ckp xbetol..haha. (but most of the time I'm right). Sbb sy suka berdebat.
9. Sy malas layan org yg malas lyn sy. That's why ramai org igt sy xperamah.
10. Sy rajin melepak.haha
11. Sy rajin senyum and ketawa.
12. Sy malas klu buat bnde yg memboringkan.
13. Skang sy tgh malas, that's why kje sy xsiap lagi...haha

Ade lg kot. Ntah...

Teehee!

Tears, Weakness or Strength?

Salam readers.

First and foremost, I must apologize for I will discuss yet again about the matters of life. It is a kind of an inevitable thing for me. I can not describe how much I think about these things everyday. Things that relate to human. Today, my question would be, tears; is it a sign of weakness or it is a sign of strength?

Let me begin by making an assumption - although I'm certain this is true - that every single human in this world have cried. Be it that it was 20 years ago, 15 years ago, 2 years ago, a month ago, 15 minutes ago, or maybe even right now. There are lots of reasons behind those tears. Sadness, happiness, or maybe something in between.

Or it could be because of the littlest thing, or other people or maybe just you. And sometimes, you cry just because.

So what is crying to you? If it's a sign of weakness then why do we feel better after we cry? And if it's a sign of strength, then why do we feel embarrassed to just cry? Why are we given this ability in the first place?

Why do some boys/man think that crying is not a cool thing to do? Does crying makes you look weak and makes you look like a girl? So, girls/women are weak? Perhaps...

Everyone is capable of crying. Even a heartless man will have that spot in his heart somewhere. But are they capable of showing it?

To me, tears can tell you a lot about a person. It shows purity, innocence, love, sympathy, loyalty, and many of the good things. That is who you are. So just cry. Because one day, you will tell yourself I wish I had cry...but it will be too late.

It's not a weakness, it's not strength either. It's just being human...

P/s: dedicated to my dear friends, Atie and Ima.

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Ignorant or just Plain Stupid?

Salam all.

Hari ni yang sepatutnye jd hari yg penuh kaler2 utk aku, ttibe dgelapkan oleh 2 org girls nih. Xle blah ayat kan.haha. Aku xtau la ape nk jd manusia2 zaman skang nih. Dah xde kesedaran sivik dah.. sengal la drg nih (termasuk aku jgak). Mesti korang ttanye kan ape yg budak ni melabun dan merepek nih.haha.. aku cite aku cite yer..

Actually, bende ni da bnyk kali aku update kat blog ni (tak tau la klu krg xbace ke x). Tp mmg bende ni common lah. Td time aku nk beratur nk mkn lunch, ttibe ade la 2 org minah ni selamba tenuk je potong line aku and Ima. Mmg la xde sign sruh queue up kan. Tp kau patut sedar sendiri lah, klu tmpat2 cmni mmg kau patut beratur lah. Aku xkesah klu kau nk ptong pon kan, tp at least, hati aku sedap la sket kalu kau minta lalu ke, excuse me ke x pon ape2 yg bleh wat aku xsakit hati. Tp sbb kau senang2 je ptong xckp ape pon.

Yang sorang tuh plak tudung 'lebih'. Act according to your look lah. Otherwise people will say you're hypocrite! And when that happens, u deny like crazy plak...

So, in conclusion, you guys please...have if not a lot just a tiny bitty sense of caring and responsible. And please be aware of other people's rights! Our rights!

Jgn la smpai orang2 kat Malaysia ni jadi macam org2 dlm kejadian kat China tuh. Budak umur 2 tahun kene langgar lari, xde sape pon tolong. Jalan2 and tgk aje budak tuh. Xde ke rse responsible ngan nyawa org? Once ko nmpak budak tu perlu pertolongan, and klu ko xtolong, and die mati, ko pon berdosa skali! Budak tuh dok kat tgh jln tuh nyawa2 ikan. Dah la kene langgar bukan sekali.

Yg lori tu plak, ade ke patut dah langgar skali, die stop and langgar lagi skali ngan tayar blakang! Sbb nk make sure budak tu mati! Pemandu tu kata, klu budak tu mati, die perlu byar sket jer, tp klu xmati, maybe die kne byr lagi mahal. Sekali lagi aku tnye, kita ni manusia ke atau? (krg pikir la sendiri, yg pasti I wasn't going to write 'binatang').

Satu je yg aku benci ttg citer kat China tuh. Ade makcik tolong angkat budak tu ketepi, Makcik tu try nk tlg ngan minta tlong org rmai kat ctu. Tp drg kate mind ur own business! nape xtolong pggilkan ambulans? Nape xtolong die? Klu xbleh tlong, at least duduk ngan die pon xpe. Nape biarkan die?

Hancur luluh hati aku tgk video tuh. I can't keep writing cause' if go on, I'll cry. Klu krg nk tau lebeh lagi click here.

WHO ARE WE REALLY? ARE THERE NO MORE HOPES ON HUMANITY?

Vintage Camera

Argh, so beautiful!

Small but Stunning!

Adventurer. Love :)

My Obsession!

Love!

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Hello and Goodbye

Nobody said life is easy. Nobody said life is hard. I wish someone did. I wish somebody had told me that life is going to give you a hard time. That you're probably going to spend the rest of your life laughing, or maybe crying. Or maybe just something in between. Maybe you're going to spend you whole life saying hellos, or maybe even saying goodbyes. That sometimes people will disappoint you, and hurt you, break you and worse, they might leave you all alone.

I wish there was a manual on how to survive in life. Tell me steps that I need to take whenever I feel lost. Guide me through painful times. I wish I came with a reset button. So that whenever I feel hurt, I can go back to where I was before. Then everything will be okay again. Why can't I change my heart to a different one every time I feel sad? Why don't we have spare parts? Why don't we have replacements, why?

Because we are perfect. We don't need spare parts. We're not a machine, we're human. Even though we can't change our heart but we can feel and get better. Because we can laugh after we cry and we can say hello after we say goodbye. Some will hurt you, but some will hold you. We don't have a reset button cause the past teaches us to not make the same mistakes again. That's why we are who we are.

Bila Lelaki Seperti Perempuan

Salam readers...Annyeong, Konichiwa, bla bla bla...tdo...zzzz

Dah, merepek lagi..uih. Mlm2 nih...xleh nk elak lah. Oh yea, controversi x tajuk saya diatas tuh?? hahaha, klu sy bjaye buat kamu2 terkesima and stop nk bce, attention getter sy berjaya lah. haha.

adoiyai...sy pelik sy tahu.

Okay, baik saya jelaskan maksud disebalik tajuk sy yang 1 nih. Xde kne mngene ngan ape yang kamu2 sume pikir okay. Sy just nk citer satu pengalaman sy bjumpa ngan lelaki yg perangai nye cam ppuan.

