Dream Guy

Assalamualaikum everyone~~

Aku da delete about 5 posts. Serabut ah bile tgk. Baik delete jer. Tak suka lah emo2 ni. :)

So, kelmarin aku sibuk la google2 action and horror movies yg best utk ditonton la kan. Then aku terjumpe la cite ni, Midnight Meat Train, cite horror lah kan, tgk tajuk pun. Tgk main actor die Bradley Cooper. Seems legit. Tapi aku tak tgk pun, sakit jiwa baca komen manusia2 kat youtube time aku cari trailer die. Bajet mcm pengarah hebat sgt, cuba ko try buat satu filem, macam terer sgt nak kritik. Adeh~

Ok, dah menyimpang. Aku bukan nk cite pasal movie tuh, tapi pasal mimpi aku mlm tadi. Wahaha, lawak gile...so apehal aku mention movie tuh? Sbb main actor dlm mimpi aku Bradley Cooper lah jugak. Hahaha.. Hangpa jgn nak gelak2 sgt eh. Bukan nye aku nak perasan, dah die nak berlakon dlm mimpi aku nak wat camno. Kikiki~~

Dah nama pun mimpi, mmg bnyk yg tak masuk akal lah. Tapi plot die cenggini. Aku ngan srg girl ni, baru kenal asenye, kluar hangout, and nak pg double date. Aku al kisahnye tak kenal sape date tuh. So kitorang jalan2 satu mall tuh nk cari tmpat tu. Tgh aku jalan2 nmpak pulak kawan aku si Hafiz Kamarulzaman! Apehal nyibuk dlm mimpi aku ni...hah! Buat cameo pulak....cis. Tp takat nmpak jelah, die takde line dlm tuh..haha.

Tgh jalan2 nk pg tmpat makan tuh, aku terus nmpak Bradley Cooper! Adeh, mak aii, hensem kot. Aku dlm hati best gile klu die blind date tuh. haha. Tgk2 mmg die pun! and ade lagi srg guy, aku dapat rasekan die nerd, pakai spek. So basically, 2 guys and 2 girls la. Dah jumpe ktrg duduk la kt tmpat mkn tuh. Aku tak dapat nk pastikan ktrg ckp Melayu ke Omputih..haha. Tapi klaka klu Bradley Cooper ckp Melayu.. ngahaha!

Tgh cakap2 tuh, aku and the girl tu nak pg sembahyang. Alhamdulillah, still igt lagi even dalam mimpi.heh. So ktrg pun pg lah. Time jalan nak pg surau, aku tnye girl tu nama die ape, die ckp Sarah. Ntah sape jadah Sarah, aku tak kenal dlm mimpi, mahupun diluar.haha. Pastu die tnye umur aku, aku tnye la rase2 bape? Die ckp aku umur 20 tahun. Hahahaha....whoever you are Sarah, thanks! Aku dah 24 yer. Dapat muda 4 tahun tuh. Kikiki~~

So, smpai kat surau ktrg pun sembahyang lah. And then....tamat. Hahaha...tak best gile ending cenggitu. Dah la conversation dgn Bradley Cooper langsung aku tak igt!! Sabar aje lah. T_T


Kesian kat nerd tu, dah la tak igt rupe die cmne, nama pun taktau.heh..
Agak2 ade sequel x? Klu ade aku tnye nama die yer. hahahaha.... perasan ya ampun!~

Pada yg tak kenal sape Bradley Cooper, ni ha. This is how he looked like dlm mimpi aku. Sebijik! Hensom tak hensom...weh. Aku siap bole igt lg cmne feelings mse nmpak die tuh. :)

p/s: asenye nmpak awk jugak wahai onnie...time dlm surau.haha. Cameo gak yer. :P

I.A

Supernatural

Gambar sekedar hiasan

Assalamualaikum hamba2 Allah yang dikasihi sekalian! Jawab dulu sbelum baca.

Lame aku tak merepek dlm blog ni yer. Last aku tinggalkan, ade a little bit issue yg arise. Yelah, tgk entries2 aku pun bole teka kan? Takmo la pikir pasal the past, let's focus on what's right here, right now.
For this entry, I got a very supernatural story to tell you guys.

