What we are and what we're not.

Man is the only creature that refuses to be what he is.

~Albert Camus

Salam all.

I have learned something today. Yes, I learn something everyday. We all do. It's just the matter of knowing that you are and not knowing that you are. And also if you're willing to even learn something at all. You can see things around you that can make you grow. That can teach you things and change you.

And sometimes, even just looking at other people can make you feel something, and experience things that you'd never expected. Because the fact of a matter is, we all have different lives with the same purpose. Each day, we are presented with stories of ourselves and others. All with different ways of going through every scene.

So, ape cara korang nk atasi sume cerita2 yg kadang2 happy, kadang2 xbape nk happy tuh? Klu happy, senang lah. Tp klu xhappy? Ade orang suka dduk sorang2 and xbagi sape2 pon nmpak dia tgh sedih. Kadang2 ade gak org suka tunjuk yg die sedih. Kdg2 ade gak org yg ade org utk hilangkan sedih. Ade jugak org yg xnk pikir ape2 and senyum jer smpai satu tahap, die dah xbole senyum lagi. So korang yg mana 1?

Kita sume manusia kan? Ke ade yg bkn? Soklan retorik plak. Mstilah kt sume manusia. Tp nape ape yg kt buat tiap2 hari, mnunjukkan yg kt nih bkn manusia? Kt struggle utk jd baik, jd setia, jd manusia. Tp selalu akan ade je org lain atau sesuatu bnde yg halang. Btol x?

Kadang2 kt ni baik, xpnah buat pkara yg xbaik, tp akan ade org yg buat kt jadi jahat. Nape yer?
Sume soklan2 nih, kt sume da tau jawapannye kan? Klu perkara yg berkaitan dgn hati manusia, xde sape bole ubah. Bnyk mna kt cube pun, klu org tu sndiri xnk brubah, xde ape lagi yg bole kt kata.

I am learning. I am still learning.

The FB Virus

Salam all.

Aku sedang try utk xmnjadi hulk nih. Haha. Lagi sket jer. Hampir2 gak lah. Anyhoo, bru skejap ni ade org IM aku kat fb an. Xyah la gtau name coz I'm sure die pon kne jgak. The thing is, IM die start camni: "Hi how are you." Aku pon reply la: "Hye, I'm fine thanks. and u?" Beselah kan org tnye aku jwab. Pastu die tanye lagi: "wanna laugh?" aku pon cam ape hal la ttibe tnye aku nk gelak ke x plak. Aku jwab la: "not sure". Then die blas: "It is you on the video. wanna see?" Aku pon ha? apekah yg ko merepek nih. Aku xknl ko pon apehal ko ade video aku plak. Aku trus pikir, die ni psycho ker? Aku jwab la: "I have no idea what ur saying". Sbb mmg aku xtau ape yg die ckp. Die jwab blek: "Alright then." Pastu trus xde da.

So aku pon cam takut la kan, sape plak makhluk Allah yg sorang ni. Ttibe gaya nye cam org sakit mental plak. Aku try la bukak page die. Ade org post kat wall die, bgtau yg ade virus baru kat fb yg akan IM kt exactly cam psycho tuh IM aku td. Sebijik ayat die!

Bile kt jawab nnt die akan bg kt satu link. Link tuh adelah virusnyer. Aku lepas bce, mmg sakit hati lah kan. Apehal ko nk bg virus kat org plak. Ko mmg ade masalah la. Masalah ngan diri ko tuh. Baik g cari help kat sape2. Seb bek la org tuh bgtau. Yg aku pon Alhamdulillah xkne. Maybe sbb die tau aku igt die gila. Mmg btol la tuh.huh.

Lagi pon aku da tau org2 cmni. Selalu je ttibe dpt IM dr kawan2 kat fb ckp soh g kat link nih, link tuh. Cam pelik la kan. Xpenah2 aku cakap ngan ko kat luar, and dlm fb, ttibe ko bg IM. So, automatik ade something yg not right kat ctu an. So, kpd krg2 yg ade fb, jage2 lah ngan org2 cmni. Xabes2 nk kenekan org.