Lelaki ini....wah mcm lagu Anuar Zain plak...haha. Lelaki ini, seorang lelaki. Yelah, lelaki lah. Tp die ade perangai cm ppuan Maksud nye die cerewet, sgt2 pnye smpai aku pon rse ppuan pon xde la cerewet cam die. Die pun cepat merajuk smpai xbertegur ngan org and mcm2 lagi lah. Nape yer? Anyhoo, xnk la elaborate pjg2 pasal nih. Aku nk citer pasal die and ade lagi srg yg ske btanye soklan yg pelik2. Xde la pelik pon tp krg akan terangkat kening gak la bile dga drg tnye.

Ade satu hari, Saya, Atie, Ima beserta dua budak lelaki Peers, Nik and Kaer kuar g uruskan pasal Peers Grad. Sepanjang ktrg kuar sesamer tuh, drg asyik tnye soklan pelik2 yg xde la pelik tuh.

Soklan2 nyer mostly dtanyer oleh si Kaer. Dan aku seperti di interview plak oleh budak itu:

1. ko kesah x klu hidop sorang2 and xkawin? - aku jwab, klu xde jodoh nk wat cmne, aku bole jer. Aku mesti la nk kawen, tp klu dtakdirkan xkawen, aku redha asalkan ade org aku syg ngan aku.
2. ko da grad nnt nk jadi apew? - aku nk jd writer. Aku ske menulis. Tulis cerita fiksyen la.
3. ko ade tulis cerita ker? - ade la.
4. Nak bce boleh? - xboleh la. xde sape pnah bce lagi. Sbb aku xconfident lagi nk bg org bace. Bile aku tgk blek ape aku karang, klu aku rse nk edit, aku edit la.
5. Cbe ko nama kan sape tokoh yang ko suka and admire - aku xigt la. Tp yg aku tau die ske bg quote best2 pasal life. (time ni aku mmg xigt namenye, skang da igt, namenye Mark Twain)
6. Ko ske laki tggi ke rendah? - aku ske laki tggi la, sbb aku tggi. Tp klu takdir dpt laki rendah aku trima jer. :P
7. ko ske laki camner? - aku ske laki yg simple. Yang x complicated. yang lebih kurang cam aku jer. X cerewet sumer. (aku ckp gini sbb ko tu cmtuh Kaer...hahaha..
8. atie tnye drg: korang rse pgg tngan awek seronok ke? - drg jwab.....tettttt! aku xleh bgtau..hahaha

Ade lgi kot drg tnye tp aku xigt. Tgk la, lelaki tnye soklan2 cmni. Cam ppuan plak...huhu... Skang da phm nape tajuk entry aku cmtu? hehehe...

Bai!

Chipsmore v.s Biskut

Salam readers!

Ade isu hangit eh hangat nih sy nk citer same kamoo sumer. Tp padahal xde la hangat pon, sje terover. Baik korang jgn terus bce, nnt korg marah sy plak...hehe

Td sy dan bbrapa kawan2 Peers, Atie, Ima, Nik, and Daus Ketua pg Kelab Darul Ehsan nk book tmpat utk Grad Peers nnt. So time otw kat lam keter tuh, aku ade perang mulut sket ngan si Nik tuh. Ktrg perang pasal Biskut and Chipsmore. Ingin sy tegaskan dsini, sume nye si Nik yang start dulu, bkn sy. Sy tgh nk komen pasal Abg yg handle KDE pnye matters yg kejap ade kjap xder tuh aku pon cakap la, abg tuh mcm biskut, kjap ade jap xde.

Ttibe si Nik ni cakap, bkn biskut la, Chipsmore. Walaweh..mmg la aku tgh mksudkan biskut chipsmore tuh. That's why aku ckp biskut, bkn kuih ke ape ke!

Pastu die kt chipsmore tu bkn biskut tp coklat yg kat atas die. Ceh...ape kes! coklat tu mmg la kat atas...atas ape, BISKUT! cbe tgk blek iklan 'Kejap ade kjap xde' dulu krg igt x? Kan dlm iklan tuh, BISKUT Chipsmore tuh yg kjap ade kjap xde kan? Bkn nye Chip coklat tuh! Jd basically btul la aku ckp abg tu mcm biskut! Biskut Chipsmore. Mmg btol la, chipsmore tu chip coklat tuh, tp die kt chipsmore tuh bkn biskut. Ape kah! (marah ni marah). Klu bkn biskut ape? ceh.

So, pada NIK yg nk lawan mulut ngan sy tlg la tgk facts awk tuh dulu. Geram! Cakap sbb nk lawan je semater...ceh. (Atie and Ima, sorry, sy tau kamu side ngan die, tp cbe kamu pikir gak btol x sy ckp).

Elek dulu...sy xde la marah giler..hehe..sje je nk emo..xde pe pon actually..haha. Just nk tegakkan ape yg btul. Sy nk ckp je td dlm keter, tp Atie yg tgh drive mcm stress je dgar so sy diam je lah. But then, krg bce la kat cni...

Sape xetuju angkat tngan!

Ha, tgk gmba ni, kan die tulis ctu, COOKIES! Cookies yang ade bnyk chips! (sggup google cari tau).

Kesimpulannye, jauh mne ko pusing, aku tetap btol NIK!

Bai.

Worlds Within

Salam beloved readers :)

It's a beautiful day isn't it? Bayang je la...ok.

It's been agesssssss since aku last update blog aku nih. Dusty2!!

Duster pon xleh nk cuci. Ye, mulalah aku merepek. Sengal lah! haha!

Ok, skang mungkin korang akan berbisik sesamer sendiri ape hal la minah ni...sakit jiwa kot.

Xde, aku xde sakit jiwa. Walopon ade bebrapa test yg aku amek kat Pakcik Tenet ni mngatakan yg aku ni agak stress sket, tp I'm still holding on!

Aktivity aku di ruang virtual nih kurang sket lately. Sbb per? Yelah, jd student smbil ber blogging part time nih kdg2 susah gak. Lgi2 plak aku xtau la nk melabun apew kat cnih.

Anyhoo, skang aku nk citer pasal orang. Yer, balik2 tajuk org...kan. Xkesah la.

Aku ni jenis ske observe org. mmg ske tahap yg smpai aku sndiri xsedar aku tgh usha org wahaha..dan bile aku usha, aku nmpak la manusia ni sbenanye same jer, cuma perangai lain2. Mcm pepatah Melayu la rambut sama hitam, hati lain2. Btol ke nih? Klu salah tlg tunjukkan yer..hehe.

So, aku nk cite pasal style. Skang ni aku tgk ramai yg dah berani. Based on my observation kat campus akuh, budak2 zaman skang dah maju. Aku tgk laki xkesah pkai beg cm ppuan pnyer, ppuan xkesah pakai beg laki pnyer, bju ppuan lai pkai...bju laki pon ppuan pkai..ish, bunyi cam kontroversi ek? xlah..aku bkn mksudkan cmtu...maksud aku skang bnyk style yg da unisex. Dua2 bole pkai. Get it?

Sume pon cm gedeban lah....haha.

Dah cukup, xtau nk kt ape dah...later!

The Girl in the Mirror

Salam all.

