I'm not Strong Enough...

It's true, I'm not strong...
I tried to be, but I can't be...
Today is a sad day for me.
I can't tell you why, but all I can say is that I'm hurt..
I don't know how I should feel right now.
Should I feel happy?
Should I be glad?
Or should I just enjoy it?

Is it a good thing?
If it is, then why doesn't it feel that way?
Why do I feel sad?
Why do I feel broken?
Why do I feel lost?
Why?

My life just tremble down..
don't know how and when will it be together again..
But, it may never will...

Drama..Drama..Drama...Drama Queen!!

Salam....Annyong Haseyo..

Wao..sedar x sedar, dah msok 50 entry dah.. Yay!! 5oth entry anniversary...haha..nk jgak.. pdahal ade org dah beratus2 dah.. ngeee...

Anyway, bkn aku nk cite psal 50 entry skang. Yelah, walopon aku letak gmba cake kat tepi tu. Tp sje je coz aku xdpt menahan nk tgk cake ni yg sgt2 cut nih! geram aku rse! So, oleh sbb nk share kecute-tan cake ni, aku ltak la...cute an???

Ok lah, klu aku nk cite pasal tu baek xyah wat tajuk yg aku ltak tu kan..dah, stop merepek-ing.. Lusa is the last paper for final XM. tau kan aku xm pe? Drama la. 40 marks for this. Mne nk cekau 40 marks ar?? Dah la x bace satu hapak pon lg.. cmne ni???
Ya Allah tolong la aku...Aku bdoa semoga aku dan kawan2 aku dpt keputusan yg cemerlang utk xm ini.. Ameeennn....

Bkn aku xnk study., tp kepala otak aku ni dok piki masalah len plak..
em, masalah pe..ntah..hehehe...
anyway, aku study btol2 la mlm ni..
Drama..huh, mmg dramatik la situasi aku nih..
Mmg exactly cam drama dlm tv..btol..klo krg tau..
tp krg xtau so...huhu..
Drama, mmg sgt sedeh, gembira.
Boleh kate bcmpur campur la perasaan tuh.
Dan yg paling ptg, Drama, it resembles the real life..
Sbb tu bole dkatakan idop aku mmg cam drama.
Dan mmg sesuai la aku amek Drama kat UIA ni...haha...

Xm drama ni just about our opinion most la..
Tp ade je yg based on facts in play.
Tp aku ni xigt satu ape pun..haha..
Bole gak buat dono je kan?..
Well, aku mmg cmni...

Anyway..just trying to get these thing outta my head...
gotta go, mase da time..haha..

Annyeong~~

Tak Percaya Tanya Cik Peah!!

The greatest Production ever!!!! Kiri atas: Taufiq, Aizuddin, Fikri(piki), Fakhri(Ben), Lotfi, Adeq, Iyka, Aku, Atie. Bawah: Nad, Yatie, Ima, Anum.
Photographer: Suffi

Salam......Annyong Haseyo everyone!! Ha, last time aku ade cite pasal drama presentation yg aku and group aku nk buat kan? Well, the day was last night. Guess what happen??

It all went smooth and clear. Best sgt2 ktrg pnye presetation! Bg ktrg la, xtau plak la audience kate ape. Tp most audience yg ktg tnye, drg comment yg bagus2 je. Drg kate ktrg pnye production sgt gmpak!!! And personally, I think so too!!!!! Alhamdulillah...
Terima kasih Ya Allah!

Well, recal back on what went down last night, ktrg sume pas solat maghrib tros pg Experimental Hall. Siap2 kan diri. Actor and Actresses mmg nervous giler ah! Tmasuk la aku since aku kan jd maid yg bz body. Mmg serius nervous giler sbelum tu. Pas2 Sir SAO and our group sume buat energy passing antara setiap org. Bkesan la jgak. Kurang sket nervous tuh. Tp mmg x pnah nmpk keserasian ktrg sume sbelum ni. Ade tp x jlas sgt. Tp mlm smalam mmg all out!

Ktg sume bg 200% last night! Everybody was awesome!! I'm really proud of myself and my group. Not to forget Sir SAO jgk! Sebelum ni mse rehearsal, ktrg wat men2 je. Tak serius pun. Serius tu maybe ade but not 100%. Dan crew group ktrg yg dok jd audience kt yg ape yg ktrg lakonkan smalm bbeza dgn ape yg ktrg rehears!! Seriusly laen sgt!

Aku igt lagi, tiap2 scene yg best je, aku and sume2 lompat2 sbb exited sgt! Aku mmg xcited gile bile audience gelak for lawak yg ktrg buat dlm play tu.

Overall sume mmg best! Thanx all! Korang la group paling best I've ever had!! I hope we'll get a chance to work together again. Insyaallah someday! Owh, and klu tserempak kat tgh jln tu, tegur2 la...hehe...