Pergh, sakitnye jiwa nih. Orang2 camni lah yg ske wat aku jd serious. Bodo.

Dah, bai!

Single Mother

"Who ran to help me when I fell,
And would some pretty story tell,
Or kiss the place to make it well?
My mother.
~Ann Taylor

Salam all.

Last Saturday, aku dpt merasa jd a mom kejap.hehe. Aku kne jge cousin aku yg dlm darjah 2 (or maybe 1 I'm not sure.heheh) kat umah die separuh hari. My aunty and my mom plak 1 hari kne pusing sne sni sbb anak die yg third ade sukaneka kat Titiwangsa. So I was called to be the mom lah, kjut die and sruh die siap and then anta die g skola.

So, that morning, sng sket la kje aku xyah kjot die coz die pon da bgun sendiri sbb sume org bgun kan. Aku je yg still kat bed lgi. Then aku ttibe lak xle tdo, wolopon mlm nye aku tdo nk dkat kul 4. 6 lebeh cmtu aku da bgun. So then die kne siap, aku xtau die nk bwk ape g skola. Yg Ajim plak, (name cousin aku tuh) dok ckp soh bwk bju raya. Aku pon ha? what the chuck? hehe. Apesal lak nk kne bwk bju raya g skola? Pose pon blum. Aku call la my aunt, die kt ade event ape ntah, so bwk jer. Aku pon ok lah kn.

So, ltak la bju die. Pastu aku tnye, "ape lg nk bwk ni?" Ajim jwb, "xyah bawak ape2". Ok la. Then aku soh die g mkn. Pnye lah lme mknnye, bese la budak2..hehe. Aku plak da anxious, kul 7.45 kne gerak tp 7.35 blom abes mkn g. Pas die abes mkn, da nk pg nih, ttibe die nk stokin. "Ha? Stokin? Aku tnye, "stokin Ajim mne?" die kt xtau plak. Aku call lagi. This time ajim yg ckp.

Die pon naik atas, g kat beranda amek stokin bru baru basuh. Aku ikot jer..hehe. So da siap2 aku pon anta la. Ttibe kat dpn umah, ajim berenti dpn kete mak akuh. Aku tau apsal. Aku pon ckp la kat ajim "xde maknenye kak Iera nk drive" smbil gelak2. Ajim sengih jer..haha

Mmg xla kan, skola die dkat je ngan umah die, klua rumah trus nmpak skola. Lg 1 klu my mom bg bwk pon, aku xnk bwk.haha..

Smpai kt dpn skola Ajim, ngan beg Ben 10 nye berisi baju raya, aku pon tnye die "Ok, ajim bole masuk sendiri kan?" ajim iya kan jer. Ttibe die soh aku pgg beg Ben 10 tuh then die kt sat g die dtg balek. Die pon pg. Aku, heheh, terkebil2 jela kat luar tuh. Then die jerit dr dlm, "Kak Iera, baliklah!!!!! aku pon, "hah? owh, ok. Bye."

Kat umah die plak, aku solo je, srg2. Scary gak la, takut ttibe sape2 unknown yg decide nk 'singgah' ke kan. Aku plak, takut gak ngan Ajim ni. Coz die blek umah sndiri. Aku xtau plak tuh pkul bpe die blek, aku terjenguk2 kat luar tiap2 5 minit. Hehe. Last2 kul 12 die blek. Ceh.

Anyhoo, that's it lah hari aku sbgai single mother. Nape single mother? Yelah, aku still single, and then kne jd mak kan, padan la tuh. Hehe.. Adios.

P/S: Being a mother, is really hard, I know that now. Where's the bag? Where's the socks? Where's everything??? Oh, thank you Mummy.

Teehee!

My own 'Seriousness'

Salam all.

Pernah xkorang wat satu2 kje tuh dgn pnuh keazaman da ketelitian yg mendalam?
Keazaman yg smpai ttibe krang sndiri tnye diri "apsal terkuat lak azam aku nih?".
Pernah x jadi gitu?