Lame gila xupdate blog aku nih ever since balik raya ari tuh. Xsempat online pon since bile smpai umah jer, trus kemas brg then off to campus. Tergesa2 btol, nasib xcmpak je brg2 tuh. Tu pon ade gak 2, 3 barang yg ttinggal. But, now I'm at home, in front of my lappy and of course, on line. ;)

Ok, kembali ke pangkal jalan. For today's entry, mmg da ade lame dlm pale otak, cuma, like I said la, time nk update nye xde. Nape tajuk nye gitu? Sape plak ppuan dlm cermin tuh? Aku lah. Aku nk cite perangai aku camne. Although aku rse aku da bnyk tulis entry cmni. :P

Tak kesah lah. Ni lah aku setakat yg aku tau. Aku xtau plak org tgk aku ni cmner. Ok yg aku suka:

1. Aku ske senyum. Kdg2 smpai aku sndiri xprasan yg aku tgh tersengih cm kerang busuk. Time jln2 pon aku senyum gak. Bile aku tgk org, org tgk aku, aku senyum kt org tuh. Klu lelaki xla, except klu drg senyum kt aku, aku blas la..haha..
2. Klu ske senyum cam org gila, of course aku mesti ske gelak gak. Yer, aku ske ketawa. Ketawa itu ubat, org kata.
3. Aku ske wat lawak. Walopon kdg2 xmnjadi. Tp bile org ketawa sbb aku, aku rse heppy sesangat! Sbb drg happy :D
4. Aku cinta ngan kucing! Aku sgt sayang kucing, even kucing2 kat luar tuh. That's why klu korang kt korang xske kucing, aku akan buat muka, so jgn marah aku. :D Aku pon ske anything cute la.
5. Aku ske budak2. Baby, budak2 kecik. Aku ske layan drg sbb drg sgt innocent. xde complicated sgt mcm org adult. Oh, and budak2 pon ske aku...hahahaha
6. Aku sensitif sket. Aku cepat rse kesian ngan org. Org nangis aku nk nangis, tgk iklan or cite sedeh aku nangis, dgar cite sedeh pon nangis. Org kt buruk pasal family or kawan pon aku nangis. Gedik rupenye aku nih~
7. Aku xreti marah org. Aku xreti say no to org. Aku rse kne jge hati sume org. Tp kdg2 aku pon terlukakan hati org. Klu org buli aku aku xle nk marah. Klu aku terasa pon aku xsmpan lama2 :)
8. Aku left-handed. Aku ske jd left-handed, sbb aku rse aku unik. I'm one of the 10 percent of the population yg left-handed! kan...haha.
9. Aku right brained. Meaning yg matematik jgn tgk aku. Aku ske art je.hehe
10. Aku teringin nk jd poet. But I have a long way to go.
11. Aku ske English. Aku xske klu org ckp aku ni xsyg bhs sendiri & sbuk belaja bhs penjajah. Aku cuma nk belaja!
12. Aku single.hahaha..
13. Aku ade dromophobic. Means aku takut lintas jalan. Aku xtau la naper. Klu aku srg2, mmg xlintas lah. Aku tgk kenderaan laju pon aku takut gak. -_-"
14. Aku ske dga lagu Rock English !
15. Aku ske tgkap gmbar. Even gmba2 yg xperlu pon.haha. Aku ske tgkap gmbar orang and ape je yg ade yg aku rse tertarik.
16. Aku ske tgk gadget electronic. Tp still blom bole beli sndiri. Ape yg aku ade sume Mummy bg. TQ mummy!
17. Aku suka tgk laut and dga bunyi laut.
18. Aku ske berimaginasi. (Other word for berangan..haha)
19. Aku ske tgk org (bile aku xwat pape). Aku ske nk tgk drg pnye behaviour cmne.
20. Aku ske tdo lambat.
21. Aku makan ape je except ikan owh and kuih raya.hehe
22. Aku ske kaler hitam. Even pakaian or accessories pon aku prefer pilih kaler hitam. Owh, and gadget2 pon. Same ngan mummy. That's why sume yg aku ade kaler hitam..haha
23. Aku ske tido kalu gelap (except klu aku srg2). Klu x, aku susah tdo.
24. Ske baca buku horror or scary jer.

Ade lagi tapi aku xigt. Ok, yg aku xsuka:

1. Aku xske perokok! Anti de very anti! Slalu la jmpe pembunuh2 ni...even dlm campus pon. Xske2!
2. Aku benci org yg suke pukul kucing, mcm yg caught on camera tuh!!! Takat minx maaf xpyah la doe! Tekanan konon. Meh aku bunuh kau!
3. Aku xske jdi serious. Klu aku wat pape mesti kne gelak2. Tp kje kne siap!
4. Aku xlayan lagu Melayu sbb bnyk cintan2.
5. Aku xske org yang ske merajuk.
6. Klau aku tgk wayang, aku xkn tgk cite Melayu, cite cinta, cite yg light lah. Aku akan tgk cite action and horror jer!
7. Aku xske dgar lagu raya.

Pun ade lagi tp aku xigt.hehehe..

Dah la..banyak2 nt org boring nk bace...haha.. (Picture)

Adios!~

Knowing

Okay, I told myself, no don't. But I just can't help it.

I have this thing about me that people find it hard to understand.

What is it that makes me HAPPY.

What is it that makes my LIFE EASIER TO LIVE.

Now I do have people that can make it happen.

People that makes me happy, and CRAZY all the time.

Who just love making fun of me and all,

but the fact that I never cared shows that it makes me CONTENT.

Makes me feel like I BELONG.

Somehow, I feel that this is it.

They are the ones I really cared about.

They are the ones that I want to be around with.

And it all happened in such a short time.

is there such a thing?

I don't want people to understand me.

'Cause sometimes I don't even understand myself.

I just want them to know me.

Know that when I smile, I am SINCERE.

When I laugh, I am SAD.

When I'm sad, they will make me HAPPY.

That's all.

Words

It's a crazy life out there. We talk crap about who we are and who we could be, and between how it is and how it should be. Why didn't we make it different in the first place?

Self Mirror Portrait

I was bored, so let it go~

War

"If we don’t end war, war will end us."

- Herbert George Wells

(Source)

Words and Pics 2

Words and Pics

Wondering

Salam all.

I'm in the office right now feeling bored. I know you guys must be asking yourself how is she able to write this entry while working? Well, this office is amazing 'cause they have WiFi and it's really fast! Owh, not really answering yea? Ok, ok, I only have to take care of the form distribution (xpayah la aku bgtau form ape krg bukan tau pon an). So, the rest drg yg buat. Except klu ade bnde2 kecik drg soh la aku wat.

So, when I'm not doing anything, I surf la! Aku bole on9 sesuka hati aku jer. Hehehe.

Anyhoo, I actually have no story to tell, just want to tell you guys ape yg aku wat pg2 kat tmpat kjer. That's all.

Time tgh tggu akak cleaner bersihkan opis, aku g lah jln2 kat kolan renang sebelah tuh...
Teringat time BFFs aku Atie and Ima dtg umah aku sem lpas, ktrg mandi kat kolam ni sesamer..rindu korang!!




