I Need a New Heart

Dear Someone,

I need a new heart. Who wants to trade? Anyone?
Make sure your heart is not fragile. 

'Cause I'm going to take it to a very dangerous place.
A place where, once enter, we will never be the same person any more. 

A place that will completely change you, and alter your perception. 

Maybe even your reality. 

A place that is invisible to some people's eyes..
And a place that is chosen to be ignored by the others.
Why do I need a new heart? because a heart like mine can't make the journey. 

I can try, but I'll perish on the way. It is not strong enough.
It's cracked. It's burned. Almost broken. It's useless.

It might not be a fair trade. But if you think you're better off having a broken heart, then take it. 

And give me yours.

I'm tired of being empty. Maybe you'd like to feel something else for a change?
I know. This all sound like a huge risk.; if you ever decide to trade that is.
But if you fear all that I have said, then I guess I have to offer you another deal.
I keep my heart. And you keep yours. 

But I am truly desperate for a strong one. 

Therefore, would you be so kind as to accompany me on my journey?
You would only have to watch over me. Protect me. Hold me. 

Whenever my dying heart fails.
And you would have to tell me stories. 

Stories of your glory. Your strength. So that I can borrow it.
So that I can bury it in my heart, and make it strong like yours. 

I promise, that is all you would have to do.
If you ever decide to keep me company that is. 

Think about it. And let me know. Until then, best of life, I wish for you.

Sincerely, 

I.A.

Shorts

Assalamualaikum ya pretties, ya handsomes!

Short story for today.

Tadi aku tgh play ngan kucing aku, aku terdengar satu hilaian, eh nyanyian. Oh, abang aku melalak dalam toilet. Lantak la, macam tak penah buat. Haha! Mula2 pelahan je, tak lame pastu makin menjadi2 pulak.

"Abang aku buat konsert pulak dalam toilet tu."

Bicara aku dalam hati. Then, masa aku tengah sidai kain...eh, aku ni asyik sidai kain je ek? Haha, bkn salah aku kejadian berlaku time aku tgh sidai kain. Moving on, tgh sidai tu, abang aku keluar toilet. Still tgh melalak. Lagu indon. Tak pasti lagu ape. Aku pun wat je la keje aku, then abang aku terkejut.

"Laa...kau ade kat luar rupenye. Tekejut aku. Ingatkan dalam bilik. Terbongkar rahsia aku. Rahsia suara aku."

Amende la abang aku ni..rahsia suara kejadah! macam aku tak pnah denga kau nyanyi.haha. Aku hanya diam sambil tersengih jugak la...dan sambil sidai kain.. TT haha...

"Malu aku dengan kau Ra....yelah suara aku dah la tak sedap. Sedap tak suara aku?"

Bengong..haha..kan dah kene. Dok loyar buruk pulak abang aku ni. Aku jawab...

"Kau nak kene tumbuk tak?"

Gila adik yang jahat aku ni. Cakap camtu kat abang.haha. Ahh..ape die kisah. Itu normal. Haha. Sebab pas aku cakap tu, die terus gelak kuat giler...haha

"Jahat kau. Ini yang aku dapat."

Haha...see..korang jgn igt aku ni kurang ajar pulak. Well, memang patut pun korang pikir cmtu.hehe. Tapi, aceli, kitorang ni beza setaun jer. Rapat giler. Mmg dari kecik gitu. So bende2 small matter ni, nak sentap tak payah. Kene bahan lagi ade. hahaha...Kbai.

mase kecik2, org igt kitorang kembar. Dah besar ni, orang igt abng aku tu bf aku. 

Bahaha! Masa berlalu begitu pantas!

I.A

What I Learned Today

Assalamualaikum.

Lesson learned today:

1) Think hard before you say anything. I mean really REALLY hard. Cause if you don't, you could get into a big trouble.
2) Whatever bad things you do, they will always, ALWAYS, affect others! Mostly, your parents.
3) People make mistakes. But don't use these people as your excuse to make those same mistakes! It makes you stupid! Absolutely, undeniably, undoubtedly, STUPID! Even if those people are your own parents!
4) Whatever you say, no matter how you twist and turn your facts, (and sounded awesome saying them), if they're wrong, then they'll never ever, EVER be right.
5) And, when somebody gives you advice, you better damn take it!

That's what I learned today.

I.A

Where are they?

Assalamualaikum ya sahabi!

The other day, I was watching this horror movie Silent Hill: Revelation on tv sambil sidai kain..eh? Too much info pulak.haha. Then my brother got home from work and saw the movie with me. Sampai satu part dalam movie tu, abang aku dah takut. Btw, abang aku ni penakut gile. Tgk cite horror kalau tak cover ngan tangan memang xsah.

Sambil die dah takut-takut tu, ttibe die cakap kat aku.
"Eee, iya, kau ni dah selalu sangat tgk cite ngeri smpai cite yang ngeri pun dah tak ngeri bagi kau." 

Aih...aku pulak yang kene bahan..haha. Sempat gak la aku ter-stop kejap nak memahami ape yang die cakap. Berbelit-belit. Maaf aku memang slow sket. Haha. Aku pun gelak ajer la.

"Ha..camtu ngeri apenye. Mane de ngeri."

Aku pun honest jelah kan bagitau die. Memang bagi aku time tu takde la ngeri mane pun. Part nurse ramai2 takde muka tgh bunuh2 orang. Aku ingat dah abes la bahan die. Rupenye ade lagi....

"Eee..kau ni, mane pergi hati dan perasaan kau ha??"

Biadap! hahaha...kuang asam nye abang. Aku sidai kain kat muka kau baru tau..haha. Time tu aku cam berapi. So aku pun balas la..

"Lahh...amende nye yang ngeri? Kau rase tu ngeri just sebab muka die hodoh je?"

Bam! Hamekkaw. Abang aku just buat muka tanpa meneruskan kata-kata. Hahaha. Tapi aku pulak yang terkesima dengar ayat aku sendiri. Gile kau memang takde perasaan lah ira. Where is your feelings? Where are they?  Maybe mase tu fokus terganggu kot sebab tgh sidai kain? Eh? Takpun mungkin betol gak abang aku kata, aku dah selalu tgk cite horror smpai dah xde perasaan. Mungkinkah??

Maybe sbb tu kot, orang lain kata The Conjuring takut gile, tapi aku lak langsung xde ape perasaan mase tgk. Haha. TT" But, aku ni xde la berani sangat. Tapi aku confirm berani lebih sket dari abang aku. Confirm! Hahaha.. Dan, aku still akan tersentak tiap kali nampak clown and dolls; two of my fears... :( I still remember, mase study dulu, someone, I don't remember who, yang pastinya org tu memang biadap! pegi bagi link gmba clown yang scary giler. Not just a picture, tapi GIF! Yang bergerak2 tu! Mane die tau aku takut ngan clown ntah.