Acknowledgement: Ben as Ramli, Aizuddin as Dato' Ahmad, Iyka as Datin Embun, Shaba as Melor, Piki as Kassim, Aku as Maryam the Maid, Lotfi as Musa, Taufik as Pak Aji, Atie as The police officer, Yatie as Mak cik Peah! The crew: Adeq as Prop Master, Nad as the Sound Manager, Eima as Assistant Sound Manager, Yatie as Stage Front, Suffi as the Stage Manager, and Anum as the Director!!!

Thanx you guys!!!

Annyong!

Drama Queen!!!

Look at how bsemangat nye guys2 dlm group mse rehearsal drama tuh.... bangga btol...

Salam.... Annyong haseyo everyone!! It's been a while since my last entry.. And the truth is, I'm kindda short of ideas to write about.. Okay, something just popped up right now..

Tell you guys something, memandangkan aku amek English Literature kat UIA tuh, tiap2 klas akan ade Drama presentation. Which means, tiap2 group kne pilih satu play or drama, then act it out... Basically, klas ktrg dah pilih drama btajuk 'Tartuffe'. Citg ni psal sorg laki yg bpura2 baik, tp sbenanye x. Dia amek ksempatan dr org yg dah tlg dia mse dia ssah...

Anyway, name pon students UIA kan, xkan nk wat mcm org barat pnye style.. boleh mmg boleh, tp xnk la, nnt kang x psal2 kisah ktrg x mnerapkan unsur2 Islamic dikritik plak oleh bloggers2 len kat cni.... xnk la ktrg pnye play ni dkritik dgan selamba nye... Sperti yg blaku dgn last sem pnye play. Mmg kne kutuk hbes2 lah.. haha, yg tuan kritik pun ckap x blapis gak... ksian group2 tuh...


Back to my real story, ktrg tuka tajuk and name2 characters dlm tuh. Owh and btw, aku tlh dpilih oleh Sir SAO (nme sir yg ajar drama) sndiri dan classmate2 aku jgak. Watak sebenar name Dorine, kne tuka jd Maryam. Haha, klaka nye name... tp xpe.. pas dah tuka sumenye, dialog pon jd sket. Aku play watak org gaji yg bz body. Huh, ape2 pon mst aku yg jadi maid.. Smpai kne perli plak dgn member2 aku...smpai ati krg! haha...

The day for the presentation is this up coming Wednesday at 8.30, I think. At the Experimental Hall, Engin. Dtg la ramai2 utk mmriahkan mlm tuh... just kidding, x pyh la dtg, wat aku nervous je...hehe..

Serius sbnanye aku tgh nervous walaupun line aku xde la bnyk mne pon. Tp ade satu scene tu aku kne bmonologue plak srg2.. How am I suppose to be ok??? Arrgghh!!! Plak tu td mmbe aku kte maybe aku pnye watak akn dtambah satu part, aku kne jd narrator plak... mak aii, ntah ble drg came up with the idea...emm, xpe, just take the responsibility given...

Owh, and another thing, Anum kte dia dah invite pok cik and the gang!! Adusss... malu nye nk act nnt!!

Anyhow, just praying to Allah s.w.t moga2 smuanye akan bjaln dgn lancar mlm tu nnt. Insyaallah... I know everything will be smooth and easy... Insyaallah... Ameen.....

~daaa....~

Bacalah Fatihah dgan betul kerana....

Assalamualaikum, Annyonghaseyo sume. For this entry aku nk share dgn korang ape yg aku dpt tau. Xtau la kot2 krg dah tau ke kan, tp ni just nk bgtau jer. Hany utk mjalankan tgunggjwab aku sbg seorg Muslim.... bkenaan dgan Surah Al-Fatihah..:


Kita msti baca Surah Fatihah ni dgan betul sbb ade bnyi yg lebeh kurang sme dgan name2 syaitan yg drejam tu:-


Semoga boleh dimanfaatkan al-fatihah adalah rukun dalam solat,apabila cacat bacaannya maka rosaklah solat. oleh itu perbaikilah bacaannya dengan ilmu tajwid. bukan setakat bacaannya saja yang rosak malah kita menyebut nama syaitan di dalam solat kita. berikut diperturunkan
nama syaitan laknat yang wujud didalam al-fatihah , sekiranya kita tidak berhati-hati,

Nama Syaitan

1. DU LI LAH (bila dibaca tiada sabdu) sepatutnya DULILLAH
2. HIR ROB (bila dibaca dengan sabdu) sepatutnya HI ROB
3. KIYYAU (bila dibaca dengan sabdu) sepatutnya KI YAU
4. KANNAK (bila dibaca dengan sabdu) sepatutnya KA NAK
5. KANNAS (bila dibaca dengan sabdu) sepatutnya KA NAS


6. IYA (disebut tanpa sabdu) sepatutnya IYYA. IYA bermaksud "matahari" dalam ayat ke 5, jika salah bacaannya akan bermaksud "kepada mataharilah yang kami sembah dan kepada matahari kami meminta pertolongan"!!!!!!!!