Sebelum pape, aku nk remind, ni bukan nak cite pasal tv show omputih tu yer. Ni cite aku. So peminat2 Supernatural, blah skang. Dgn aku2 sekali la tuh..haha

Cut the story short, malas nak pjg2. Aku tau aku makin malas. Al kisahnye, hari tu, hari ape? hari tu lah, hari ap ntah, aku dah tak igt. Dan dgn sbb aku pemalas maka aku malas nak igt balik. Hari itu, time tgh malam, time aku dah siap2 nak tido dan bole kata lagi sket nak masuk alam mimpi, ttibe blackout! Tanpa apa2 warning pun. Yelah, takkan la ade org nak announce pulak nak blackout kot..adoii...

So, sume org pun cuak lah...abang aku, adik laki aku la, aku steady jer. Dah cari tocelait, pasang lilin, dok balik dalam bilik. Igt nak smbung tido, tp panas. Itu tak kisah lagi, yg aku tak paham, apsal abg ngan adik aku dok dlm blik aku??? Takut much? Hahaha... drg tak abes2 "Wohh, zombie apocalypse!!!" buahaha...

Zombie apocalypse la sgt! Kalau betul2, drg dulu yg lari lintang pukang. Namenye laki drg tuh, tapi penakut ya amat. Aku tak tipu. So ok lah, tgh lepak2 tunggu letrik dtg balik, aku amek hanpon, main snap2 dlm gelap. Ok, part nih, sape yg bace entry ni, for sure akan tampar aku laju2. Tak serik2 lagi ambik gmba dlm gelap. hahaa..

Tapi aku guna phone aku yg megapixel pun tak bape nak gempak, so aku tak kisah la. Tapi pastu abang aku ngan adik aku pun lawan2 snap gmba guna hanpon masing2. Aku nmpak abg aku start snap tuh, aku pun ape lagi "Abg, ko baik tak pyah snap dlm gelap2 nih, hanpon ko tuh...." Aku tak abeskan ayat, die phm sendiri lah. "Ko jahat kan nak takutkan aku." Die balas gitu kat aku. So unmanly!!

Since die punye phone pnah tertangkap sesuatu yg tak sepatotnye, aku warning la awal2. Yelah, hanpon pun MP beso. Mane taknye. Tapi seperti biasa, dlm kejadian lepas pun die tak dgar ckp ibu, apatah lagi yg aku ni kan? Die still snap lagi. Gmba ktrg 3 org. Aku pun pose jelah.

Dah lepas snap tu, abg aku bg aku hanpon die. Tapi tak cakap ape2. Aku tgk jelah. Lama aku pgg, tp aku nmpak ktrg 3 org jelah. Obviously abg aku nmpak 4 org. Hahahaa...

Pastu baru die tunjuk, kat mane 'orang' ke4 tuh..dkt badan die...hahaha...bapak scary doe!!! Tapi aku taktau nape aku gelak gile time tuh. Mostly sbb aku dah warning die tapi still jadi, hahaha....itu yg lawak.
"Aku dah cakap, jgn amek gmba, hanpon ko tu lain skettt...haha" aku dok ketawa kat die.. Adik jantan aku pi mana? Hahaha, naik atas katil aku. Bile mase die naik pun aku tak pasan. Nampak tak penakut die?

Ape yg ade dlm gmba tuh?? Last time dapat tgkap perempuan, this time, lelaki pulak. Macam org tua, yg dah jd mayat...mcam zombie pun ade...siyes. Jgn gelak! Tapi die tak tgk camera this time.

Kali ni, abang aku tak delete gmba tuh. Nasib baik lah. Maybe sbb tak jelas sgt mcm yg 1st time tuh. Gmba die mane? Haha, aku tak bole letak sini, sbb aku tak pakai tudung dan abang aku gerenti duku pale aku kalau die tau. Kenape? Hahahahaha....Aku siyes tau. Bukan cite tipu, even though aku banyak "hahaha" kat sini. Ngeh.

Ah, shoot! terpanjang pulak citer nih. Haha..

I.A

Daddy's Day

Salam. 

Just want to share with you guys a poem written by Cheryl Costello-Forshey entitled Daddy's Day. Never thought I could cry just by reading a poem...this is beautiful & heartbreaking.

