Tired and other disasters.

Assalamualaikum readers.

I'm tired and exhausted. I'm moving to a new house tomorrow, (which I only knew in such short notice) and the whole process is really taking its toll on me. With my work and all. But I believe in doing the best I can to make sure I complete my 'amanah' - in this case; my work. So, regardless of how busy or tired I am, I will get it done. Even if I have to sleep way past 3 a.m in the morning and sometimes not sleep at all.

It doesn't help that I feel like something is wrong with my relationship with other people. So in the past few days, I've been screaming (literally) while I'm doing my work, punching the table, eating lesser than I usually do (though this one might be a good thing, hehe) sending out false smiles, and constantly holding back the tears - when I suddenly think about it.

I am bad at managing what to feel and what not to feel. In short, I just feel too much, over-think a lot. and feeling bad over so many things. And most of the times, when I'm feeling drained like right now, I'd always feel compelled to write poems. Hence, 8 poems in 5 days.

In all truth, I am trying my best. To what? I don't know, trying my best to get through it all I guess. It's hard. Really really hard. But I know I can get through it because I had gone through something even worse. And I believe - again - that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes that's enough for me to feel better. Stat!

I.A