7. SIROTHOLLAZI....................................sehingga habis hendaklah dibaca tanpa henti.
8. AMIN hendaklah mengaminkan al-fatihah dengan betul iaitu AA.. dua harakat, MIN .... 3 harakat, semoga amin kita bersama dengan amin malaikat insya-allah. semoga kita menjadi orang yang sentiasa membaiki bacaannya.


Insyaallah....

Kjadian mnakutkan kat South City Serdang..

Salam.... Yup, sprti yg djnjikan, aku nk cite psal kjadian yg mnakutkan yg mnimpa aku and Anum mse ktrg kat south city. Mst krg pelik kan, ape bnde yg mnakutkan yg bole tjadi dlm tandas? well, krg dga sndiri la cerita ni. Mse otw nk msok tndas tuh ade guy no 1, die dok dpn tndas tu, and then msuk dlm lg, ade 2nd guy dlm tu, ktrg cam da bpeluk la nk msuk dlm tu.

Ktrg xtau whether nk msok tndas tu kne byar ke x sbb nmpk meja utk byar tu kn. Ktrg tnye la 1st guy, kne bayar ke. Die kate x pyh la xde org pon. Ktrg pon nk msok la, nmpak 2nd guy. Die kt msok la.

Ok lagi, tp tetiba ktrg nmpak 3rd guy dlm tndas ppuan melalui cermin dlm tandas tuh. Pon ok lagi. Ktrg mmg mati2 igt org tu maintainance pnye org so ktrg ckp la ade maintainance la, 2nd guy kte lagi soh je ktrg msok. Tp cmne nk msok ade laki kan. yg 3rd guy tu plak tgh tlompat-lompat dlm tandas tu.

Tiba-tiba dga sora org jerit. 2nd guy td plak ttibe jenguk dlm tndas ppuan tu, and then die nmpak 3rd guy tuh. Pas2 dia tros tolak 3rd guy smbil kate "ko buat ape aa???!!" Die tolak & tolak je 3rd guy and still ckp bnde yg sme. Yg kitrg mmg da cuak nk mmpos la kat ctu...! Drg da nk stat gadoh.

Rupe2nye 3rd guy tu tgh mngintai girlfriend 2nd guys dlm toilet tu!!!! Bodoh gila!!! Yg ktrg da x tntu arah terus pecut klua dr tandas smbil jerit2. Kwan2 ktrg yg len kat luar sume tkejut gila tgk ktrg jerit2 smbil lari. Yg ktrg tgh xckop nafas pon cerita la smbil lari lg nih. Tdengar lagi guys2 tu bgadoh kat blakang. Jerit2. Yg mmber ktrg igtkan ktrg nmpak antu. huhu... Antu ape bln2 ramadhan nih yang ooii...aku rse aku lagi rela nmpak antu dr xperience bnde alah ni tau x!!!

Tp mmg sakit gile jantung ktrg ni. Dlm kete ktrg mmg trembling gile dah. Xdpt nk describe feelings ktrg mse tuh.... Tp the 3rd guy tu mmg sgt2 bodoh la sorry to say. Bln2 pose ni la ko nk wat dose lak.. xde kje len. Hai la...

Ape yg penting bak kate Wonder Pets, aku & Anum mmg sgt3x bsyukur xde ape2 jd kat ktrg... Alhamdulillah la ktrg selamat. Ni sume berkat aku bgtau mak aku mne aku nk pg dan aku x tipu dia. Klu x...huh....

Niway, sbenarnye aku & anum da agak 1st guy tu actually the accomplice of the 3rd guy. Mknenye die la penolong the 3rd guy!!

Aku just harap yg 1st and 3rd guy tu btaubat la cpt2... xde pekdah nye sume ni. Da la bln ramadhan. Setan2 sume xde, which means kjadian ni tjadi x ddorong oleh setan, tp khendak drg sendiri. Lg la bdosa mcm tu.

P/S: Aku pon bkn la baek sgt kan aku tau tu. Tp at least aku x mngintai org dlm toilet!!

~end~

Mom's Birthday!!

26hb Ogos 45 thun dulu, adalah hari bila mama ku dilahirkan... Tahun ni gnap la umor mama ku 45 thun. Mama, Iera ucapkan Selamat Hari Lahir, smoga pjg umor, murah rezki, & diberkati Allah S.W.T selalu..

Also, may all good things come ur way and success will be yours always... Smile always and forget all your worries mom.. We will always be here for you no matter what!!
I LOVE YOU 4EVER & EVER!!!


With Luv, your cute daughter Iera.....Muaaxxhhh!!!