The Girl in the Mirror

Salam all.

Lame gila xupdate blog aku nih ever since balik raya ari tuh. Xsempat online pon since bile smpai umah jer, trus kemas brg then off to campus. Tergesa2 btol, nasib xcmpak je brg2 tuh. Tu pon ade gak 2, 3 barang yg ttinggal. But, now I'm at home, in front of my lappy and of course, on line. ;)

Ok, kembali ke pangkal jalan. For today's entry, mmg da ade lame dlm pale otak, cuma, like I said la, time nk update nye xde. Nape tajuk nye gitu? Sape plak ppuan dlm cermin tuh? Aku lah. Aku nk cite perangai aku camne. Although aku rse aku da bnyk tulis entry cmni. :P

Tak kesah lah. Ni lah aku setakat yg aku tau. Aku xtau plak org tgk aku ni cmner. Ok yg aku suka:

1. Aku ske senyum. Kdg2 smpai aku sndiri xprasan yg aku tgh tersengih cm kerang busuk. Time jln2 pon aku senyum gak. Bile aku tgk org, org tgk aku, aku senyum kt org tuh. Klu lelaki xla, except klu drg senyum kt aku, aku blas la..haha..
2. Klu ske senyum cam org gila, of course aku mesti ske gelak gak. Yer, aku ske ketawa. Ketawa itu ubat, org kata.
3. Aku ske wat lawak. Walopon kdg2 xmnjadi. Tp bile org ketawa sbb aku, aku rse heppy sesangat! Sbb drg happy :D
4. Aku cinta ngan kucing! Aku sgt sayang kucing, even kucing2 kat luar tuh. That's why klu korang kt korang xske kucing, aku akan buat muka, so jgn marah aku. :D Aku pon ske anything cute la.
5. Aku ske budak2. Baby, budak2 kecik. Aku ske layan drg sbb drg sgt innocent. xde complicated sgt mcm org adult. Oh, and budak2 pon ske aku...hahahaha
6. Aku sensitif sket. Aku cepat rse kesian ngan org. Org nangis aku nk nangis, tgk iklan or cite sedeh aku nangis, dgar cite sedeh pon nangis. Org kt buruk pasal family or kawan pon aku nangis. Gedik rupenye aku nih~
7. Aku xreti marah org. Aku xreti say no to org. Aku rse kne jge hati sume org. Tp kdg2 aku pon terlukakan hati org. Klu org buli aku aku xle nk marah. Klu aku terasa pon aku xsmpan lama2 :)
8. Aku left-handed. Aku ske jd left-handed, sbb aku rse aku unik. I'm one of the 10 percent of the population yg left-handed! kan...haha.
9. Aku right brained. Meaning yg matematik jgn tgk aku. Aku ske art je.hehe
10. Aku teringin nk jd poet. But I have a long way to go.
11. Aku ske English. Aku xske klu org ckp aku ni xsyg bhs sendiri & sbuk belaja bhs penjajah. Aku cuma nk belaja!
12. Aku single.hahaha..
13. Aku ade dromophobic. Means aku takut lintas jalan. Aku xtau la naper. Klu aku srg2, mmg xlintas lah. Aku tgk kenderaan laju pon aku takut gak. -_-"
14. Aku ske dga lagu Rock English !
15. Aku ske tgkap gmbar. Even gmba2 yg xperlu pon.haha. Aku ske tgkap gmbar orang and ape je yg ade yg aku rse tertarik.
16. Aku ske tgk gadget electronic. Tp still blom bole beli sndiri. Ape yg aku ade sume Mummy bg. TQ mummy!
17. Aku suka tgk laut and dga bunyi laut.
18. Aku ske berimaginasi. (Other word for berangan..haha)
19. Aku ske tgk org (bile aku xwat pape). Aku ske nk tgk drg pnye behaviour cmne.
20. Aku ske tdo lambat.
21. Aku makan ape je except ikan owh and kuih raya.hehe
22. Aku ske kaler hitam. Even pakaian or accessories pon aku prefer pilih kaler hitam. Owh, and gadget2 pon. Same ngan mummy. That's why sume yg aku ade kaler hitam..haha
23. Aku ske tido kalu gelap (except klu aku srg2). Klu x, aku susah tdo.
24. Ske baca buku horror or scary jer.