Malas nak tunjuk muka dlm gmbar, tunjuk kaki dah la...haha...

Atie, Ima, nnt dtg umah aku lagi, jom mandi kolam same2 again!

Words

I FEEL LONELY RIGHT NOW. I'M MISSING SOMEONE. SOMEONE WHO ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO SAY WHEN I'M UPSET. SOMEONE WHO'S NOT HERE.

Meant to B!

Salam all.

Hey, aku dlm mode : HAPPY skrg, know why? Sbb ari ni aku and mummy borong bnyk bende yg ktrg mmg xsepatutnye beli...lol.

Anyhoo, mmg giler la citer utk kali nih. Aku cite dr mule lah. Ktrg decide nk pg cari tudung and shawls td, so mummy nak pg Masjid Jamek. Ktrg pon gerak lah dlm pukul 10 lebih cmtu. Mummy kt susah nk parking keter kat sne so die kt nak naik LRT jer. Ok lah, ktrg nk pg station kat Setiawangsa. Dah nk smpai tu, ade jln tutup plak, so da ke tmpat lain la ktrg. Mghala ke Carrefour Setiawangsa la plak. Pastu mummy kt kt pg Carrefour dulu lah. Ok set.

Smpai kat entrance parking, mak ai, keter berderet smpai luar nk masuk dlm. Perh, mmg xla kan ktrg nk tggu. Aku pon bg cadangan plak kt pg Wangsa Walk lah Mama. Mummy pon terpaksa la. So, pg la kami kesana.haha.

Smpai2 je, ktrg g cari tudung la kan. Aku nmpak shawl cntik, tp kain die jenis yg panas, so xjd la nk beli. Xbnyk sgt plak shawl kat sne. Sedeh..hehe

Da jln2 tuh...sedar2 ktrg naik tgkat atas, pastu smpai ke tmpat electronik plak. Pe kjadah nye ktrg nk cari tudung kat stu an. Ktrg pon masuk kedai phone nih. Gile aktrg tgk, bnyk btol brg. So, mummy pg mncari wire utk Galaxy Tab dier...aku plak heheh, cari casing utk phone akuh. Dpt satu, tp harge cam ape ntah. ;(

Tp aku beli gak. hehe, nnt iya bayar blek ye mummy pas gaji ;P

Pastu, ok lah, gerak lg, tgk phone plak. Mummy nih da melekat dgn Galaxy S II plak. Amboi mummy nih, mntang2 lah org klu ade iPhone ade iPad, so mummy klu ade Galaxy Tab, kne ade Galaxy S II gak? haha. Aku kt mummy xperlu lah. Cukup la tuh. Tp mummy nk jgak but of course herga pon gile. Xjd la nk beli.hehe. Ttibe nmpak hphone idaman aku skang SE Xperia Play, pergh...gile cntik! Tp xyah la, hphone skang aku pon ok lg (pon hphone idaman gak ni dulu).

So, ktrg gerak lagi kedai lain. Kdai hphone gak. Nmpak la mcm2 jenis phone. Cantik2 plak tuh. Aishy. Pastu mummy cam nk gak beli smtg, so die nk tgk Galaxy Mini. Cantik and murah tp kurang best la sket, sbb mini je.hehe.

Xjd ngan Galaxy Mini, mummy switch plak kat Samsung Ace! Walaweh. Hati die da melekat plak. Mmg btol2 melekat. So mummy made up her mind, beli! Oh, mummy ni. Dpt la satu Samsung Ace. Dah la rupe die skali tgk mcm iPhone 4. Dem! haha..

Sister and brother Chinese tu pon cam best gile, (found out later that they are engaged to each other, so cweet!). Die bg byk brg free! Time kasih dik (ye, rupe2nye chinese girl tu bru 20 tahun.mude lagi da nk kawen!).

Time tggu die set up phone tuh, ktrg g jln2 jap. Pg kdai sebelah. Kedai brg2 elektronik. Mcm2 gak ade ctu. Sakit hati! haha. Mama g cari brg die pastu nmpak lak bag lappy cntik. Beli lah die. Aku plak, whatever makes you happy mummy. ;)

Dah nk byar, mummy tnye aku, Iya xnak ape2 ke?, yg aku plak beli ape? ttibe mummy suggest hard disk kat akuh. Oh, ye...hehe. Aku pon pilih lah satu. Dpt lah aku sebijik Hard Disk! Trime kasih mummy!!

So, ktrg pg blek kdai phone, amek phone, and then gerak ke kdai sebelah sne plak. Kedai MUSIC! Oh, gile, xthn tgk bnyk instruments! Ktrg pi tgk Keyboard (bkn komputer term ek). Cantik siot. Mummy bg plak cadangan, beli nak? Aku hanya bisa ternganga sahaja. Mummy, oh knape hari ni?hehe.. Ye, mummy beli gak Keyboard tuh! Padahal xreti pon nak main. Abg yg tlg ktrg tu pon xreti, die kt sy main gitar je kak, piano ni sy main tekan2 jer, mummy jawab, kalu itu aku pon main tekan2 jer..smbil gelak. Aku pon gelak skali. Comel gile abg tuh! (aku tau, bulan pose..hehe). Tp mummy pon agreed abg tu comel.haha

Tgk instrument lain plak, abg tu dok explain ape bnde, ktrg angguk jer.haha. Padahal xtau hape pn. Ttibe abg tu tnye aku, ni akak ngan adik ke?, aku mcm da agak da soklan tu msti klua pnyer. Mummy gelak. Aku wat muke trus...hahaha aku ckp ni mak saye la.... abg tuh dgn muke serius jawab yeke? mcm adik ngan akak jer. Aku dlm hati kuang asam tol abg nih..
Salah sape sume ini? hahaha..

So, pas bayar, ktrg nk pg jln lagi so tggl kan keyboard tu dulu kat kdai tuh. Jln2...xde ape da ktrg beli..hehe. Ktrgpi aleh keter lak bg dekat sket abg tu nk antar. Mummy sent aku pg pggil abg tuh. Aku pg lah. Smpai se abg tu kt die ade kje sat. So die mntak tggu kjap. Aku pon tggu la. Aku call mummy, gtau yg abg tu bz. Tup2 mummy kt keyboard tu da smpai keter da. Walaweh, uang asam abg ni, antar xckp kat aku pon! Malu aku kat ctu. Ape g blah lah.haha.

Itu jer, mmg sume yg ktrg beli hari ni lari dr ape yg ktrg nak beli in the first place. Owh, ye x ye, aku ttibe terserempak ngan x-school mate, lelaki. Aku xberani nk tegur..segan weh. Die dgn kawan2 die. Nmpak2 je trus aku tgk tmpt len. Xtau la kot die nmpak aku ke kan. Ntah2 xigt pon..haha...

Kesimpulannyer, sume yg blaku hari ni was meant to be larh!
Dah la, pjg2 lak entry nih..buhbye.