Her hair was up in a ponytail
Her favourite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy's Day at school
And she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?"
She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one"
Another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offened her,
As she smiled up at her mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.
"My daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I'm not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy's always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart."
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much,
He's my shining star.
And if he could he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.
You see he was a fireman
And died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It's like he never went away."
And then she closes her eyes,
And saw him there that day.
And to her mother's amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they say before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me Daddy."
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far

Did you cry?

I.A

A Knock of Truth

Assalamualaikum.

This was written by my uncle on our family's FB page. I felt sad and start to ponder upon the truth in his words. So then I felt an impelling desire to share it here. I hope we can all benefit from it.

Persoalan: adakah kebaikan boleh berjalan seiring dengan kebathilan, tidak kira lah berapa nisbahnya, samada 80:20 atau 99:1. Jawapannya tidak boleh, tapi sempurnakah kita? Yang pasti kita tidak maksum & tidak sunyi dr melakukan kesilapan samada disengajakan atau di luar pengetahuan. Lalu sebagai seorg muslim, teguran di atas apa shj kesilapan adalah suatu rahmat Allah drp ianya berterusan tanpa teguran & nasihat. Adakah bila kita sentiasa berbuat baik, lalu bila kita melakukan kesilapan kita tidak layak diberi teguran. Sedangkan Rasulullah saw junjungan besar sendiri pernah ditegur Allah swt. Angka 20 sebenarnya terlalu besar, sepatutnya walaupun sebesar zarah kesilapan kita, teguran yg diberi tiada nilaian yg dapat diberi. 

Cuba terus bertahan, tp kalau terus-terusan mengguris hati & perasaan insan lain, yg seolah-olah org lain tiada hati & perasaan, maka cukuplah setakat ini. Kalau berpanjangan dipaparkan ketidakpuasan hati di khalayak, kalau merasakan insan-insan yg paling menyayangi tidak diperlukan malah seolah-olah tiada nilaiannya lagi maka cukuplah sampai di titik ini...tiada lagi lah suara teguran dari insan ini.....

Ada kebenaran dalam kata2 ni. Terasa malu sebentar dengan diri sendiri. Kadang2 aku pun begitu jugak. Mengutuk, mengata orang yg aku kenal ataupun tidak ke public utk tontonan orang lain. Tanpa mengambil kira perasaan mereka atau merendah2 kan mereka seolah2 mereka tidak pernah melakukan kebaikan kepada aku. Tak kira lah sama ada mereka tahu ataupun tidak. Sebagai manusia aku tak patut buat macam tu. Akan berusaha untuk jadi lebih baik. Moga Allah ada disisi. Amin.

I.A

The one that's missing

Salam.

Kadang2 aku perasan aku sgt suka observe orang. Cara org bawak diri, cara bercakap, cara pandang, cara senyum, riak muka, or kalau org tu happy-go-lucky or grumpy. Seronok actually. Aku pun suka tgk family ramai2 together happy2. Ade mak, ayah, abang, kakak, adik; cukup sumer. Sebab bile aku tgk, aku teringat balik time family ktrg same2, way back. Rindu rase nak gelak2 and play around dgn abah. Even though he's still around but, well, the fact that ktrg no longer duduk same2 kind of makes it hard. Heheh..

Believe it or not, as strict as he was, there was also a soft spot inside. Walaupun byk sad stuff yg aku igt, well more like terpaksa igt sbb memory tu tetap ade kat kepala otak ni. Tapi, aku try jgak igt bende2 yang happy. It makes me happy.

Aku tau mcm mne rase hilang sume tu. That's why bile aku tgk org lain dgn ayah drg, terubat gak lah rindu aku. Mostly aku suka tgk kawan aku dgn ayah die. So sweet jer, jumpe je, hug each other, ketawa sama2, usik2 each other, macam kawan2. Of course, aku sgt jealous. Okay, teramat jealous. That's why kalau aku nmpak drg with each other, aku xleh tgk lelame, kne alihkan pandangan, sbb aku takut ternangis pulakkk, haha...ntah pape ntah.

Of couse la aku pun try dekat dgn abah jugak. Try and fix things between us all. Tapi tu lah...bila da besar panjang ni, everything changes.