Ade lagi tapi aku xigt. Ok, yg aku xsuka:

1. Aku xske perokok! Anti de very anti! Slalu la jmpe pembunuh2 ni...even dlm campus pon. Xske2!
2. Aku benci org yg suke pukul kucing, mcm yg caught on camera tuh!!! Takat minx maaf xpyah la doe! Tekanan konon. Meh aku bunuh kau!
3. Aku xske jdi serious. Klu aku wat pape mesti kne gelak2. Tp kje kne siap!
4. Aku xlayan lagu Melayu sbb bnyk cintan2.
5. Aku xske org yang ske merajuk.
6. Klau aku tgk wayang, aku xkn tgk cite Melayu, cite cinta, cite yg light lah. Aku akan tgk cite action and horror jer!
7. Aku xske dgar lagu raya.

Pun ade lagi tp aku xigt.hehehe..

Dah la..banyak2 nt org boring nk bace...haha.. (Picture)

Adios!~

Black & White

Salam all.

I feel like today's entry will be all about me since I'm the photo geek. My tendency to click the camera button is extremely high! Then again, this is how photoholic is supposed to feel yeah? Anyhoo, today's picture will carry the theme of "Black & White". I love photos with this sort of theme. It gives the sense of old times and memories (to me). Be warned, the photos are a hundred percent in a I don't care what people say to me attitude.



You guys know what else is black and white aside from the editing effect that I've used? My outfit. Yeah. I'm wearing a black shawl, a white dress and a black slack owh and a black watch. Talking about black and white!

There. I promise other pictures of me after this will be a lot less awkward. I'm still finding ways to pose myself in front of the camera. What should my next theme be yeah?

P/s: I bad at making a serious face.lol

Done the Undone?

Just like in my other blog:

We always feel extremely disappointed with things that we didn’t do and opportunities we let slipped by our fingers. We always spend time thinking about what we could have done instead of thinking about maybe we are meant for something else.

Don’t have regrets. I mean it’s good. But you can’t change what the past says. But you can listen to the future

Stop being safe, just be bold! Explore the unexplored. Be what you’ve never been! I know I’m saying this too myself too.

:)

Discover, yeah!

Unbelievable?

Woa...why is my title for this entry so freaky? No? It's not? Well, I guess I'm just imagining things then. Anyhoo, yeah, I have been disappearing for quite some time haven't I? Did you guys miss me? Haha...it's worth a try.

Sorry, I didn't mean to just go away like that. I am really tied up right now. With lots of things. Okay2..the truth is...I have a new lover. Oooppsss, sorry2..I meant to say I have a new blog. Not here, but it's on an another site. I've been busy updating my entries there than here. Which id weird. I know. That site is just addictive!

Well, that doesn't mean I'm just going to forget this one. I'm going to keep posting my stuff. Mainly taken from my other blog. If you guys want to check on my other blog, I'm more than welcome to have you guys. But of course, who's actually reading? hehehe...

Another scary fact is that I've joined this site for almost 3 years now but I had only joined that site for only 4 months, but my posts on that blog, is a whole lot more than my posts, here. Scary huh? So where's the wrong in that?

Maybe I need to find that colourful, exciting, adventurous ideas like I seem to get for the other blog so that I can make the same thing happen here. It's not easy but I'm going to try.

So keep 'listening' yea!~

The Return...

Salam you guys..
Sisashiburi!!
It's been a while since I've updated my bloggie here.. Sorry, cause there just wasn't enough time for me to do it all. Anyhow, I'm finally reaching the end of this 1st semester 2nd year in my study.
Heh, it's like only yesterday I was babbling about how the new semester was gonna be like and now it's almost end.
It's funny how fast the time flies. Well, the only thing I hate about reaching the end of the semester has got to be the finals! Believe me, I don't think I'm the only one.