Sprti bese lah, hari aku klu xde gmba mmg xsah. Gmbar ni aku snap gune phone bru mummy. Best! 1st picture dlm phne mummy gmbar aku!!! Hahahaha...loike!

Me Against The World!

Just like everybody else in this electronic journal, I am here to voice out things I have in mind. By things I meant all sorts of things that I can think of. Be it crazy, insane, unbelievable, unthinkable, intelligent, not so intelligent, things. One thing about me is, I love to talk about everything.
You see, I don’t have to think about anything else other than myself. What is the point of burdening my brain that’s already full of its own thoughts. But along the way, I realized that we can’t avoid thinking about others and the world. We are living in it after all. And we do need each other. We are a social being. Without others we’ll basically…well, go crazy. That’s in fact, is a fact.
Yeah, another thing about me is I love to babble. Unimportant things are my interest. Maybe cause sometimes I think that the least important stuff are the most important ones.
So, why am I here? I’m here because I have something to say.
I want to sing it for the world!



Teehee!

My Bro!

Salam all.

Today I want to show you my Bro.
My one and only big Bro who's very dear to me.
We're only a year a part. He's now 23. I'm 22 of course.
So, growing up with that close age, we were very tight and close to each other.
Even until now.

We've been through lots of ups and downs together that some of it, no one even know.
I look up to him very much and I pray he will have a happy life.
A life that he never get to have before.

There he is. When we were kids, people thought that we were twins because we look alike and 'cause we are only a year apart.

See? Yang xle blah, style rambut pon lebeh kurang..lol..



I like this picture very muchie! Comel xktrg? Perah-san, aku tau..

Ni lah aku dan abg aku (eyh, ttibe ade nana nih. Sorry gmba aku and abg aku ade lam lappy lame lah...ini je ade.lol)

Arite. Ini aje. Daa...

Kings and Queens

Salam all.

Time for another episode of total crapness (don't use this word wherever you are, it's only reserved for those who doesn't care). So, let's go.

What if we were Kings and Queens? All of us?
What if we were someone BIG?
What if we were all the same?

What if we all want the same thing?
What if we don't care about power?
What if we just live and die?
What if we don't mind saying Hello and Goodbye?
What if we were all crazy?
What if we just be HUMAN?

Believe it or not, being human is the hardest thing to do.
You, me, do we believe that we are actually human?
How do we know we are?

I never understood how to be a human.
They say by making mistakes.
But making to many mistakes is making me feel less and less human.
Why is that?

Quote

“We need others. We need others to love and we need to be loved by them. There is no doubt that without it, we too, like the infant left alone, would cease to grow, cease to develop, choose madness and even death.”

-Leo F. Buscaglia

Uncivilized

Salam all.

I got plenty of times in my hands. The worse part about having too much time is that, you just want to do everything! But in the end, nothing ever gets done, you know what mean.

Aside from taking lots and lots of pictures, I am now in a middle of writing a fictional story. Yes, like I said, too much time in my hands.

I already have 1 short story done but no one has read it yet. I don't know, I guess I'm not ready to let anybody read them. Full stop.

So what's the deal with the world today? Let's see, I've actually lost track of what's happening around me. I know. I haven't watched the news for quiet a while now. So, I heard about this riot that's been occurring in London and the heartbreaking story about one of our own, Asyraf. You guys heard what happened? He was beat up and then mugged. I saw what happened. No, I wasn't there but I watched the video.heh.

The video showed him, sitting down and bleeding on the side of the road and confused. So one of the guys who happened to be there picked Asyraf up and tried to help him. I was like okay, so there is still some good people out there. But then I took everything I said, back. Another guy came up to Asyraf and began to sneak his hand into Asyraf's backpack. While he was going through the bag, the first guy who was so-called-helping joined the other guy looking inside Asyraf's bag.

The second guy took something out of the bag, (found out later that it was a PSP) and walked away like nothing happened. Then the fist guy did the same thing. He walked away, ignoring his first intention; helping the kid.

So, I almost teared up when I watched the rest of the video, showing Asyraf tried to stop them from taking his stuff but he was injured so he couldn't put up much of a fight. All he could do was watched them walk away. Then he just continued walking, bleeding and hoping someone would help him. But no one did. I could tell he was confused.

I felt him right at that moment. How could this have happened to him? The first guy, I know he was trying to help Asyraf. He looked like he really wanted to help him. But then, when he saw an opportunity, he gave in. That's what saddens me the most.

Anyhoo, Alhamdulillah, Asyraf is okay now and the police managed to capture the guy who stole Aysraf's PSP (I think). And you know what else that shocked me? The guy who stole the PSP, is a son of a billionaire!! What the fish! I mean, do you see what I meant by opportunity? What is a PSP to a billionaire lah kan? He could have bought himself one. But why did he stole it? (Kepuasan diri. Nak ambik kesempatan dkat org yg xberupaya. Kurang ajar namenyer.)

Ape2 pon, syukur bnyk2 Asyraf selamat mnjalani pmbedahan rahang kat Royal Hospital London. Owh, and ade pihak yg bsimpati dgn keadaan Asyraf dan bantu die. (Drg belikan PSP dan gantikan PSP die yg kne curik, support die blajar, and also help family die). Bguslah...ade gak org nk bantu.

So, think about it. Why do people do what they do? It's not about the hardships of life anymore. It's just for the fun of it. It's sad. Whatever happened to the so-called civilized people? It's just a name now. In fact, it always has been.

To watch the video and read the story click here.

Drama di Tempat Kerja

Salam all.

Lame aku xbermadah kat cni yer. Rindu kat korang...hahaha
Ade ke orang rindu aku? (jgn jawab).

So, by looking at the title for this particular entry, I'm sure you guys are wondering what kind of drama am I talking about yea? Nk cite la ni, ce sabaq...

Pagi2 aku dtg office, aku dok la luar sat, sbb ade mak cik cleaner nk cuci lantai. Ttibe ade la uncle chinese ni dtg. Aku kenal die sbb die ade dtg amek form semalam. Die ni sgt cerewet org nye. Nk kata scary pon ade gak. Anyhoo, even though die chinese, die da masuk Islam. So die saudara baru. Die ni mcm ade bnyk probs tau sbb dtg2 je die trus bkk citer masalah die kat ktrg sumer. Die kt brg die bnyk kne curi, kad entrance die la, duit die 20 inggit lah..kat dlm umah die plak tuh.

So, the problem is, masalah tu jd kat dlm umah die, what can we do? Btol x? Die kt ade pencuri, but then xde sape nmpak. Die pon xde nmpak. Mmg xle wat ape lah.

Die cite lagi, kad entrance die hilang, nnt kene buat baru byr lagi duit..bla bla bla lah...
Mula2 die cite kat akak jge kaunter tu. Ala, akak yg aku kt cantik tu Kak Rozie. Die pon dgar jer.. Die da xthn die blah..bole plak uncle tu ttibe cite kat aku plak. Aish.