Pastu pernah plak x, krg wat kje yg langsung xde 'keseriousan' (jgn tiru pkataan ini!)? Buat ape2 pon msti main2 dan penuh dgn gelak ketawa memanjang?? Pernah x cmtu?

Well, if you guys ask me, yg jadi kt aku is the 2nd one. The thing about me is that, when I'm doing something, I like to be comfortable. I like to have fun because most of the work I'm doing is not that fun you know what I mean? Anyhoo, bila aku try nk jd fun, gelak2 time kerja, adelah plak mata2 yg xsenang tgk.

Klu aku nk jd fun, of course la ade konco2 aku yg mnjadikan aku fun gak kan. Kawan2 aku la. So, drg2 yg xphm ni, mulelah ckp2 kat blakg. Pandang semacam jer cam xpenah tgk org plak. Aku tau msti drg tgh pikir, drg ni xreti nk serious ke wat kje?

Tp, one thing yg krg ptot tau, klu aku wat kje, xpnah xsiap Alhamdulillah. Sume nye aku siapkan. I just add a little fun into it that's all. Contoh ade lah satu subject aku amek satu sem tuh, yg mmerlukan satu kelas work together to make it work kan. So cam bese lah, aku and kawan2 aku jd lah antoo, gelak2 sane sini. Yg org tuh, tgk cam takut jer ktrg ni xserious. Takut yg kje xle nk siap ngan elok. But, in the end, sume nye ok jer..

The point yg aku nk ckp kat cni is, straighten up a little bit. Don't be to uptight with work. Just because we're having fun when doing a work, doesn't mean we're not competent. We can get the work done...even better I think. Remember, the key to a success is doing what you love to do. Ok, bukannye kt suke wat sesetengah kje tu kan? But, try to have fun. You got nothing to lose.

Tp, jgn la terlalu nk have fun sg smpai lupe kje kt an. Fun is fun, but work has to be done. But, I'm not saying that seriousness is a bad thing. When you need to be serious, then use it. Don't listen to me.lol.

Wokey la, stop. Nnt aku merepek lagi. Adios.

Teehee!

4 Hari Mencari.....

Mencari ape ye? Cinta? Diri? hahaha bukan ar. Xde kene mngene pon dgn cerita aku ni.
Ok, mase 4 hb smpai 7 hb Julai ritu, ktrg budak2 PEERS pg join 1 program yg bnama BKTA. Ni program for students yg dpt biasiswa from KPT lah. Budak2 pandai nye program. So ktrg ni volunteer utk jadi committee time tuh.

Nk jadi citer, mulanye program tu dbuat sbelum xm. Pastu kne ubah lpas xm. Bile da jd cmtu, Ima plak xleh pg coz die ade program lain plak. Ktrg pon tpksa la pg without her. Sian Ima. Die yg ajak ktrg join tp die lak xdpt pg, sedeh tol.

Anyhoo, ktrg diberi jawatan utk program ni. Selalu tu kt bole vote kan, tp yg ni kaunselor yg bg jawatan kat ktrg. Aku dpilih plak jd Programme Coordinator. Aku tkezut gak la, apsal drg ni bg aku jd PC plak, aku xpnah jd PC pon. Even though aku tau ape PC kne buat tp jawatan tu kn penting. Bg kat aku plak tu mmg hancus lah. Atie plak dpt Special Task. Dem, dpt under org yg die knal lak tuh..jelez I.lol.

So, ptutnye program tu 3 hari je, ktrg of cos la kne dtg sehari awl utk setup everything. Aku, Atie and farah dpt duk bilik same. So mmg hancur la bilik tu ktrg wat. Best cos ade AC and toilet pon dlm bilik gak. Cam umah sndiri jdnyer. Mlm first, ktrg tdo dgn AC nye 16 dc. Ktrg mmg dah bekulah.lol.

The next day time registration, mmg kaw kaw pnye best, cos aku pdt jage kaunter utk lelaki ye ladies and gentlemen. Hahaha.. Sonok xhingat! Aku pnye la practice senyum dr mlm sbelum lg. Nk jge kaunter tuh pnye pasal. Tp mmg best la registration. Dpt la aku tlg kaunter2 laen. Ktrg siap wat competition lagi sape abes dulu registration students. Of cos la aku kne compete ngan si Khair, Nik, and Ketua. Tp drg mng dulu, ish!