I'm at home right now, and instead of studying and be ready for the finals,
I'm staring deep into the screen of my lappy, typing this entry. Kyahahaha...
I've just checked my CAM (stands for Carry Mark) and I gotta tell ya, I am not in a position to be relaxing myself.
But, what can I do, I just love to express myself. Kya!
Ok, that's enough about the finals.
Seems like they are getting the spotlights more than me.
Can't let that happen now can we?
Let's talk about today, right now.
I'm trying to get an inspiration for my new poem.
Can't seem to find one. Can I get some help here?
No? Guess not. Actually, to be honest, what I really need is a model.
Yes, a model. But, since I have no idea who, I guess I have to improvise.
Not easy though.
Let me worry about that.

Gosh, it's really tiring you know.
Wanting to do different things at once.
In the end, you don't get even one thing done.
How messed up is that.

I hate it. Really I do.
The desire to do lots of things is good, but when you just don't know how than that's just bad.
I want to write. Poems, stories, lyrics.
I want to do lots of things in my life.
You know what they say, life is short so enjoy.
I don't want to look back and regret not doing all those things that I want to do.

Ok, diversion, diversion.
See, I just love to divert from the main topic.
And I didn't even realize it.
So stop now.
Adios!~

I'm Back!!

I'm back!
Yelah2, xpyah ulang bnyk2 kali an...
Aku ade ke xde ke sape kesah btol ak??
Aku pn xkesah..
Ngahahahaha!

Anyhoo, mmg lame da aku xbermadah dlm blog ni.
Rse kosong plak.
Tp bile nk tulis entry je tros kne block.
Xde idea dah. Idea aku pg vacation, xblek2 lagi.
Mentang2 la da nk dkat raye ni..

Pape hal pon, skang aku ade kat umah.
Ye, sbb aku xdpt nk update blog ni mcm time 3 bln cuti,
ni lah sbb nye. Aku busy dan pling ptg internet xde la..

Yg pling xbest diantara yg xbest,
immediately pas raye, aku ade 3 xm!
Bole ting tong la cam ni..
Eh, bkn aku mmg da lame ting tong er??
Ah, ade aku kesah?
Ngahaha...

Anyhoo, aku mmg ade bnyk bende nk share ngan krg!
Bnyk idea kat kepale ni.
Idea gile lah..
So klu krg nk tau, dok la bersila bace aku pnye next entry.
Klu xnk tau, xsuke ti la..
Kemungkinan isu yg akn aku bentang nnt, kontrover-sial sket..
hahahahahaha!!

Adios!

Happy 21st Birthday!!

Salam. Hem, xyah la serabut2 utk kali ni. Entry sbelum ni aku da puas serabut. Krg pon da tau ape tajuk entry ni. So here goes.

Happy 21st Birthday to me!! Yay!!

Pejam celik pejam celik umo aku dah meningkat setaun lagi. Aku still nk serap kenyataan ni. Xpecaye g aku dah 21 tahun. Tuanya! Onnie called me 할머니, which means Grandma in Korean haha... (klu aku grandma, die??) hahaha...

Anyhoo, aku doa supaya Allah tabahkan hati aku dan keluarga aku. Sejahterakan keluarga ku. Semoga kami akan sentiasa bersama dan tidak berpecah-belah. Dan aku harap tahun ni aku akan lebeh berusaha lagi. Insyaallah Ameen...


Well, skang bru 1:07 mnt a.m. dan aku da bnyk dpt Birthday wishes! Thanx you guys! Krg the best. Mmg bnyk la wishes kat Facebook aku. Aku paling ske wishes time Birthday..hehe.. Walopon, Birthday aku kali ni xbape nk jatuh pada hari yg seswai since aku br ade proplem pg td. I cried for almost 15 minutes because of somebody (siyes mata bengkak). Tp xpelah, this is my day, so aku nk Happy jer..

No celebration what-so-ever. No cakes, no surprises, no present (except from my Mummy). But I don't care. Hahaha... Just bg aku Birthday Wishes bnyk2 pon aku xkesah!! Aku br dpt wishes d Onnie, Ima & Anum. Drg ni antara yg suka bg msg Birthday awl2.. walopon technically, 21 tahun lepas waktu ni aku xlahir pon lagi..haha.. (aku lahir pukul 8.45 mlm la).