Die cite dgn penuh kesungguhan yg teramat..amek kao. Aku pon xtau ape2 an, aku angguk jela. Just being polite. Smbil aku sengih2...ttibe akak Rozie pggil dr dlm. Aku pon masuk lah. uncle tu pon blah. Sorry uncle, bkn sy xnk dga, tp klu sy dga pon ape sy bole buat. I am just a temp.hehe..

Oklah, smpai ctu je. Aku pon continue ngan kje aku. Ttibe die dtg blek. Die tnye kak Rozie ape perkataan 'harimau' dlm bhs Arab? walaweh...aku pon terkesima lah. Ttibe je harimau apsal.
Akak Rozie and Boss pon terkesima gak. Aku dlm hati aku tau ape translation die, tp xckp la kuat2. hehe..

Pastu die bgtau sndiri, mula2 die explain pkataan tu dlm BM, BI, Tamil, Chinese, Hokkien..segala. Amek kao! Then die kt dlm bhs Arab, harimau is 'Namirun'. Mmg btol lah. Tp ape yg die nk ckp sbenanyer? Die kt org Islam pon xtau. IDe tnye imam kat masjid pon imam tu kt nnt die cr kamus. Pastu die kt pasal racist agama ape ntah.

Tp die mmg tegaskan td, die kt "I am a Chinese, and sy masuk Islam tp bkn masuk melayu. I am a Chinese. Korang agak2 ape maksud die ea? Aku pon xphm lor..

Ok, pastu die ilang blek. Ok la..kak Rozie and Boss dok ckp pasal die. Aku pon dga la. Bkn nk eavesdrop okay! xkn aku nk tutup telinga kan??? haha...

Ttibe! Jeng3! Die dtg blek. Kali ni pkataan baru plak 'sudu'! haha.. Die tnye ape makna sudu dlm Arab.Ktrg terkesima lagi...Again die explain dlm sume bhs tuh. then die bgtau dlm bhs Arab. Aku xigt la ape. Die mcm xpuas hati nape bile die tnye makna kat org Islam Melayu, sume xleh jwab. Uncle, ktrg blaja Islam bkn bhs Arab. Mmg la blajar bhs Arab tu pnting. Tp jgn la assume klu org Islam drg tau bhs Arab. Tp sy blaja yer..hehe. Terkial2 la gak.

Dah, itu je. Pastu diie da xdtg lagi dah. Hehe... Ok, cite lain plak, hari ni pergh, bz teramat la syg! Org anta form org amek form org salah bg form org xcukup form..huh! Mcm2!

Ade plak 2 org budak ni, dtg bg form, parents mane? :P duit yg kne byr pon xde. Dah la xnk senyum..sakit hati I tau.haha.. Ttibe budak2 tu ilang. Kak Rozie soh call tnye duit, aku call, Aunty tu cm marah, xde pon kt kne byar 30 inggit bla bla bla...ahh...aku pass kat akak Rozie..hehe jht kan aku? haha

Aku mmg stress ari ni. Seb bek ade 2 org budak kecik comel giler wat aku sng hati blik. Aku senyum kat budak srg tu die sengih..comel gile! Pastu die men pengsan2 kat atas lantai. Haha lawak tol...

Dah la, aku stop cni jer. Tangan aku da sejuk, aircond office ni pnye pasal. Ye aku kat office skang ni srg2...haha. Aku pon xtau la nape drg dok kt AC ni xsejuk. Gile la...onye la sejuk kat cni! Smpai drg bwk kipas stand tu bukak skali! Aku da naik beku doe!!

Pas kje ni, bru la aku tau, rupe2 bkn sng nk kje ni. Kene deal ngan mcm2 jenis org kat luar tuh. Patut la slalu org kje ni stress yer?

P/S: Isnin ni pkataan ape plak agaknyer?

Daaa!

Nightmare on This Street

Salam all.

Sorry, the title has nothing to do with the movie. It's just a title. I had a bad dream last night. It's been a while since I had one. I don't know why I had it (I think maybe I was too tired last night).

So, my dream went like this, I was kidnapped by a girl who's also a psycho. Yea, kidnapped! Along with 2 of my friends (I think there were 2). I don't know them. I just assume that both of them were my friend judging from the situation. And, I couldn't see what they all looked like, including my kidnapper.

All I remember was, we were in a dark house, and there she was, with a gun. So, aku bkak mata, aku nampak kawan2 aku tuh. Tp peliknye ktrg xkne ikat pon. That girl was screaming and yelling something to us tp aku xigt die ckp ape. Smpai satu tahap, aku marah, aku jerit balik kat psycho tuh.
Die pon ape lagi, marah jgak la. Die soh aku keluar ke halaman rumah.
Owh, lupe plak, tempat dlm mimpi aku tu sebiijk mcm rumah kat kampung aku.

Time dkat halaman tuh, die point the gun at me.
Aku plak, xtau la cmne bole ttibe ade handphone kat tgn aku.
(aku igt2 mcm aku ambik senyap2 dr die).
Handphone to aku igt jelas, mcm hphone aku dulu SE W910i.
Tp lain sbb kaler die hitam.

So time die tgh marah2 aku tu, aku nmpak mcm die nk tembak aku.
So aku telefon polis. Bru nk tekan 9, ttibe ade srg polis 20 kaki dr ktrg.
Sorang die jer. Bile aku nmpak die aku terus jerit, ppuan ni nk bunuh saya.
Then I have no idea why I started to run.
When I ran, the psycho shot me at the back.
I fell, and then polis tuh draw his gun plak and try to shoot the psycho.
Aku bangun nak lari, aku toleh blakang, polis tu kene tmbak, kepala die dah putus.
Walaweh, kepala putus? Aku rse psycho tu guna pistol jer.
Xpe lah mimpi pon kan.

Anyhoo, pastu aku nmpak kawan2 aku pon lari keluar, masuk dlm hutan.
Aku pon ikut sama lari. The psycho pon kejar ktrg.
Aku igt, aku nyorok blkg pokok..haha..
Tp siyes, I was absolutely terrified.
Takut sgt2. Time tgh nyorok ttibe bunyi handphone.
Rupe2nye alarm phone aku bbunyi. Ceh. Kacau mimpi aku plak.

Mase aku terbangun tu, nafas aku turun naik sbb takut.
Rugi xdpt tau ape jd.
Camne pon, mimpi aku ni mcm cite horror kan?
Kalu buat jd filem best nih..haha

P/s: Maybe mlm ni smbung blek kot mimpi. Ade ke? :P

1st Day At Work

Salam all.

No special story for today. Just want to share with you guys on my 1st day at work. I'm on a semester holiday right now so I'll be at home for 2 months. Since I don't have better things to do (than just sitting in front of this old lappy and rant), my mom hook me up with this work. It's just an easy job, checking papers and forms, that's all. And it's only for 2 weeks.

1st day saya mcm cuak jugak, yelah 1st time kerja. Saya xpernah keja lagi sbelum ni. Smpai2 je ade akak cantik kat dlm office tuh. So die bgtau ape saya nk kene buat, then saya pon terus buat. Keja die senang jer. Bagi borang kat penduduk tmpat saya tinggal ni. Saya kerja dkat office umah saya jer. Management pnye office.