Ape lagi yer, oh, time first day drg dberi kumpulan and drg kne buat bendera utk group masing2. Bndera tu jd drg pnye barang amanah yg drg kne smpan n jage leklok klu x kne curi oleh ktrg. Sonok men curi2 ni! hahaha... Yg best skali, drg kan student sains, so drg ni kne pggil ktrg sume Professor, and ktrg kne pggil drg Doctor. Sonok tu, cam real jer. Drg pnye mission, kne cari vaksin utk pnyakit yg baru kat dunia iaitu 'Virus Gremlin'. Klu x dpt tau la kan jd ape.lol

Each group dberi 2 juta ae (cam ringgit la). Klu ade wat salah cam xpggil ktrg Prof, xpggil group members Doctor, ilang bendera, and ape2 je, tolak markah. Mmg ramai la kne tolak markah.lol.

Time best lagi mase ktrg jage game utk 'Lembah Berasid'. Haha, sian group2 nih, drg kne ngan aku and Bro. Zul (mostly Bro. Zul la buat, aku baik jer..heh). Aku siap bole mintak maaf g kat drg pas da abes aktiviti tuh..haha.

Si Nik plak, ko mmg ske mngacau yer. Die jd pak guard plak kat tmpat org jge. Tau kje gelakkan org jer. Kau la Sang Kelembai tu yer? Haha. Xle bla pggil aku kancil! Sbb ape? Sbb aku ade nmpak 2 ekor binatang dlm kandang tu mcm kancil, mcm rusa. Aku pon tanye la Nik "Ni ape ek? Kancil ke?" Nik pon "Hahaha, kancil yer..kancil la tuh". So, smpai sudah aku igt tu kancil. Time da abes aktvt tu bru die ckp tu rusa lah. Aku da agak da sbenanyer (yelah tu). Nik pon smpai abes pggil aku kancil. Ima!! tgk Nik! lol.

Time jge explorace pon best gak! Aku ngan Farah dpt jge same. Ktrg jge tmpat buat 'Limbo'. Limbo nye plak tinggi nye lbeh kurang 2 kaki je (ke sekaki? ntah la). Mmg seksa budak2 tu kne. hahaha...lawak2. Time 'Kala Bulan Mengambang' pon best, drg kne kluar mlm2 cari member drg yg ilang. Drg dberi lilin, & 3 btg mancis jer. Buat la cmne jgn bg api pdam. Aku & Bro. Wan kne jge group ktrg. Tp xle bgtau ape2. Sian drg sume..haha.. P/s: Bro. Wan, nape tnye sy course ape and ape sy nk jd bile nk grad lagi skali? Bkn sy da pnah bgtau ke dulu? Bro. lupe ye? Sedeh tol...lol

Owh, ade gak la students yg cam best gile and sporting. To group I, mase explorace, even though time da abes, krg still nk main game tuh. Krg mmg the best lah. Owh, and group atie, L, ade la srg budak ni x igt namenye, cute gak la, mcm budak2 muka die. Bile tnye umur bpe, die kt 22. Ape lg, tkezut la ktrg! Igtkn muda lagi. Rupenye sebaya. To drg sume xtau ktrg ni kakak ke adik drg. Sbb ktrg da diingatkan utk jgn bgtau umur and ape2 selain drpd yg ktrg ni student. That's it. Sbbnye drg xnk student2 ni ilang respect kt ktrg bile tau ktrg ni just mcm drg. Get it? Awesome.



Ok lah, dah la, xk cite pjg2..hopefully drg sume xrse
boring time ktrg handle program tuh.
Doa sgt2..to Ima, too bad ko xdpt join lah, ktrg sume salu igtkan ko. Ape2 je, ko. Smpai 1 time tuh aku ternyanyi lagu "Oh Fatimah...Gadis ayu..." sbb tringat kat ko...hahaha... jumpe long sem nnt!!

comel x kami 3 org dgn bju same? hahaha...