1st msg dr Anum Gojes berbunyi : "Hepi 21st bday.may ur bday Dawns with sunshine moments rainbow days,now n 4 always.love u!(smiley)"

Wah, sgt berbunga msg dier. Huhu, aku suke!! Tp kan, awl la die bg..pukul 11:56 die bg. Huhu.. But, trimas Anum! Muah2!!

2nd msg dr Ima berbunyi : "Salam.hai ira sahabtku yg comel.aku nk ucpkan selamat hari lahr y ke 21 kat ko. Aku mendoakan mg ko shat n dmurahkan rezk slalu.Moga hdp selalu bahagia. Hope we ll be frens 4eva. Love u olwez"

Pjg btol. Huhu..Tp best, I loike! Especially yg first part about being comel tu!! ngahaha.. Macih Ima! I hope we'll be frens 4ever too my dear...muah2..!

3rd msg dr Onnie berbunyi: "Happy 21st bday n welcome to the club, halmonee.huahuahua (laugh).jgn mrh.(wink)" Then she gave me a voice msg. It's a Korean Birthday song.
>Simple but nice..welcome to the club, mmg slalu die sbut. Haha..see, y onnie is very evil, she called me Halmonee! (mcm bunyi Hermione je..) haha... & the song, how thoughtful. Even though I think it would've been nice if u sang it. Haha..but still, thx love! Muah2!




4th msg dr Iykaaa berbunyi: "Happy birthday dear!! jmpe lg in 2 weeks..mish u lots.."
>Hehe, iyka2..yep, rindu ko gak..see ya in 2 weeks!! Thanx muahh2!!

5th msg dr Adeq berbunyi: "Hppy bday dear..ada bkak email x?" haha, the simplest and weird gak..huhu. Die kt nk bg smthing through email, tp xdpt ape pown, xsmpai ke??? Thanx Adeq, muahh2!!

Last msg dr Yatie berbunyi: "Hepi besday!!may Allah bless u.. (kiss)(smiley) (sowy la lmbt)"
>Huhu, yatie org terakhir antara drg sumer (mentang2 la die pling muda antara ktrg). Tp die gak yg paling close ngan waktu aku actually lahir..haha..thanx Yatt, Muaah!!


Well, mmg sgt ramai org bg wish. Aku happy sgt2!! Owh, btw, abg aku pnye msg sgt klaka.
"Happy day jadi.. Haha.. Love u sis.."
>walopon pndek tp sedeh je bunyi nye. Still aku gelak gak bce..love you so much my bro!! Muaahhxx!!!

Aku xpnah rse org nyanyi lagu Birthday kat aku so aku nyanyi sndiri lah : Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to Rara yg comel dan cantik, happy Birthday to you...ngahahahaha...xpenah dbuat org puji diri sndiri time nyanyi lagu Birthday..haha..

Dlm bnyk2 wish, aku paling tggu wish dari seseorang...die igt ke x agaknyer?? Hurm... Anyway thank you all!

Daa...

(✿ ♥‿♥)

Perjalanan yang (rse mcm) xde perhentian! p/s: kisah pelik dan extreme kami!

Salam..
Lame aku x bermadah kat blog aku nih.
Actually mmg tangan ni da gatal sgt2 nk tulis smthing.
Tp each time gak aku rse cam keinginan tu xsmpai lah.
Bole plak kan? hahaha... suka hati akuh la...

Dari 1st day aku nk tulis pasal perjalanan ktrg mse hantar my sister to her first experience in the world of tertiary education. Whatever that is. Sebabnye aku nk every bit of information is in the right place. Mksudnye time aku masih igt lagi la ape yg jadi. Tp skang dah seminggu dah...haha...

Tp xpe la, aku citer part2 yg aku igt la yer..
Okay, ignore the sign kat atas nih. We didn't exactly lost.
Saje je nk letak sign tuh nk bagi dramatik sket..ngaha..

So, citer nye gini, my sis; Nana, dpt offer to go to Kolej Sultan Idris Shah (x sure btol ke x, haha). All the way in Sabak Bernam! Sian dier coz slalu mnjadi mangsa tercampak ke dasar mane2 yg jauh. Huhu....