Time tu aku click dan my bestie Atie kat sebelah, dan boleh teka la apa jadi? Dua2 pon menjerit dan melompat. Tett! Abes. Kbai!

 Yep, exactly this part! Bile tgk balik, memang patut aku rase ngeri. haha..

tapi x.. TT"  It kinda looks like they partying doesn't it? Oh well..heh

I.A

Macam Takde Idea Je.

Assalamualaikum my beautiful and handsome readers!

What's up with my title? Haha. Aceli aku memang xde idea pon nak tulis hape. Tapi obviously kalau aku takde idea takkan aku wat entry ni kan?

U guys ever seen that one video made by a girl - who's name will not be mentioned here - entitled 'macam cantik je'? Yeah, another silly vid made by another silly girl. But!! What's fun is what comes AFTER that. Which is the PARODIES of that video, made by other silly people. Irony.

I sort of made a promise to myself to not watch the original vid (sbb takut termuntah or ttibe dijangkiti virus lemah lutut ke kan).  But, of course, I broke that promise just now. I know, I've betrayed myself lots of times. *sigh* Tapi budak nye cantik, memang cantik la. Cuma kalau bole tak perlu sampai wat video cmtu dek. Hehe. Aku tak jeles la!

Anyhoo, my point is, apsal ramai sangat budak2 zaman skang yang ske wat video2 sebegitu rupa eh?? Tekanan perasaan kah? Atau terlalu banyak masa dalam tangan? Percayalah, 5 tahun 10 tahun kemudian, bile korang tgk balik konpem akan nangis tak cukup ayo mate, "apsal la aku buat begini!!! Ape yang merasuk aku??"  Eh...haha..you get the point la. Bukan bash, just nasihat. Aku taklah kisah mane pun, tapi, kene pikir jgak, buat vid cmtu suka2 je pon, bkn semua suka. Dari kita bagi reason utk org kutuk buat dosa, baik kita elakkan from the start. Ye x?

Aku bru terbaca pulak ade satu vid parody this another silly girl buat based on that video. By silly I mean, aku rase 100 times sillier kot. So jadinye aku bersimpati lebih sket kat girl yang buat parody tu. Pelik btol.. Motif? Unknown. Nak mengutuk ke? Tak perlu dek. Just have a little laugh. It won't hurt you.

Dah, sat gi lagi lama aku melabun karang aku pulak buat parody kat sini. Itu saja. Oh dan bape hari lepas, my aunt upload video her daughter a.k.a my cousin Raika, wat parody video tu. Yang ni aku rase takpe. Sebab macam comel je!!! hahaha....

Raika apsal comel sangat ni sayang!!! Geram kak Ira! 

Next time jumpa memang aku peluk kuat2! hehe.

Last part takle blah...haha.."Gigi pon takde". Kene setepek. Epic gile! hahahaha...kbai!

I.A

Nightmares

Assalamualaikum my young and wild readers!!

Dreams. Sounds fun aite! It's one of the greatest gifts Allah has given to us. But, nightmare on the other hand doesn't sound that cool and is most definitely scary.

Sepanjang aku hidup ni, memang banyak la mimpi ngeri or menakutkan yang aku dah mimpi. Yang aku ingat, aku pernah mimpi pasal kene kejar dengan makhluk menakutkan. Not hantu or supernatural things, tapi like scary monsters. And selalunye kalau aku dapat nightmare aku akan igt everything yang jadi.

Pernah jgk masa duduk Setiawangsa dulu, aku mimpi nampak hantu yang scary. Aku terbangun try tidur balik. Tapi everytime aku tutup mata, muka2 tu semua keluar balik. Pelik, aku bukannye tidur or ape, just tutup mata.

Tapi mimpi hantu2 ni tak setakut mimpi kene bunuh or nampak orang kene bunuh. Otak aku memang minat lah genre2 mcm ni kalau tgk movies. Tapi tak sangka pulak aku, dalam mimpi pun minat jgk.haha. Pernah sekali aku mimpi kene kidnap dengan sorang perempuan psycho. Dan dalam mimpi tu aku kene tembak.hahaha...wait, apsal aku gelak pulak?? For full story click here.

Dan ada sekali aku mimpi nampak satu classmate aku kene bunuh. Memang nampak jelas semua details, well except the murderer lah. The blood, the bodies...confirm aku mimpi ade kaler. haha. For full story, click here.

Dan mimpi yang ni mesti sume pnah alami kan? mimpi something yang menyedihkan then nangis, pastu bila terbangun, air mata kat pipi. Rupa2nya dah nangis betul2. Aku selalu gak dpt mimpi cenggini.

Dan baru2 ni aku mimpi horrible jgak, tp rasa berdebar tu cam xde. Aku mimpi nampak tsunami. Ombak besar nak datang tepat kat rumah aku. Kejadian tu jadi betul2 dalam bilik aku. So maknanye aku nampak ombak tu from my window la. Of course dalam mimpi mesti la tak masuk akal kan. Aku still ade time pergi cari kucing2 aku si fify dan adeq, masukkan drg dalam cage, pastu tggu tsunami tu dtg. Aku bayang yang kalau air dah naik dalam rumah, aku still bole selamatkan kucing2 aku even kalau aku lemas pun. Haha, baik tak aku?

Tapi pastu kucing aku adeq pergi larikan diri pulak. Tak xtahu la cmne bleh tlepas. Aku tpaksa biarkan. Then muncul plak srg ppuan, aku tak tahu la sape, cakap pasal tsunami tuh, then die kata die boleh selamatkan kucing aku. Dan aku pun setuju. Haha motif?? Bukan nak mintak die selamatkan aku..haha. Pelik jgk aku ni, lambat btol tsunami tu datang. Then aku terjaga dgn tiba2. Tak sempat dihempas tsunami pun. Kat situ aku lega la..

Camni lah rupa tsunami dalam mimpi aku tu. Scary kan? 

Na'uzubillahi min dzalik. 

“Kami berlindung dengan Allah daripada perkara (perkara buruk) tersebut (daripada menimpa kami).”

Dan mlm tadi, aku mimpi something interesting dan aku igt every details. Tp smpai sekarang, aku dah tak igt dah. Patutnye tulis terus. HAHA.

Okay, habes citer. Kalau sambung alamat jadi novel pulak karang. Adios!

I.A

Smiling Virus :)

Assalamualaikum beautiful creatures!!

What? oh no these ain't gonna be a story about animals. But that particular animal does, however play an important aspect in this entry.

A little introduction to the little cute fellow...that is an Australian Quokka. I feel like naming it Bobby (don't know why, don't ask me). I can explain what it is, but this ain't Animal Planet. Haha. In short, this animal is kinda a cross between a rat, a squirrel, and a kangaroo... (based on my own observation). I know, It's hard to explain. So google it and you'll know what I mean.

