The One That We Lose

Salam all.

Semalam hati rase cam sayu jer pas tgk citer Charlie St. Cloud. Aku ske cite die and sgt sedeh. Nangis gak aku sepanjang cite tuh. Citer tuh ade byk bende yang die ajar aku. Pasal perkara yg kt take for granted, pasal peluang kedua, pasal taking chances dan yg plg jelas, pasal kehilangan. Pastu cmne nak hadapi kehilangan seseorang tuh. Kehilangan tu pon jadi sebab salah die.

Entry ni ade kaitan la dgn entry aku yg sbelum ni. Quote tu aku dpt dr cite tu lah. Pasal taking chances. Kadang2 kt rasa mcm tu kan. Bila kt hilang ape2 msti kt rse kenapa aku still kat cni. Kenapa aku yg diberi peluang kedua. Tp sbenanye kalau nk ikutkan, kt sndri tau jawapannye.

Kalau aku, aku xtau la mcm ne nak deal bila kehilangan sapa2. Yang aku tau nangis jer.heh. Tapi kalau aku berada dlm situasi Charlie, mesti aku pon akan rase bersalah teramat sgt. Aku akan rse kenape aku yg selamat tp adik aku x. Pastu aku akan buat ape je utk happy kan hati sendiri even though bende tu mcm xmasuk akal.

Dalam cite ni, Charlie ndan adik die Sammy, excident. Charlie dpt hidup tp adik die x. Die rse bsalah sbb die adik die xde. Sblum excident, Charlie pernah janji ngan adik die utk ajar die main besbol dkt satu tmpat near cemetary setiap ptg. After excident, Charlie pg situ sbb teringat. Tapi die ternampak adik die kat ctu. Rupe2nye die bole nmpak roh adik die and roh org2 yg dah xde. So, tiap2 ptg, mesti Charlie akan pg situ and main besbol ngan adik die.

Aku rse jln cite die sgt sedih. Die rse bertanggungjawab atas ape yg jd kat adk die. Die tggl kan impian die nak masuk college sbb promise die dgn adik die. Aku rse die pnye pengorbanan tu sgt menyentuh hati lah.

Dlm hidup ni, mungkin kt akan and terpaksa buat ape yg kt xnk or kite rse nak buat tp sbb ade perkara lain yg menyekat. Mcm Charlie, die kne pilih, nak selamat kan orang yang nyata or terus jumpe adik die yang dah xde. Pilihan yg de buat mmg menyakitkan, tp itu la bg aku ianye strength. Die ambil peluang tu.

Kite xkn tau ape yg jadi esok or lusa or bila2 aje. Kdg2 tu tibe2 je kt bole hilang seseorang tu. Kalau kt bole hadapi, bgus lah, tapi kalau jd mcm Charlie? Xnak lepaskan memory tu mcm mne?

Sebab tu kalau kt syg kan sape2, make sure jgn sia2 kan mase selagi die ade. Perkara yang kecik2 tu sebenanye lagi penting.

Ape2 aje yg jadi msti ade sebab, dan ape2 yg kt buat mesti akan ade consequences and result. Jgn la rse kt ni xberbaloi utk dpt second chance. Tapi mestilah kt bole blajar drpd kesilapan tu.

Sam: I'm okay Charlie. I'd give anything for you to see me. What I've become, but no one ever gets to see what could have been.

Charlie: Sorry I had to break our deal.

Sam: It was time. It's beyond anything we ever imagined Charlie.

Charlie: I hurt as bad as the day you died.

Sam: You hurt because you're alive.

Charlie: We'll always be brothers.

Sam: Promise, everyday, come rain or shine, through Hell or high water?

Charlie: ...I promise.

(This movie was adapted from a novel - The Death and Life of Charlie St. Cloud by Ben Sherwood)

Lost-Cause

"Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backward."

― E.E. Cummings

Do you guys believe in second chances? Whether you did something you're not proud of, or whether you feel guilty about something bad that happened because of you. And when you've lost someone, you feel like you don't deserve another chance at life when he didn't. And you're just too afraid to look back at them. To remember them.

When everybody else is thinking that you've been given a second chance, you're thinking; why me? Why was I - of all people out there - is given a second chance? What makes me so special? Why do I have to live and why does he have to die?

To believe in something is some kind of a push for us. It gives a reason to live. But when you have lost that belief, you wish to hold on to whatever's left of your memories.

You're afraid to go out. Afraid to face the world and afraid to lose your memories. But the fact is, you don't want them to think you're forgetting them. You can feel them disappearing slowly. You've made a promise, you won't let go. You want to keep that promise. But you're disappearing too.

There's no such thing as a lost-cause. Whatever you do, will always mean something. No matter how small it is, and no matter how impossible it may seem. There must be a reason behind everything.

You just have to figure it out yourself.