So, nk jd citer, ktrg mmg lgsung xtahu menahu dimanakah letak nye tempat asing itu. It's a good thing my ancle has a Garmin, so die tlg print kan map tmpat tuh & made our journey a little bit easier. (But still hard!)

So, time bertolak 9 something a.m. Aku, Mama, Nana, Shah & 2 org kawannye; Affan & Kamil pon pergi berjuang ke arah kebenaran! First half an hour was okay. But as we get to the next half an hour, we're so blur! Tp sib bek lah kawan2 Shah know what they're doing. So drg lah yg tlg tunjuk jln. What's that? Mne Shah? Oh, die ade je, tp sedap berdengkur tido! Sambil bermanja2 plak ngan Kamil. Xle harap tol adek aku nih!

Bnyk kjadian pelik dan extreme ktrg tempuh mse tuh. Kisah extreme (mungkin jgak pelik) no 1: Ktrg sumer nyaris mnyaksikan kemalangan diantara sebuah kereta dan....seekor doggie. Haha.. Tp, doggie tu xpape pon. Die smpat lari. I mean literally lari jer. Lgsung x berenti. Trauma kot? xpon malu org ramai saksi die nyaris nk kene hit and drive.. haha...



Kisah pelik 2: Pastu ktrg masuk la satu kawasan yg sgt alien bg kami. Satu hape pon ktrg xtau. Bnyk sgt kmpung & rumah2.. Tibe2 ade lah sign 'Selamat Datang ke...' (aku xigt nama kmpung nyer). Pastu of course la, 'Terima Kasih, Sila Datang Lagi'. Okaylah kan. Mmg slalu kt jumpe sign2 camni kan. Ade gak satu kat KL nih.. (yg aku hari2 tgk). Tp, yg xble bla nye, bberapa minit pastu, tibe2 je ade sign 'Terima Kasih, Sila Datang Lagi'. What the fish! Mne sign 'Selamat Datang' nyer? xde pon ktrg nmpak. Siyes. Everybody in the car (except for Shah la) was like "Aik? ttibe jer "Sign Terima Kasih Datang Lagi ni? Mne sign Selamat Datang?" Weird.. ahaha...

Teruskan lagi, smbil mncari. Clearly manusia2 kat dlm kete mmg suda bohsan. Sbb sesekali aku dga si Affan mnyanyi, pastu bgelak ketawa ngan Kamil. Shah tido. zzz... Nana err, xtau la die watpe coz die tercampak lagi kat blakang sekali..heheh...

Nape ktrg xtdo je mcm shah tu? Msti krg tertanye
kan??? haha...this brings us to kisah extreme no 3: Jln kat ctu mmg extreme! Siyesly. Xpercaya cuba ar try lalu lalang kat ctu. Mst krg pon akan xsenang duduk gak. Jln nye mcm bak kate Affan la senag sket, "Jerawat Jalan", hahahaha mmg lawak..mne die dpt ntah. Dan yg paling xtahan, selekoh die mak aii, mmg maut lah!!

Ktrg mmg xterangkat punggung nih! Ade satu selekoh yg mmg tajam giler, nyaris Mama nk terkeluar dr jalan! Alhamdulillah xde pape la, coz Mama pusing stering gile2 punye!! Tulah, ni la die nye klu dpt Mak yg ske drive kete laju2 mcm nk berlumba. Krg bygkan la, seb bek ktrg naik kete Innova, klu kete saga tuh mmg dah tebalik dok la...Alhamdulillah syukur xde pape...

Moving on, ktrg gerak lagi, mcm xabes2 jer jln...mmg ktrg dah xkompim btol ke x jln yg ktrg lalu tuh. Tgk balik map mcm btol, tgk lagi skali mcm salah plak. Tp last2 minit br lah 2 org tu perasan yg ktrg sebenanye dr other side of the map..drg pi tgk the other side plak. Seb bek jmpe..hehe... So smpai lah ke destinasi tersebut. Pukul 10 smthing kot, xsure..