This creature, is said to be the happiest animal in the world. Can't argue about that. I mean look at it. It's smiling! This was not photo-shopped or altered in anyway. It's just how it is. It looks like a cartoon character right? So adorable!

So back to the main point. What's the lesson here? Animals don't think like we do. But how can they be even nicer than a human being? Sometimes, we go to a supermarket or a mall, and the cashier has this annoying and transparent look on her face that makes you want to punch her in the face so hard but you can't. Or maybe you just feel like screaming to her ears "hey, did you use botox or something? Smile for God sake!" Well, at least that's how I feel most of the time.

Sometimes, somebody else will justify; maybe she had a rough day. And I'll punch that person right in the face too. Nahh, kidding..haha. Actually, it doesn't matter how rough your day is or was, and how bad people treated you, you don't have to take it on somebody else. It's not fair for them. And it's not their fault that their day was good. Hehe.

A study suggests that bad mood is contagious. So you wouldn't want to infect others aite?! You ain't a zombie! Eh?

Be nice to people. Smile even if you don't feel like it. A study suggests..(another study, yeah I know, I love to read SO WHAT?) that smiling can make you feel good. Even if it's a fake one! and it can make others feel good too. In fact, they might even like you more. :)

And for my special friend, you know who you are, smile when you're walking. Don't frown. Remember to put on your open face..hehe. I know who you are for real, but others might not. :)

And that's the end of my story. Don't forget to be like Bobby, smiling wherever it goes. It's photogenic too..haha.. TT

Smile even while you are sleeping...
EH?!

I.A


 

Pelanduk 2 tak berapa nak serupa :P

Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters. Thank you for coming! Eyh?

Acah jer. Mukadimah hambar aku hari ni. Tet! T_T

Yosh! Lame gile aku tak update blog ni. Mostly sebab aku takder idea nak melabun pasal ape. heh. Ini pon entry aku macam nak taknak je buat. Tapi sbb aku kne gak update, so aku ikutkan jelah kata minda ni. Niways, apsal lah tajuk aku sebegitu rupa? Dan bukan ke patutnye pelanduk 2 serupa? Ngeh, cuba sabar sket tak boleh ke?! aku nk citer la ni! :p

So, korang mesti pernah jumpe sape2 yg muka sebijik macam org yang korang kenal kan? Haha, sakit otak x nak proses ayat tunggang-terbalik aku? tp korang pham ann. Muka serupa ngan org yg krg kenal. Tak pon kawan ko cakap ade org tu macam muka kau. Sorry aku tak reti la nak susun ayat. Haih!

Btw, aku tnye tu saje jer, yg nak citer ni cite aku lah. Heh. Aku banyak gak org cakap muka cam orang tu orang ni. Sebelum ni, ade 2 org cakap muka aku cam Najwa Latiff. Tak leh blah. Ade 2 org jgak ckp muka aku cam Kim Tae Hee. Plakon korea tuh. Buekk, yang ni bole la kot kita same2 muntah. Jadah nye la muka aku cam dorang. T_T

Dan baru2 ni, sedara-mara aku, iaitu makcik2 aku, (aku ade 4 org makcik) sume cakap muka aku sbijik cam Nelydia Senrose. What the bear! Takde org lain dah ke? hahaha. Seriously, aku dtg open house pakcik aku, aunties aku sume tkejut. "Ehhhhh retis datang le!!" Kuang asam. T_T

Dan sorang makcik aku ttibe dtg time aku tgh duduk, cakap nak amek gamba ngan retis jap...erkk, mak ngah...why??? So aritu aku cerita kat adik ppuan aku pasal tu. Sbb die tak dtg open house tu. Die boleh bantai gelak kat aku, lepas tu ttibe cakap, "adelah sket cam muka die." Lagi takle blah. Bukan nak backup aku. Cis! Aku igt muka aku ni dah cukup unik. Rupanya....

Ade la aku pnah nmpak muka yg lebih krg, dan dua2 aku knal. Haha. Owh, ckp pasal muka serupa ni, teringat satu kejadian aku baca kt youtube. This girl from north korea, was adopted bawak ke luar negara la. Then one day, someone wrote on her FB wall, tnye mane die lahir, bila, bla bla bla, pastu citer die lahir time ni kat sini. Pastu muka die sebijik mcm girl from north korea tu. She's from France. So turns out, drg rupenye adelah twins yg separated from kecik! Oh my, kecik betul dunia ni, drg boleh jumpa balik.

So, agak2 mungkin aku ade kembar kot kat luar tu? haha! tp nak kembar ngan Nelydia jgn berangan lah kau!

Same ke? lain kot.
Jom bluekkkkk bersama-sama!

I.A

The Hard Heart

Assalamualaikum everyone.

Another entry for this Raya month. Masa cepat betol berjalan, sedar tak sedar dah Raya. Tapi jgn misunderstood aku. Aku bukan nak citer pasal citer raya untuk entry ni. Aceli, time aku kt kampung, aku ade impian nak citer, tapi memandangkan aku ade short term memory, aku lupe sume bende best yg jadi time tu. Normal.

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Okay berenti kjap sbb aku tgh pikir, ape tujuan entry ni sebenanye.

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Aceli, seperti entry2 sebelum2 ni, aku akan meluah perasaan jugak utk entry ni. Pernah tak korang kenal sape2 yang mmg hati, or otak ke ape ke, keras macam titanium? Sebab pe aku tak tulis batu? Sbb dalam batu pun ade titanium..ape aku merepek.

Berbalik semula kepada citer original, hati keras. Manusia berhati keras. Orang mcm ni, mmg sangat menyakitkan hati. Serius kalau ko takde pendidikan agama yg kukuh, mmg boleh jadi gila. Aku ni nasib sbb aku bukan nak berlagak tapi aku boleh handle stress. Tapi se terer aku pon, sorang hamba Allah ni mmg boleh buat aku break.

Kadang2, kita igt, wah, kita tak pernah kenal org lain macam org tuh. Tapi sebenanye, ramai je manusia yg di 'built in' dgn attitude similar. SO freaking similar that you can't help but wonder if they are the same person, but were cursed to be separated from each other. 

Sebab ape aku tahu? sbb aku kenal some of them yg mmg otak serupa sgt. Tapi aku fokus pada sorg jer. Aku dah tak tahu macam ne nak handle budak srg ni. Serius dia sgt lain dan pelik. Nasihat yg org bagi, langsung tak amek pot. Buang camtu je dalam tong sampah. Dan die ni mcm ade split personalities. Dengan org lain bukan main baik, pijak semut tak mati. Dengan family sendiri, MasyaAllah. 

Orang cakap itu just a phase. Since he's only 19 dan ade krisis. Tapi dorang tak tahu ape2 boleh la ckp cmtu. 

blerh...aku penat. Die ni dah bnyak kali jadi character dalam entry2 aku. Harap2 cepat lah sedar, bertaubat. Takut nnt terlambat menyesal mmg tak guna la. May Allah be with me. Aamin..

