Stupidity

Sometimes you want to believe that someone's changed. Keep telling yourself a lie and hope it'll be true.You actually believed it. You held on to it for so long. And then something bad happened and it destroyed everything. Then you start to wonder, how much longer can you put on the charade... And how long will it take to get that piece of hope into your heart again this time. Humans are very fascinating. No matter how much you're hurt, you can't seem to have enough. Your smile can be your mask, but your heart is dying little by little. And yet, you're not willing to do anything to save it. Not even wanting to take one sip of breath. Willing to die. And then you start to wonder again, how can you be so stupid? so insane? so confused? When the obvious answer lies right under you nose. I guess maybe that's why you can't see it. But none of it matters, because no matter how many times you're hit in the head, the pain has already become a part of you. Then it will all fall back into the same pattern, again and again. Voilà! it's a one big perfect circle... so, lesson's learned? I don't think so.

This is a one mystery that can never be solved.