Anta Nana msok dlm, besar gak tmpat die, cntik la, but sayang in the middle of no where! Rse nye town tdekat pon jauh. If you know what I mean. Sian die..xtau la klu aku yg dpt jauh2 dulu...oh tidak. Igtkan ade lah sesi pentaftaran, taklimat segala, tp xde pun. Hampeh je la..
So, ktrg pon nk blek, tpaksa tggal Nana srg. Aku tau, tgk je muka die, aku faham msti die nk ktrg tunggu. Coz aku pon pnah gak lalui ape yg die lalui mase 1st time kat PJ dulu..sedeh. Rse mcm nk soh drg jgn pergi dulu, tggu lagi bape jam ke. Padahal sebelum tu kan cuti lame. Tp bile nk bpisah ngan family rse mcm berbulan2 cuti tu lgsung xcukup. Yeah, been there felt that!
Tp nk wat cmne kan. Blaja kne la bkorban. Then I saw tears in her eyes. They didn't fell, just stayed there in her eyes. She's playing strong, but know she's not. She's just a kid.

So lpas dah bcium-peluk ngan Nana, ktrg gerak blek. This time around, Kamil drive. So no more drifting! Mmg lagsung xde.. turbulence tu sket2 ar. mg btol jaga keselamatan die nih. So mcm bese lah, aku and Mama celik je, and Shah dah K.O. Kali ni ktrg xikot jalan mse pergi td. Ikot jln len plak. Pastu Kamil ikot jln yg lurus je. Die kt jln yg ktrg lalu tu lurus je, even dlm map. Aku pon, "oh yer? Wah...ade jgak ek?" (ini lah kata2 manusia yg xtahu ape2).

Ktrg pon just enjoy the show lah kan. Then kita smpai lah ke kisah pelik no 4: Punye lah sedap2 mnghayati suasana kampung ttibe ade smpang plak. Simpang ke kiri. Lagi satu terus lah. Da separuh jalan, Kamil stop. Dpn ade lori. Ttibe jln die jd sempit. Ikuti perbualan kami dibawah:

Kamil: Betol ke jln nih? (Boleh plak di tnye ktrg, die yg drive. Aiyyo..)
Mama: Rsenye salah ar. Yg kiri tuh kot.
Aku: ..... (aku diam jer heheh).
Affan kate: Xtau ar, ko kate jln ni lurus?
Kamil: Aku x sure ar, coz jln ni smpit dr yg tuh.
Mama: Kiri tu lah rsenye.
Kamil: So, cmne? Nk patah balik ker? Ade kete gak kat dpn lori tuh.
Affan: Em, xtau ar, patah blek kot. Lori je yg bnyk.
Kamil: Em, okay, ikot majoriti.
Mama & Affan: Patah blek ar..
Aku: ...... (xde ape nk ckp..ngahahaha)

Akhirnya ktrg decide nk patah blek. Ttibe ade satu kete Myvi lalu, ktrg dok je kat ctu, nk tgk die lalu ke x jln yg ktrg salah ni. Tgk2 die jln terus, ikot ktrg gak, tp bape saat trus die brek. Agak nye die nmpak ktrg dok je kat ctu nk u-turn, so die pon tau die da salah jln. hahaha...weird.. nk sgt jln lurus, amek kao!

Gerak lagi. Smpai kat satu jln, mmg xtahan pning. Jalan raya die bengkang-bengkok! Mcm kat Genting. Sakit kpala akuh. Tp seb bek la Kamil xwat drift..trimas..haha... Ade lagi, kisah pelik & extreme yg terakhir: time tgh mghayati sakit kpala, ade la jumpe beberapa buah keluarga kera. Ye, mmg beberapa ye. Ade Mak, bapak, anak2 kecik2..yg besar2 pon ade, sume jenis ar. Rasenye spesis beruk, monyet & babun pon ade kot. Ramai tuh... sume tgh berkelah, smbil mngeratkan silaturrahim. Hahah...btol...x tipu!

Well, itulah kisah pelik yg aku dah kongi ngan krg. Mmg rse cm pelik sgguh trip ktrg tuh. Ashik jumpe and lalui weird things jer. Aku xtrus blek umah ari tu but intead aku blek umah aunty aku, coz my mum kne pg KK dan xkn aku nk tggl ngan 3 org jejaka tu? Oh No!!


Okay, that's all folks!
~daa...