I.A

My Birthday Story

Assalamualaikum makhluk-makhluk sekalian!

Sedar tak sedar dah masuk bulan puasa. Aceli dah lebih a week dah, aku je lambat baru nak citer. Lantaks! Lame aku xberkunjung ke blog ni. Berhabuk abeh sume. Aku fokus bnyk kat blog poetry aku aje. Bias disitu! Jangan salahkan aku, aku kan tanam anggur, bnyk masa dalam tgn, so disebabkan itu mmg hobi aku, jadi baiklah aku buat ajer kan.

Banyak lah bende yg jadi start dari last entry aku kat sini sampai lani...tapi satu hapa pon aku tak ingat. Jadinye aku xdapat lah citer sume. Tp satu citer ni aku akan igt smpai bebila.

29 hb Jun haritu, hari aku keluar...eh, hari aku lahir. Aku tak bape amek pot pon bab2 birthday ni, sbb nye mmg dari aku kecik smpai ke beso panjang lebar ni, tak pnah pon celebrate ke ape. So tgh aku busy layan wishes yang macam air terjun dekat fesbuk, ttibe bakal kakak ipar masuk bilik ckp abang aku gado ngan adik laki aku.

"Ira, abg ngan Shah gadoh camne ni?" katanya.
"Haihhhh" kataku sambil gerak nak pi tgk orang wrestling live! Bleh jd referee jap. heh.

Haa, based on reaksi aku tadi, korang jgn igt aku tak kesah lak abg ngan adik aku nak berperang. Tapi sbb drg ni mmg jenis yang ske berkelahi. Aku dah 'cook'.lol

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(aku berenti type kjap sbb tibe2 aku dga org menjerit dalam kesamaran lagu yg aku tgh dgar, rupenye abg aku tgh menyanyi lagu kuat2. Cissss!)

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Sambung balik, aku pi jenguk la abg ngan adik aku tuh. Memang sungguh drg tgh wrestling! haha. Apehal aku gelak plak ni? Eh, aku pon cuak ahh tapi berjaya maintain cool lagi. Dah bertumbuk2 tuh, tak bole jadi, aku tarik tgn abg aku soh die besabo. Cuak jgak kang aku pulak kene tumbuk.hehe..

Tgh drg bertinju tu, adik ppuan aku Nana masuk bilik smbil bawak pinggan kat tangan. Dalamnye berisi sesuatu berwarna putih. Macam bedak, tapi aku pasti bukan dadah...eyh?!

Now, part ni, kalau org yang laju dan pandai akan terus pikir 

"Woi, kau nak baling tepung kat aku ehhhh!!! Drg ni nak prank aku!"

Tapi dengan dukacitanya dimaklumkan, aku bukanlah seorang yang laju dan...eh aku pandai, tapi slow jer.hehe. jadiknye aku pikir:

"Ehh, Nana nak masak cucor la...." T_T

Aku tak tipu, mmg kepala otak aku pikir macam tuh.......hehe... Ni sume sbb Nana suka grg cucor!

Tapi sejurus kemudian, bende putih dalam pinggan -yg waktu ini kita sume tahu adalah tepung - itu dilempar kepada aku dengan rakusnya oleh mereka sume. Turut serta adalah The Rock & Stone Cold Steve Austin. ----abg ngan adik aku...kuajar. Dan bakal kakak ipar pon turut serta. Mangkukkk.

Dorang baling mmg siyes macam ade hidden grudge somewhere yang aku tak tau kt aku! Baling suka hati riang ria hari raya jer. Cisss! Aku smpai terduduk la. Then drg nyanyi lagu Happy Birthday kat aku. So kurang sket la geram aku. Hehe.. Aku still xleh caye aku kene prank dgn The Rock ngan Stone Cold. Dan lagi tak caye aku bole pcaye dgn lakonan drg tu..

Satu badan aku penuh tepung. Aku ape lagi, baling gak la kat dorang... Dah macam antu rupe aku.haha.

So, takat tu aje prank nyer. Tapi bday wish nye tak abes lagi. Next day, malamnye, kitorang sume pg karok. Dah masuk dlm bilik tuh, mama still xstart nyanyi. Aku soh la nyanyi cpt, die soh tguu The Rock yg dah ilang ntah kemane. Bile The rock masuk je bilik, drg sume nyanyi lagu Happy Birthday lagi skali!

Apehal la drg ni, tahu la sayang aku lebih tapi I malu you...hahaha....xle bla.

The thing is, aku tak kisah pon kalau no celebration or whatsoever. At least people remember me. Dan aku suka kalau org wish and sertakan doa skali. Terima kasih ye korang2!! Semoga Allah membalas kebaikan kamu sume! Aaminn!

The last person on earth aku expect utk wish birthday aku adalah, si pembuli. Atau nama sebenar Kaer. Tibe2 die whatsapp ehhh. Pastu melalut-lalut la dgn pembulian die. Aku seperti biasa terima sume. Tp thanks anyway lah Kaer!

Owh, besties aku pulak, Atie and Ima, al-kisahnye macam pakat je wish bday aku 30 hb. hahaha... Dua2 pakat lupe bday aku ehhh! hehehe...tp xpe, it's the thought that counts! Oh and Atie, u did give me the very super early birthday present kann. So, thank you! hahahaha....

Dan kepada besties lain jugak, Anum, Yatie, Adek, Iyka...thank you korang punye wish!! Love you all so the very much! Okay. itu aje utk hari ini. Dah nak azan. Selamat berbuka ya!!!

p/s: muka kene baling tepung. Baju hitam jadi putih!

I.A

Orange

Taken yesterday evening. Such a beautiful scene. MashaAllah. Upon laying my eyes on it, I saw deep in my crazy, weird, awesome imagination of mine, a huge bird flying across the orange sky. Such a rare sight don't you think? U can see a lot if u look closely and deeply into the world up there. :)

Stupidity

Sometimes you want to believe that someone's changed. Keep telling yourself a lie and hope it'll be true.You actually believed it. You held on to it for so long. And then something bad happened and it destroyed everything. Then you start to wonder, how much longer can you put on the charade... And how long will it take to get that piece of hope into your heart again this time. Humans are very fascinating. No matter how much you're hurt, you can't seem to have enough. Your smile can be your mask, but your heart is dying little by little. And yet, you're not willing to do anything to save it. Not even wanting to take one sip of breath. Willing to die. And then you start to wonder again, how can you be so stupid? so insane? so confused? When the obvious answer lies right under you nose. I guess maybe that's why you can't see it. But none of it matters, because no matter how many times you're hit in the head, the pain has already become a part of you. Then it will all fall back into the same pattern, again and again. Voilà! it's a one big perfect circle... so, lesson's learned? I don't think so.