Entry Tak Berperasaan

Salam all.

Susah btol aku nk cari idea nk merepek pasal ape. Slalu tu ade je bende. Klu xmengenangkan hard disk aku yg buat hal ttibe xboleh nak detect, mmg aku xde kat cni, sbb aku msti tgh sibuk tgk movie.

Actually ade la perasaan, iaitu perasaan boring. So entry ni smpi cni saje. See ya!

Buku-Kucing

Cuba lihat apa yang xkena dlm gmbar disebelah ini??? Ade satu yg xsepatutnye berada dlm kumpulan buku2 itu. Apekah die??

Hahaha, aku tpaksa bwk klua buku2 tuh sbb nak bg kucing high class (konon) nih dok ctu...ade ke patot?

Ini kucing sy lepas Tia, Fluffy. She's a Persian tapi dr Malaysia la bkn dari Parsi.haha. Die sgt mengade2...that's why lah sy ikot je ape die ndak smpai kluarkan buku2 tuh...

Owh, btw, aku kemas2 brg dlm bilik rupe2nye bnyk gak buku2 aku yer...haha. Aku kemas pnye kemas pastu aku kumpul sumer buku ltak dlm rak. Aku pnye dream nak ade satu library dlm umah...haha. Tapi wat mase nih, takat rak kecik ni je lah dulu. Berangan biar sampai ke bulan!

p/s: Aku suke smpan buku lah...tapi aku xbape nak ske membaca nyer...hahaha...

Something More

Salam all.

Aku ni jenis yg suka buat sesuatu yg baru. Tapi kan, most of the time, ape yg aku nak buat tu mesti xdpt buat. Bkn xdpt, more to malas or ade la situasi yg menghalang. Contoh nye skang, aku tgh blajar main keyboard. Satu je aku nak cakap, SUSAH! Aku dok nengok org tekan2 jer mcm sng. Wekk, sng utk drg la yg da mmg blaja dari dulu. Lainlah kalau aku ni genius music, dengar je bole trus ikut. Try2 pon still mcm hape ntah bunyi yg klua dr keyboard tuh...haha..

Xpe, aku akan terus try. Dpt main lagu with basic keys pon jdklah kan??? hehe...

Lagi satu aku jeles bebeno nengok org yg post video wat cover nyanyi lagu org smbil main musical instruments. Pandai nye drg nih...jeles sgguh! Aku pon igt nak wat tp xnk nyanyi nak merapu...boley? Bole feymes cam Cikgu Shida kan...dpt die blakon..rezki2.

Tapi, ade lagi tapi, mesti org kt aku gile...haha...Buat Vlog ar cam best...pastu ko cite pasal diri ko boring giler derr...sendiri mau pikir lah, lainlah kalau aku ni mmg dah feymes, bleh la wat kan?

Dah tu...aku rse baik start satu2. Ni sumer ko nak!

Aku da ptot tdo ni sbenanye, tp sbb cuti pnye pasal, ni la jd. Ok, adios.

P/s: klu jd aku wat Vlog jadah tuh, aku post tmpat lain la, bkn utube..naya je kang..haha..

We All Say Goodbye

Have you guys ever felt like you have given someone a very hard time? Like you just do whatever it is that you want and hate it when they ask questions about why you do things. And you're always questioning things. Why is it happening to you and why are you like this. Why can't things just be so much easier for you. Why is it that everybody else's lives is full of ups and yours are always down.

Have you ever notice that people change when things and circumstances changed. You stop someone from caring about someone else. You think they're yours forever. How do you know you're actually care for someone or you're afraid you might just lose them because you're afraid to be alone. Am I the same person I was 5 years ago? 10 years ago? How can we love when we're afraid to fall?

It doesn't matter to me. I know, someone is out there for me. Who will love me and care for me regardless of anything. Someone who will make me unafraid to fall.

But in a relationship, you just have to understand and understand well that there will, someday be a goodbye. You have to realize that at the beginning. Before you even start anything. When the time comes, you just have to be ready and let it happen. And then will there be another hello.

You don't have to make excuses or find a reason to leave. It's something everybody has to say-someday. You don't have to ask the person you care about if they are going to be happy without you or not. Because if you have given all you got for them...you'll know.

We can't stop someone from leaving. No matter how much you want to. Don't cry because it ended, but smiled because it happened. That's how life should be.

You'll be okay. Yes, you will. Because you know it's there, and it will always be there. I am okay. If you want to leave, I'll be okay. You come, and you go. Along the way, you've given me so much. You've taught me a lot of things. And I know it in my heart that what you gave to me is everything that you have, and what I have given you is everything that I have. That is more than enough.

Friendship, Love, Family, Strangers....we all say goodbye. But some will say, I'll see you again...someday. Nothing ever actually ends...

Quote

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”

― Ralph Waldo Emerson