That's it! Adios!

Trimas kepada Mereka2..

Okay2...aku nk cite pasal birthday gifts aku from dearest friends ari tu. In this picture, ade 2 presents yg aku dpt. First, of course la, the bear with the hat kan.

Well, aku tlah 'dpaksa' oleh Farah - yg juga pemberi hadiah ini, utk pegang je time dlm wangsa walk tuh. Lol, Farah2...thankx yer utk hadiah ni. Bnyk kali die tanye aku, "Ira nk ape? Cepat lah pilih, kt belikan".

Aku pon, yelah, xkn la tanpa segan silu nye nk mintak hadiah kat org kot...aku pon ckp la xpe lah, xpyh bg pon xpe. Tp die still tnye, aku pon pilih la bear nih. Thanx Farah...Muahh2!

Second present is the watch I am wearing in this picture. Which was given to me by my guy best friend. Aku xtau la kan cmne die tau aku ske jam. Die bg awal sket, sebelum Birthday aku lg. Thank you for it!! Ske sgt :)

Tp xthn mse dpt jam tuh. Mak aih, bungkus cam xbg org bukak jer. Lol. Oh, and thanx for the card! ;)

BFF aku Ima bagi aku penanda buku yg comel giler!! Ade beruang, ade panda..comel lah!! Thanks Noona!! Sorry, gmba xde la, ade capture ritu tp ilang suda...aish.

So, trimas utk krg sume!!!

The Birthday Girl

Seronok, seronok dan seronok.
Itu je yang aku dpt kt time birthday aku 29 hb Jun aritu.
Walopon agak nk terbenci sat sbb time tu aku tgh exam arab kn.
Tp doesn't matter lah coz it was the best birthday I had in yuaiea.

So to cut my story short, tgh mlm 28 hb tuh, aku mmg terkezut coz ttibe BFF aku Atie and Ima, and also xroom8 aku Najwa dtg dr bilik drg ambush aku yg tgh study arab (konon lah) then nyanyikan aku lagu Happy Birthday. Not just that, drg siap belikan aku kek banana chocolate lagik. Oh kawan2 aku ni ske wat aku terharu..ahahaha... Terase cam nk nangis time tuh tp tahan jer.
Drg pon wish la aku birthday. Drg tau mst aku tgh stress pasal birthday jatuh time xm..lol

Member2 aku yg lain pon bg msg birthday gak. Thanx krg! ^^,

So, the next day, time xm arab, bjumpe lah aku ngan budak2 'giler' dr PEERS coz ktrg sekelas. Sape lagi klu bkn aku yg djadikan bahan utk pembulian mrk. Tambah2 plak time tu birthday aku kan. Trimas la bbnyk utk Kay dan Khair! Si Khair xabes2 dgn ayat "Ko igt sbb birthday ko, ko bole ckp ape2 je?" lol. Kay pon same! Kuang asam krg! Tp thanx sbb wish bday aku gak. Farah pon same, thank you dear!!

Then lpas tu drg pon ttibe rancang nk pg makan2
kat Le Chateau De Puah.
Konon nk celebrate bday aku la bagai.haha.
So ape lagi, ptg tu jgak ktrg pg. Sonok gile kat sne.
Mkn terbaik pnye. Sila lah dtg nnt yer (xpasal2 promote).
Tp mmg sedap la mknn kt sne! Dem!
Ini lah mrk2... owh lupe ade gak Nik & Firdaus.
Thanx krg!!!




This is Farah. The girl that people keep mistaking as my lil sister. Serupe ke ktrg ni? Oh sorry, cmne krg nk tau kan. Hehe...

Btw, kucing kat sbelah tu namenye 'Browny'. Die tsagt la cute dan chubby!! very adorable!! Dem!
Aunty kedai tu pnye kucing.




Anyway, itu je lah yg aku nk smpaikan today. Pnye la lama bday aku da lpas bru hari ni update. Mase xde la...but skang da siap! Trimas again utk sume org yg wish bday aku! Pasni aku nk update gmba2 hadiah bday aku plak! adios!

The Birthday girl.


Tehee!