This is a one mystery that can never be solved.

A Great Life!

Assalamualaikum beautiful creatures of Allah :)

How is everyone? As for me, all I can say is Alhamdulillah, I am very fine. Allah has blessed me with good health ever since I was a child. No major allergies, no low immune system nor terminal disease. Yes people, if you feel blessed with something, say Alhamdulillah. It'll only take a second. Literally. And you will get a reward too, kill 2 birds with one stone!

Yeah, a little bit off topic. What is the topic anyway? I'm kinda..lost.....

Oh yeah, so I'm going to change into the other persona again; the philosopher! Not Harry Potter's Philosopher's stone alright. I feel like I'm wasting half of my time babbling and whining about my so-called miserable life. I mean, my life isn't miserable. Just 'cause one or two things (in my case it's a lot of things) in my life didn't go as I wanted it to, doesn't mean I get to judge.

A little whining and babbling doesn't hurt, but when it gets a little too much, then you got to ask yourself, "what am I doing wrong?!" We're humans. We're flawed. We make mistakes. Bla bla bla.

I can't say I'm going to stop complaining after this particular entry, but at least I'm reflecting. That's what they call it in counseling. It's when you reflect back on your actions and mistakes. No Missy, you are NOT perfect! You should try it once in a while. :)

You know what's hard in life? Knowing you couldn't be what Allah asks you to be. Not because you couldn't get any boyfriend or girlfriend, or if your parents fight every night or got divorced or whatever. We live to please Allah.

Take my mum for example, she is one of the most strongest person I have ever known in my entire life. She is a living proof of a Wonder Woman. She's been fighting her entire life. And she is still fighting without a man to help her. I can never understand what she's been through, being a single mother that she is.

I feel so bad because I don't feel like I'm doing enough to help her. I want to help her. But she won't say anything to us. And that makes me sad. Not knowing what's in my mother's heart. She is right there, within my reach. And yet I can't do anything to catch her. She's not perfect. She whines, she complains, but those are just words to ease her pain. I can understand at least that.

Ok I'm starting to cry. This is what I hate about being a philosopher. So much emotions.

I never told anyone my story - except to a few people close to me. I don't want to be sympathized. But I want people to learn from it. And grow with it. Maybe someday.

I guess that's why I am scared of saying I have a miserable life. Afraid that if I whine too much, Allah might take it away; my lovely family, my dear friends, and unknown strangers. Because, I see that behind every bad things in our lives, lies that one part that is good and amazing. You just have to look deeper. :)

And last of all, I'm not a strong person. I cry, I've shed tears, I cuddle up like a little baby whenever I feel hurt. I just don't do it in front of other people. I don't want them to see me in my fragile state. So I put on a happy face (most of the time I am truly, genuinely happy) and I want them to take a little strength from that happiness for themselves. Even just a little. :)

If you can't find even a single thing to be grateful for, just be grateful you exist. :)

I.A

Memories

What happened to us? All those years just disappear. I miss the old days when we can just say anything, do anything and be anything we want without all those silly dramas, without any emotional breach and sensitivity, without so much as feeling offended by what each other did or said, without anyone telling us this and that... All we had was each other. We were so strong, so happy and so ridiculous - in a great way. Though the ridiculousness remains, the rests are no where to be seen. And it'd forced me to ask, what happened to us?

P/s: feeling sad all of a sudden. Gosh, I miss everyone :(

Dream Guy

Assalamualaikum everyone~~

Aku da delete about 5 posts. Serabut ah bile tgk. Baik delete jer. Tak suka lah emo2 ni. :)

So, kelmarin aku sibuk la google2 action and horror movies yg best utk ditonton la kan. Then aku terjumpe la cite ni, Midnight Meat Train, cite horror lah kan, tgk tajuk pun. Tgk main actor die Bradley Cooper. Seems legit. Tapi aku tak tgk pun, sakit jiwa baca komen manusia2 kat youtube time aku cari trailer die. Bajet mcm pengarah hebat sgt, cuba ko try buat satu filem, macam terer sgt nak kritik. Adeh~

Ok, dah menyimpang. Aku bukan nk cite pasal movie tuh, tapi pasal mimpi aku mlm tadi. Wahaha, lawak gile...so apehal aku mention movie tuh? Sbb main actor dlm mimpi aku Bradley Cooper lah jugak. Hahaha.. Hangpa jgn nak gelak2 sgt eh. Bukan nye aku nak perasan, dah die nak berlakon dlm mimpi aku nak wat camno. Kikiki~~

Dah nama pun mimpi, mmg bnyk yg tak masuk akal lah. Tapi plot die cenggini. Aku ngan srg girl ni, baru kenal asenye, kluar hangout, and nak pg double date. Aku al kisahnye tak kenal sape date tuh. So kitorang jalan2 satu mall tuh nk cari tmpat tu. Tgh aku jalan2 nmpak pulak kawan aku si Hafiz Kamarulzaman! Apehal nyibuk dlm mimpi aku ni...hah! Buat cameo pulak....cis. Tp takat nmpak jelah, die takde line dlm tuh..haha.

Tgh jalan2 nk pg tmpat makan tuh, aku terus nmpak Bradley Cooper! Adeh, mak aii, hensem kot. Aku dlm hati best gile klu die blind date tuh. haha. Tgk2 mmg die pun! and ade lagi srg guy, aku dapat rasekan die nerd, pakai spek. So basically, 2 guys and 2 girls la. Dah jumpe ktrg duduk la kt tmpat mkn tuh. Aku tak dapat nk pastikan ktrg ckp Melayu ke Omputih..haha. Tapi klaka klu Bradley Cooper ckp Melayu.. ngahaha!

Tgh cakap2 tuh, aku and the girl tu nak pg sembahyang. Alhamdulillah, still igt lagi even dalam mimpi.heh. So ktrg pun pg lah. Time jalan nak pg surau, aku tnye girl tu nama die ape, die ckp Sarah. Ntah sape jadah Sarah, aku tak kenal dlm mimpi, mahupun diluar.haha. Pastu die tnye umur aku, aku tnye la rase2 bape? Die ckp aku umur 20 tahun. Hahahaha....whoever you are Sarah, thanks! Aku dah 24 yer. Dapat muda 4 tahun tuh. Kikiki~~

So, smpai kat surau ktrg pun sembahyang lah. And then....tamat. Hahaha...tak best gile ending cenggitu. Dah la conversation dgn Bradley Cooper langsung aku tak igt!! Sabar aje lah. T_T


Kesian kat nerd tu, dah la tak igt rupe die cmne, nama pun taktau.heh..
Agak2 ade sequel x? Klu ade aku tnye nama die yer. hahahaha.... perasan ya ampun!~

Pada yg tak kenal sape Bradley Cooper, ni ha. This is how he looked like dlm mimpi aku. Sebijik! Hensom tak hensom...weh. Aku siap bole igt lg cmne feelings mse nmpak die tuh. :)

p/s: asenye nmpak awk jugak wahai onnie...time dlm surau.haha. Cameo gak yer. :P

I.A

Supernatural

Gambar sekedar hiasan

Assalamualaikum hamba2 Allah yang dikasihi sekalian! Jawab dulu sbelum baca.