The other day, mase pg cari barang dinner, kawan2 guys aku ttibe buat lawak nak pggil mak aku ibu..haha. beselah perangai mcm budak. Ttibe Kay masuk bab ayah pulak, nak pggil ape. Aku pun dah rase awkward, macam mne nak jawab ni. Aku diam jelah. And aku tak perasan rupenye kawan aku Atie suruh die senyap. Aku pun pelik Kay ttibe senyap knape. But aku biar je lah. Balik tu die bgtahu, aku tnye nape die soh Kay senyap. Die kt takut aku sedih... Erm, thanks a lot Onnie... You always had my back when I needed you. You didn't have to do that, but you did. You made me want to cry...hehe...

I still remember, the first time I told you about my family, you cried so bad. I didn't expect you to. Terkejut sy time tu...hehe. I never really thank you for understanding me. So thank you Onnie.

Tapi, kalau nak banding kan hidup aku ni, orang lain ade lagi susah. I'm glad God gave me this kind of life. Mane tahu, mungkin kalau hidup aku lain, aku jadi budak nakal ke, or terlebih social ke kan? Sume ade hikmah nye. Lagipun kt kne lah susah2 dulu senang2 kemudian..right?

I.A

Reflection

Salam.

Pergh..aku bace balik entry sebelum ni aku sendiri dpt goosebumps. Macam mne aku bole tulis bende2 tuh. Aku bukan pemarah orgnye, aku pacifist. Heh...

Ase lega mmg lega, tapi aku rase lain. That's not me. I know. But, the feelings have got to go somewhere right? What better place than here. Nak cakap ngan dorang aku rase tak perlu. Sbb perkara ini terlalu kecik.
So, again, I just better keep it to myself. Well, tak jugak, aku tulis kat sini kan?

Aku sebenanye tak paham ape yg aku rase skang. Sedih ade, happy pun ade, bercampur sumer. Tapi yang aku sure, aku rase lonely sgt2. Mula lah aku rase rindu nak balik study UIA. At least kat sane aku ade kawan2. Bole lupe sume sunyi. Tapi, skang aku kene fokus dgn present time.

I.A

Mana 1 daun limau?

Huduh gile mamat ni...ngahaha!

Lalu sebelah dapur, mama pangil "Iya, tolong amekkan daun limau kat luar jap..satu jer" sambil menghunuskan pisau kepadaku. Aku pun capai pisau sambil dlm otak pikir, daun limau gimana rupanya sih? 

"Ma, iya tak pakai spek, nmpak ke ni.." Aku memberi alasan yang agak munasabah ketika itu. Tapi aku menapak juga ke beranda. Adik lelaki aku Shah ikut kat belakang. Sampai disana aku monolog, "Mane satu daun limau nih...?" Memang aku tak nampak pun sbb tak pakai spek ~ macam lah aku nampak kalau pakai pun kan..haha...daun limau tak kenal...ceh..

Shah dengan konfiden tunjuk ke arah 'daun limau' tersebut, "Tu ha daun limau." Kuang ajar. Aku tau lah. Aku pun tunduk nak amek. Tiba2 kami dikejutkan oleh mama didapur (dapur tembus ke beranda), "Bukan itu la, itu ha kat ujung!" Aku terkesimat dan Shah terkulat-kulat. "Ha, ko ni, kan aku da kata, salah la!" Nampak tak permainannye? Konon nak cover.ngahaha.. Aku ambik daun limau yg sebenar hulur kat mama.

"Betullah aku tunjuk tadi." Shah masih tidak puas hati. "Salah, bukan ni, yg tu lah." Aku ter excited jawab sampai pitch jadi tinggi. Aku pandang ke bawah, ade 2 org hamba Allah sedang lalu. Sungguh tak kene timing.

"Tengok kau ni, kot ye pun xyah la jerit tgk org tu dah nmpak. Malu sioot.." Aku pula disalahkannye. "Engkau lah, sape suruh salah." Aku membela diri smbil lari kedalam. "Engkau la.." Kedengaran Shah bersuara sambil gelak macam kerang busuk.

Nasib baik gak aku tak pakai spek, so tak nampak la reaksi 2 org makhluk Allah yg salah timing tu. Kurang sket malu aku. Ngahaha!!

IA