1st time kje, saya mcm kekok, xtau ape nak kne explain. But then akak cantik tuh explain skit2 kat saya. Saya pon, bile org dtg nak ambik borang, saya kne explain cmne nk isi borang2 dkat org tuh plak. Xde susah mane pon.

Overall, 1st day nih boel tahan cuma boring jer. Yelah kalu xde org dtg nk amek borang, saya termenung jer lah kat ctu. Tp kan, akak cantik tuh garang. Die tegas btol, takut plak saya ni. Suara die kuat, nak compare ngan suara saya ni mcm langit ngan bumi...haha

Thanks to Allah, sumenye ok. Akak tuh pon, even tho die garang tp die baik dgn saya.hehe. Owh, td die bg punch card, aku pon tercari2 la mane punch machine tuh, rupenye kat post guard. Pg kat ctu ramai la abg2 guard. Segan plak saya (xle blah). Da la xreti nak guna punch card tuh. Saya pon tanpa segan silu tnya drg, camne ek, saya xreti lah. Drg pon tunjukkan. Baik btol abg tuh! hehe. 1st time punch card, best! Tp sy still xreti lagi la, cmne esok?

Anyhoo, esok 2nd day, hopefully better than today. Amin... Ok, smpai sini, nk pg tlg mama sy masak lauk bbuka nnt, selamat bbuka korang sumer! Jgn lupe bce doa.

P/s: Kucing sy Glow, nk masuk kuali panas, kang jadi goreng kucing kang!, jerit mama saya. Sy pon kat dpn jerit blek, "Kucing goreng la mama, haha." Mak saya tergelak ajer.

Toodles!~

A Message...

Salam all.

I'm still awake right now. Tomorrow, I mean today is the 1st day of Ramadhan. I can't believe it's finally here again. Alhamdulillah I'm still here and well to perform my fasting. I pray that this Ramadhan, I will be a lot better than days before and Allah s.w.t will bless me and my family. May our deeds during this month be accepted by Him. Amin....

This Ramadhan will be the 1st Ramadhan that I will be able to complete at home ever since I was in Yuaiea! Like2..hehe

To all my Muslim friends, Happy Fasting. Take care of yourself and drive slow.hehe.

Black & White

Salam all.

I feel like today's entry will be all about me since I'm the photo geek. My tendency to click the camera button is extremely high! Then again, this is how photoholic is supposed to feel yeah? Anyhoo, today's picture will carry the theme of "Black & White". I love photos with this sort of theme. It gives the sense of old times and memories (to me). Be warned, the photos are a hundred percent in a I don't care what people say to me attitude.



You guys know what else is black and white aside from the editing effect that I've used? My outfit. Yeah. I'm wearing a black shawl, a white dress and a black slack owh and a black watch. Talking about black and white!

There. I promise other pictures of me after this will be a lot less awkward. I'm still finding ways to pose myself in front of the camera. What should my next theme be yeah?

P/s: I bad at making a serious face.lol

Photo Of The Day

Salam all. Tgh boring2 ni, so aku pon tgk2 la gmbar2 yg dah bzaman dlm lappy aku nih. Anyhoo, gmba kat atas ni xde la bzaman lagi. Klaka an gmba nih? Siyes nk tgelak tgk. Rsenye Kak Intan amek gmba kandid nih.

Ni time ktrg kat UTM Serdang. Ade aktiviti perkampungan PERSIS. Utk Peers lah. Gmba utk hari ini. Kah kah, siyes la lawak. Aku, Ima and Farah, tige2 jelas nmpak boringnye. Tp Ima paling xle blah..yg tgh tuh.haha. Sorry Ima aku ltak gmba nih. :)

These are my babes. There are others, but I'll put them here later yea! Miss you guys so damn much! I'll see you guys next sem!

Adios!

Random Stuff

Hehe..comel x gmba kucing sbelah ni? Comel giler!! Hahaha...xde kne mngene pon dgn cite nih..Just a random picture :P

Salam all.

Wah, aku kboringan ditahap paling maksimas!
Cemaner xnk bg boring nih? Menapak dpn lappy jelah 24 jam.
Semalam da cbuk buat photoshoot segar dari bilik sendiri.lol

Hari ni ape plak aktiviti yg aku nk buat? Photoshoot lagi?
Owh, caner nk jd photogenic ek?
Apsal lpas aku amek gmba beribu (nk dkat bjuta) bru lah ade yg ok.
Ade org tuh, tiap2 bjuta gmba tu la gmba yg cantik. Why?!
(disini aku bkn maksudkan gmba sendiri je, tp gmba bnde yg lain pon).

Xpelah. Korang pcaye x skang aku tgh dgar lagu Justin Beiber Never Say Never?
Hahaha..walopon I'm not a big fan of his, but aku ske lagu die.
And, even though jugak aku ske kutuk2 lagu nih part Never Say Never tu kan, yg mcm Nigahiga wat dlm video die, "Never Say Never....but I already said it twice"...mmg btol dan logik la tuh kan? hahaha. Tp aku dgar lagu best, aku xtgk org nye sgt. Tp klu lagu tu xbest, dgn org2 skali aku xske..haha Mcm lagu Rossa Menunggumu. Aku xde la xsuka mula2, (xde lah dgar jugak) tp sbb ade la hamba Allah yg dok mainkan lagu nih berjuta2 kali sehari smpai seminggu! Smpai pening dan nk termuntah! (aku xmain2 siyes). So, aku pn dah anti ngan lagu tu. Jd jgn mainkan lagu tu bile dgn aku!!

Eyh, aku da merepek pasal lagu plak. Kegilaan da dtg.

Anyhoo, esok aku xdpt nk update blog ni lah sbb ade kenduri kat umah maklang.
Aku akan mnjadi waitress plak time tu. Bese lah, permintaan hot nih..lol
Then, aku akan start kje plak. 2 minggu je kje nyer, xlame. Tp gaji die hot!
Time tuh pon aku dpt la nk update blog bnyk2..dem!

Moving on, weh, ttibe aku tringin nk buat v-log lah. Pasal ah?
Sume nye aku nk buat. Pastu satu pon xjd, ish!

Dah la, bai!

P/s: aritu Hotlink bg mms lagu Rossa Menunggumu!! Kuang asam btol la hotlink, bg lagu tu kjadah kat aku! Tau2 je. Dem!

Who Cares?

Salam all.

Sesajer nk bmadah kat cni. Penat jd serious plak. Tamo tamo dah. Benci jd siyes. Nnt I ttibe je bnyk wrinkle plak. (ape aku merepek nih?).

Ok lah, nk smbung cite trus. Tp xmao pjg2..

Selalu klu kt ppuan nih, msti xlari nk cite pasal guys an? Nape yer? Senang cite crush la. Tp kdg2 tu kt xnk org len tau yg kt ade crush ngan org tu, sbb org salu komen yg xbesh pasal die. Tp, matters of the heart ni, susah sket nk lawan kan? Stuju dak?