Lame aku tak merepek dlm blog ni yer. Last aku tinggalkan, ade a little bit issue yg arise. Yelah, tgk entries2 aku pun bole teka kan? Takmo la pikir pasal the past, let's focus on what's right here, right now.
For this entry, I got a very supernatural story to tell you guys.

Sebelum pape, aku nk remind, ni bukan nak cite pasal tv show omputih tu yer. Ni cite aku. So peminat2 Supernatural, blah skang. Dgn aku2 sekali la tuh..haha

Cut the story short, malas nak pjg2. Aku tau aku makin malas. Al kisahnye, hari tu, hari ape? hari tu lah, hari ap ntah, aku dah tak igt. Dan dgn sbb aku pemalas maka aku malas nak igt balik. Hari itu, time tgh malam, time aku dah siap2 nak tido dan bole kata lagi sket nak masuk alam mimpi, ttibe blackout! Tanpa apa2 warning pun. Yelah, takkan la ade org nak announce pulak nak blackout kot..adoii...

So, sume org pun cuak lah...abang aku, adik laki aku la, aku steady jer. Dah cari tocelait, pasang lilin, dok balik dalam bilik. Igt nak smbung tido, tp panas. Itu tak kisah lagi, yg aku tak paham, apsal abg ngan adik aku dok dlm blik aku??? Takut much? Hahaha... drg tak abes2 "Wohh, zombie apocalypse!!!" buahaha...

Zombie apocalypse la sgt! Kalau betul2, drg dulu yg lari lintang pukang. Namenye laki drg tuh, tapi penakut ya amat. Aku tak tipu. So ok lah, tgh lepak2 tunggu letrik dtg balik, aku amek hanpon, main snap2 dlm gelap. Ok, part nih, sape yg bace entry ni, for sure akan tampar aku laju2. Tak serik2 lagi ambik gmba dlm gelap. hahaa..

Tapi aku guna phone aku yg megapixel pun tak bape nak gempak, so aku tak kisah la. Tapi pastu abang aku ngan adik aku pun lawan2 snap gmba guna hanpon masing2. Aku nmpak abg aku start snap tuh, aku pun ape lagi "Abg, ko baik tak pyah snap dlm gelap2 nih, hanpon ko tuh...." Aku tak abeskan ayat, die phm sendiri lah. "Ko jahat kan nak takutkan aku." Die balas gitu kat aku. So unmanly!!

Since die punye phone pnah tertangkap sesuatu yg tak sepatotnye, aku warning la awal2. Yelah, hanpon pun MP beso. Mane taknye. Tapi seperti biasa, dlm kejadian lepas pun die tak dgar ckp ibu, apatah lagi yg aku ni kan? Die still snap lagi. Gmba ktrg 3 org. Aku pun pose jelah.

Dah lepas snap tu, abg aku bg aku hanpon die. Tapi tak cakap ape2. Aku tgk jelah. Lama aku pgg, tp aku nmpak ktrg 3 org jelah. Obviously abg aku nmpak 4 org. Hahahaa...

Pastu baru die tunjuk, kat mane 'orang' ke4 tuh..dkt badan die...hahaha...bapak scary doe!!! Tapi aku taktau nape aku gelak gile time tuh. Mostly sbb aku dah warning die tapi still jadi, hahaha....itu yg lawak.
"Aku dah cakap, jgn amek gmba, hanpon ko tu lain skettt...haha" aku dok ketawa kat die.. Adik jantan aku pi mana? Hahaha, naik atas katil aku. Bile mase die naik pun aku tak pasan. Nampak tak penakut die?

Ape yg ade dlm gmba tuh?? Last time dapat tgkap perempuan, this time, lelaki pulak. Macam org tua, yg dah jd mayat...mcam zombie pun ade...siyes. Jgn gelak! Tapi die tak tgk camera this time.

Kali ni, abang aku tak delete gmba tuh. Nasib baik lah. Maybe sbb tak jelas sgt mcm yg 1st time tuh. Gmba die mane? Haha, aku tak bole letak sini, sbb aku tak pakai tudung dan abang aku gerenti duku pale aku kalau die tau. Kenape? Hahahahaha....Aku siyes tau. Bukan cite tipu, even though aku banyak "hahaha" kat sini. Ngeh.

Ah, shoot! terpanjang pulak citer nih. Haha..

I.A

Daddy's Day

Salam. 

Just want to share with you guys a poem written by Cheryl Costello-Forshey entitled Daddy's Day. Never thought I could cry just by reading a poem...this is beautiful & heartbreaking.

Her hair was up in a ponytail
Her favourite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school
And she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one"
Another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offened her,
As she smiled up at her mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.
"My daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy's always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart."
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
He's my shining star.
And if he could he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.
You see he was a fireman
And died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It's like he never went away."
And then she closes her eyes,
And saw him there that day.
And to her mother's amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they say before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy."
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far

Did you cry?

I.A

A Knock of Truth

Assalamualaikum.

This was written by my uncle on our family's FB page. I felt sad and start to ponder upon the truth in his words. So then I felt an impelling desire to share it here. I hope we can all benefit from it.

Persoalan: adakah kebaikan boleh berjalan seiring dengan kebathilan, tidak kira lah berapa nisbahnya, samada 80:20 atau 99:1. Jawapannya tidak boleh, tapi sempurnakah kita? Yang pasti kita tidak maksum & tidak sunyi dr melakukan kesilapan samada disengajakan atau di luar pengetahuan. Lalu sebagai seorg muslim, teguran di atas apa shj kesilapan adalah suatu rahmat Allah drp ianya berterusan tanpa teguran & nasihat. Adakah bila kita sentiasa berbuat baik, lalu bila kita melakukan kesilapan kita tidak layak diberi teguran. Sedangkan Rasulullah saw junjungan besar sendiri pernah ditegur Allah swt. Angka 20 sebenarnya terlalu besar, sepatutnya walaupun sebesar zarah kesilapan kita, teguran yg diberi tiada nilaian yg dapat diberi. 

Cuba terus bertahan, tp kalau terus-terusan mengguris hati & perasaan insan lain, yg seolah-olah org lain tiada hati & perasaan, maka cukuplah setakat ini. Kalau berpanjangan dipaparkan ketidakpuasan hati di khalayak, kalau merasakan insan-insan yg paling menyayangi tidak diperlukan malah seolah-olah tiada nilaiannya lagi maka cukuplah sampai di titik ini...tiada lagi lah suara teguran dari insan ini.....

