Goodbye Baby

Salam all.

This is going to be a heart breaking story. At least for my part. As I'm writing this, my eyes are swelling and I can't see clearly because of the tears. Yes, I am crying. You may think it's because of something that must be really sad. It is.

Me and the rest of my family just witness our new cat Tia, died. By new I meant she was just taken last weekend. I had just came back from campus and I couldn't wait to see her (I only had a picture of her sent by my mother). I came home yesterday, and the first thing I did was look for her. She is beautiful. I mean was beautiful. Of course she was, Allah is perfect.

I played with her, and cuddled her. She was a light. But there was something wrong. She wouldn't eat or drink. She was not happy. We could feel it.

So this morning, we took her back to the shelter place where we got her to get her examined. The woman there said she was a little skinny. Another one said didn't look like she was sick. I was a bit relieved. They gave us some kind of vitamin and told us what kind of food to give her. We went back home, she was still the same. We gave her food she won't eat. We gave her water she won't drink. We were scared for her because if she doesn't eat something, she'll be sick.

But Allah decided that she should go. She is not meant to live with us. But she is meant to bring smiles to us. Even just for a while.

We looked at her. Her breathing was heavy. But a moment later, it went slower and slower. I saw my mother cried. I googled something about why cats won't eat. They say, talk to your cat and give them food. So I tried it. I talked to her. I tell her please just hold on for a little longer. But she was just so little, and delicate. She wasn't strong enough. She looked like she was in a lot of pain. But we couldn't do anything. All the Vet's are closed at this time of hour. We thought maybe we could take her there tomorrow.

But I had a feeling - a strong feeling - that she won't make it through the night. I was right.

For a moment, I couldn't stand the sight of her like that. So I went inside my bedroom and cried. I cried and cried until my eyes are swelling. After a while I went out, but I heard my mother said softly. She's gone. I cried again, heavily. We all did. Me, my mother, and my sister. It was really painful.

After that, I told my brother, and he was speechless. Angry maybe.

Thank you Allah, for giving us a chance to live with this one perfect creature You've created. Thank you for giving us the smiles and laughter. Oh, Allah, take care of her well up there in heaven. Insyaallah, if You will it, I would like to see her again one day...

Tia baby...I am sorry. We are sorry. We love you so much. I love you so much. Thank you for the smiles you gave me. Even if it was just for 2 days, they were beautiful days.

WE'LL MISS YOU A LOT TIA BABY. WAIT FOR US THERE.

I am sorry if it was my fault that you died. I am so sorry.