So, sbb kan kt segan nk bgtau yg kt ske kat org tuh, kt dok je bmimpi sorg2. Ade gak kt bgtau best friend kt, tp yelah, takat crush je nk wat cmne. Takat usha jer la. That's it.

Tp, makin lame kt usha, makin rse dekat je ngan org tuh. Rse mcm kt da knal die baik pnye. padahal xpon. Imaginasi je tuh. Ade gak most of the time kt rse meluat plak tgk org tuh. But still, bile die ade dpn mata, mulalah, xsng dduk. Tp mulut kt lain hati akan kt lain sbb nk cover. Btol x?

Yelah, kawan ttibe ckp die tgh ckp ngan ppuan la. Yg kite plak, yeke? Alah, biarlah..xkesah pon. Tp sbenanye dlm hati, OMG, sape plak minah tuh! Jelez plak. Huih.

So, itula, ppuan sbenanye. Walopon suke cmne pon, smpan je la dlm hati cause we know it can never be. Hehehe...itu saje.

P/s: Ttibe teringat kat die. Haish.

A Secret I Dare Not Say

What would you do if you suddenly found out a secret about someone close to you? And it isn't a pleasant one? But this person doesn't know that you knew. What should you do? This is a very big secret and you just can't help thinking about it every second. Should you tell anyone about this? Or should you just keep it to yourself?

If I keep it to myself, then he'll be lost forever. But if I tell her, she'll break.
I don't want that. I am really desperate and confused. Dem! What to do?

If you were me, what would you do? Please help me.

A Day Out

Salam all.

Ari ni ak bgun awl pagi (pagi la sgt..haha) sbb ade byk bnde nk buat. First ktrg hit skola adik laki aku sbb nk selesai masalah2 yg xsepatutnyer. Tp cikgu die plak xde. Dem! Sian mak aku amek cuti sia2 jer. Dah la nk kjut die pnye la lame, smpai opah aku yg kne kjut skali. Smpai2 cikgu plak xde. Ish! So ktrg pon trus lagi pergi bank, mak aku ade hal. Then blek umah anta adik aku.

Pastu trus pg Rawang. Mak aku g bank Islam plak nk bukak akaun utk my lil' sister. Lame plak tggu smpai nk terlelap aku dlm keter, tp xle nk tdo sbb pkai lense plak, adoiyai. Da abes, ktrg gerak g umah maklang aku nk anta opah aku.

Smpai2 umah maklang, die xde kat umah. Rupenye pg amek anak die dr skolah. 2 minit pastu die smpai tp xnmpak ktrg. Seb bek Awyn nmpak opah. Hehe.. Maklang aku kt nk pg Parkson sat. Okayla, ktrg ikot la skali.

Smpai2 kat Parkson, 1st think ktrg wat adelah mkn. hehe. Aku xmkn eh, tlg sket. Da mkn ktrg gerak nek atas, kat bju kanak2. Cousin2 aku nih plak, blari2 mcm kat taman kanak2. Seb bek xramai org. Ish.heheh.

Da jln2 tuh, smpai time nk blek, ttibe mummy and maklang tnampak sale tudung, apelagi, mmg xtgk tmpat len lah..haha. Aku plak dok kat dpn kedai tuh smbil layan Icha. Ttibe Awyn pon join skali (Smpat gak aku ushar abg cashier tuh..comel..haha..).

Da abes shopping, ktrg masuk keter, pg ke JJ plak. Bnyk btol jln2 an? Beli brang lagi. Mummy nk beli blender. So mmg kecoh ar ktrg kat section brang letrik tuh. Mummy nk beli yg cantik jer. huhu. Jumpe lah 1 lpas da lame nk decide tuh.heh

Time tgh tgk2 barang tuh, ade lah aku nmpak group of guys nih, nmpak srupe je outfit drg mcm tentera pon ade. Tp xtau la drg tu sape. Mmg segan la tgk drg, jln2 je nmpak drg. Aku keep steady jelah kan.heheh. Mummy and maklang cbuk bershopping, aku plak cbuk gelak2 smbil jd budak kcik dgn cousin2 akuh.haha.

Da siap beli brg, smpai jer kat keter, mak aku tnye, budak2 laki yg ramai2 td tuh dr mane ek? Maklang aku kt ntah la, mcm tentera jer. Pastu ttibe mak aku ckp, drg tu la yg tnye mama "Kawan sy nk ngorat anak makcik bole?" yg mummy pon jwab: "Ngorat lah.." hahah...mama nih.
Encourage drg plak. Pastu mummy tnye drg :"mne korang tau tu anak makcik?" drg jwab: eh, adelah makcik..hehe."

Yang aku plak, langsng xtau ape2 pasal kjadian nih, walopon aku ade kat ctu td. Nmpak sgt sibuk jd kanak2 riang. Haha..

Tp ape2 pon aku nmpak org lain. Heheh. Ade srg guy yg jge belon. Cute nye die. Hehe.. Aku pon smpat gak beli brg, aku beli kasut. Hahaha...xle blah!

Smpai umah maklang, dok lepak2 plak. Tgk tv je kje. Ttibe ade satu cite tu ade org yg aku kenal. Pelakon yg aku pnah tgk time tgk Play kat Aswara dgn Sir SAO. Tajuk cite tuh, 'Dahlan Steady' kat astro. Aku xpnah tgk sbb xde channel tuh kat umah. Tp ade srg lagi pelakon laki dlm cite tuh sbijik cam muke Zack Efron! Siyes! haha..x caye g tgk.

Dlm pkul 9 lebeh, Paklang blik kjer. Ktrg trus tgk citer 'Karak'. Hantu die bole tahan scary nyer. Tp sbb tgk kat umah jer so xde la takut sgt. Paklang aku yg mmg penakut tuh ade terjerit skali time scene dlm toilet tuh..hahaha...ktrg pon gelak abes. Aku terkejut la tp xjerit. Si Shahir pnye pasal.huh

Cite die bole tahan, tp agak boring la, and confusing. Tp ape yg aku bole kt, seb bek xtgk cite ni kat wayang.hehe.

So, dlm pkul 12 tuh, ktrg blek lah umah. Otw nk blek tuh, ttibe lampu dalam keter ter on sendiri. Aku pon pelik lah. Ttibe tringat cite Karak tuh. teringst je la, xtakut pon. Terkejut pon x coz ktrg igtkan keter blkg suluh lmpu tinggi. Heheh.

Pastu ttibe ade plak ambulans lalu. Aish, wat seram jer ambulans nih. Heh. ttibe adik laki aku call, lapar plak. Pg lah ktrg kedai mamak. Makan lagi. Ish.

So da smpai umah, smayang sumer, dok la aku dpn lappy nih. Ouh, gmba tu time dlm keter. Bese lah Awyn and Icha, ikut cousin die gak Kak Iera nih ske bgamba..hehe. Itu sjer citer aku. Dah lah, aku ngantuk. Time to sleep.

Adios, daa...