Ada kebenaran dalam kata2 ni. Terasa malu sebentar dengan diri sendiri. Kadang2 aku pun begitu jugak. Mengutuk, mengata orang yg aku kenal ataupun tidak ke public utk tontonan orang lain. Tanpa mengambil kira perasaan mereka atau merendah2 kan mereka seolah2 mereka tidak pernah melakukan kebaikan kepada aku. Tak kira lah sama ada mereka tahu ataupun tidak. Sebagai manusia aku tak patut buat macam tu. Akan berusaha untuk jadi lebih baik. Moga Allah ada disisi. Amin.

I.A

The one that's missing

Salam.

Kadang2 aku perasan aku sgt suka observe orang. Cara org bawak diri, cara bercakap, cara pandang, cara senyum, riak muka, or kalau org tu happy-go-lucky or grumpy. Seronok actually. Aku pun suka tgk family ramai2 together happy2. Ade mak, ayah, abang, kakak, adik; cukup sumer. Sebab bile aku tgk, aku teringat balik time family ktrg same2, way back. Rindu rase nak gelak2 and play around dgn abah. Even though he's still around but, well, the fact that ktrg no longer duduk same2 kind of makes it hard. Heheh..

Believe it or not, as strict as he was, there was also a soft spot inside. Walaupun byk sad stuff yg aku igt, well more like terpaksa igt sbb memory tu tetap ade kat kepala otak ni. Tapi, aku try jgak igt bende2 yang happy. It makes me happy.

Aku tau mcm mne rase hilang sume tu. That's why bile aku tgk org lain dgn ayah drg, terubat gak lah rindu aku. Mostly aku suka tgk kawan aku dgn ayah die. So sweet jer, jumpe je, hug each other, ketawa sama2, usik2 each other, macam kawan2. Of course, aku sgt jealous. Okay, teramat jealous. That's why kalau aku nmpak drg with each other, aku xleh tgk lelame, kne alihkan pandangan, sbb aku takut ternangis pulakkk, haha...ntah pape ntah.

Of couse la aku pun try dekat dgn abah jugak. Try and fix things between us all. Tapi tu lah...bila da besar panjang ni, everything changes.

The other day, mase pg cari barang dinner, kawan2 guys aku ttibe buat lawak nak pggil mak aku ibu..haha. beselah perangai mcm budak. Ttibe Kay masuk bab ayah pulak, nak pggil ape. Aku pun dah rase awkward, macam mne nak jawab ni. Aku diam jelah. And aku tak perasan rupenye kawan aku Atie suruh die senyap. Aku pun pelik Kay ttibe senyap knape. But aku biar je lah. Balik tu die bgtahu, aku tnye nape die soh Kay senyap. Die kt takut aku sedih... Erm, thanks a lot Onnie... You always had my back when I needed you. You didn't have to do that, but you did. You made me want to cry...hehe...

I still remember, the first time I told you about my family, you cried so bad. I didn't expect you to. Terkejut sy time tu...hehe. I never really thank you for understanding me. So thank you Onnie.

Tapi, kalau nak banding kan hidup aku ni, orang lain ade lagi susah. I'm glad God gave me this kind of life. Mane tahu, mungkin kalau hidup aku lain, aku jadi budak nakal ke, or terlebih social ke kan? Sume ade hikmah nye. Lagipun kt kne lah susah2 dulu senang2 kemudian..right?

I.A

Reflection

Salam.

Pergh..aku bace balik entry sebelum ni aku sendiri dpt goosebumps. Macam mne aku bole tulis bende2 tuh. Aku bukan pemarah orgnye, aku pacifist. Heh...

Ase lega mmg lega, tapi aku rase lain. That's not me. I know. But, the feelings have got to go somewhere right? What better place than here. Nak cakap ngan dorang aku rase tak perlu. Sbb perkara ini terlalu kecik.
So, again, I just better keep it to myself. Well, tak jugak, aku tulis kat sini kan?

Aku sebenanye tak paham ape yg aku rase skang. Sedih ade, happy pun ade, bercampur sumer. Tapi yang aku sure, aku rase lonely sgt2. Mula lah aku rase rindu nak balik study UIA. At least kat sane aku ade kawan2. Bole lupe sume sunyi. Tapi, skang aku kene fokus dgn present time.

I.A

Mana 1 daun limau?

Huduh gile mamat ni...ngahaha!

Lalu sebelah dapur, mama pangil "Iya, tolong amekkan daun limau kat luar jap..satu jer" sambil menghunuskan pisau kepadaku. Aku pun capai pisau sambil dlm otak pikir, daun limau gimana rupanya sih? 

"Ma, iya tak pakai spek, nmpak ke ni.." Aku memberi alasan yang agak munasabah ketika itu. Tapi aku menapak juga ke beranda. Adik lelaki aku Shah ikut kat belakang. Sampai disana aku monolog, "Mane satu daun limau nih...?" Memang aku tak nampak pun sbb tak pakai spek ~ macam lah aku nampak kalau pakai pun kan..haha...daun limau tak kenal...ceh..

Shah dengan konfiden tunjuk ke arah 'daun limau' tersebut, "Tu ha daun limau." Kuang ajar. Aku tau lah. Aku pun tunduk nak amek. Tiba2 kami dikejutkan oleh mama didapur (dapur tembus ke beranda), "Bukan itu la, itu ha kat ujung!" Aku terkesimat dan Shah terkulat-kulat. "Ha, ko ni, kan aku da kata, salah la!" Nampak tak permainannye? Konon nak cover.ngahaha.. Aku ambik daun limau yg sebenar hulur kat mama.

"Betullah aku tunjuk tadi." Shah masih tidak puas hati. "Salah, bukan ni, yg tu lah." Aku ter excited jawab sampai pitch jadi tinggi. Aku pandang ke bawah, ade 2 org hamba Allah sedang lalu. Sungguh tak kene timing.

"Tengok kau ni, kot ye pun xyah la jerit tgk org tu dah nmpak. Malu sioot.." Aku pula disalahkannye. "Engkau lah, sape suruh salah." Aku membela diri smbil lari kedalam. "Engkau la.." Kedengaran Shah bersuara sambil gelak macam kerang busuk.

Nasib baik gak aku tak pakai spek, so tak nampak la reaksi 2 org makhluk Allah yg salah timing tu. Kurang sket malu aku. Ngahaha!!

IA

Tiada Cerita

Salam...

Kesimpulannya, aku takde ape nak citer. Amazing!! Aku tak penah takde ape nak citer kot. Walaupun bila aku takde apa nak citer, mesti akan ada citer punye. Jap gi datang la kot cerita.

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Still. Tiada cerita. Sorry, aku juga kecewa dengan diri sendiri. T_T"

IA

The Gila Show

Bapak gila comel Maru nih! Aku penyek jap gi. (Sekedar hiasan)

Salam kanak-kanak sekalian! C:

Hari ni 1st time aku jmpe balik Atie pas 3 minggu tak jumpe. Die msg, aku tak dga sbb tgh tdo, next up die call. Die kt otw nk datang umah aku. Oh no, bilik mcm tongkang pecah! Kemas.

Then pas die da smpai, die ajak aku pi UIA tercinta. Aku setelah mempertimbangkan cadangannye, pun terima. We're off to UIA! Sampai2 je, tgh jalan, Atie nmpak satu kereta. Didalamnya ada seorang lelaki. Teeet! Jangan pikir bukan2 boleh x?!

"Orang tu..macam...Kaer." Atie cakap. Aku pun tgk la benar atau tidak kenyataan itu, yer, ternyata lelaki itu terlihat seperti Kaer. Jalan lagi kedepan, Atie tengok lagi sekali sambil mengecilkan matanya yang mmg dah sedia kecik itu. Kemudian satu lagi kenyataan keluar, "Ye, itu mmg Kaer.haha." keluar dari mulut die. Aku hanya mampu tergelak mcm kerang busuk.

Seperti bese lah, jumpe ngan mamat kaki buli aku nih, ayat first die tuju kepada aku adalah, "Aku benci Iera!" Kuang haja. Aku pun letupkan kereta die sat tu jugak....

Ok. Aku tipu. Aku just cakap "Aku benci ko jugak!" hahaha. Then that was it. Jumpe Mdm, die soh ktrg pi jemput-jemput anak die Nabihah kat skola since die tgh busy dgn si pembuli. Off to skola Bihah! Smpai sane Atie klua utk menjemput tuan puteri dan aku dok lam keter. Boring.

Jeling keter sebelah ade a few budak skola nak balik jgk. 5 kids kat blakang. One of the boys tgh ushar tgk aku. Ok, ini la masanya utk mode gila! Aku pun lambai la die. Die sengih pastu ajak kawan die kt sebelah join ushar tgk aku. Taknak menghampakan kawan die aku lambai la jugak sambil senyum. Die sengih2 pastu pi panggil plak bdk2 ppuan sbelah die untuk tgk aku jugak. Drg sume lambai2 kat aku. Ni dah lebey!

Aku pun ape lagi, kluarkan muka2 comel badut aku kat drg. Sambil buat peace segala jadah. Penontonnya budak2 skolah dlm keter sebelah. Amboi, sonok btol drg gelak tgk aku beraksi! Kuang haja. Drg pun tak bleh blah buat jugak..hahaha...pastu drg blah. Sonok gile aku time tuh.haha

Walaupun aku tgk drg seronok, tapi mesti dalam hati drg like, "apsal akak nih, gile kott..layan je lah." hahaha.. But, aku suka dapat buat budak2 tu gelak dgn aksi akuh...sbb aku ske klu org happy sbb aku..ngahaha...kbai.

IA

Boom!

Gambar exaggerate.ngeh

Salam ya'lls!

Final exam result bru kluar jam 12 tgh mlm tadi. Sebelum sampai time tuh, aku da cuak berbakul-bakul! Mane tak nye, kat twitter aku penuh orang tweet pasal final result dan segala yang berkaitan! Ade yg post time, alternate link, ucapan, segala lah.Kuang haja. Sakit perut aku tahu tak? tak pyh la nak tweet sangat la org tahu lah!!

Hehe, oopss...takleh kawal perasaan tetibe.Sorreh.

Alhamdulilah aku bjaya mengharungi last exam kat IIUM dgn baik. But to tell you the truth, aku tak bape nak puas hati ngan result dan of cos, CGPA gak. Aku aim sume subject dpt A...but I only got 2 A's..the other 2 B+. Sedih weh...siyes. 

Takpe lah, dah lepas. Ape yg aku dpt tuhan bagi ikut usaha aku. Dan yes, usaha aku macam what the fish jer..so salah sendiri lah. Niways, no longer cuakness from IIUM! Yays... T_T

IA

Do I really do that??

Assalamualaikum makcik dan pakcik sekalian.

Ha? Ape? Oh bukan makcik & pakcik eh? Okay, sosorry! Tapi sedarlah anda bakal menjadi mereka suatu hari nnt.

Wokay, dah start merepek dah. Niways...aku da abes belaja!!!! Alhamdulillah, berkat usaha dan doa parents aku sepanjang aku di IIUM, aku telah berjaya menamatkan study aku kat sane. Tapi, ehem, final result belum kluar lagi lah. Grad pun jauh nunn bulan sepoloh nnt! But, aku yakin aku dapat straight A! InSyaAllah, amin. We'll see.

Nihow, seperti biasa lah, being the crazy girl that I am (finally decided to accept the fact that I really am), will have no seriousness in my business. What kind of business you ask? Bukan jual tudung la...business jd blogger ah...no seriousness whatsoever will come out of this entry (and others).

Korang pernah tak perasan korang punye habit yang korang tak pernah perasan sebelum ni? Haha, sakit otak tak nak paham ayat aku tadi?!! Yes....berjaya! Ehem, maksud aku, korang tak tau pun korang ade habit tu kalau org lain tak tegur. Ade tak? Okay, maybe some of you guys ade tapi org tak pernah tegur so korang pun tak tau, maybe some of you guys, ada so bila org lain tegur baru korang tau...yeah, aku juga sudah sakit otak ye rakan-rakan. Maaflah, tgh malam2 buta ni saya seperti seorang pesakit yg terlepas dari asylum sket...

As for my own unknown habit, yang orang bagitau aku; aku suka baca sesuatu out loud, dan cakap sorang2.

Kesimpulannye, orang akan kata aku memang gila. Tapi tak okay! Aku waras lagi. Kalau gila pun sikit jelah kot.....kot.. Okay, so basically, yg read out loud tuh, junior aku si Syahid yg tegor aku bila aku buat. The day die tegur tu lah aku tersedar aku mmg buat sume tuh.

Die pun kt yang girls yg read out loud ni, sometimes people  find it cute. Nampak tak permainannye disitu? Syahid, cakap je lah akak ni cute kan sng.hahaha! Actually, die pun tak sangka aku cmtu. Die kt 1st impression die aku ni dikatakannye elegant & sophisticated, but cute was not one of it....ahahaha...Syahid..why...

So you see, there are some things that we don't notice about ourselves. Dan bila aku sedar aku rase wow! Kita adalah sgt ohsem! Ape kene mngene? Jgn tnye aku.. Aku nak kata yg aku ni unik sebenarnye, tapi...mcm pelik adelah. Tak kesah lah, selagi tak mengganggu org lain, aku rase takde masalah...

Eh, tapi jap Syahid, ko tegur akak sebab akak mengganggu ko ker???? Oh, ntah2 ramai org sekeliling aku sakit jiwa dgar aku bace out loud! heh, sorry!

IA