If I had the opportunity, I guess there's a lot of things I want to say to myself. Here goes:
Dear my 13 year old self,
It's been a while. How are you? Things are probably not too well for you right now. I remember at school we would always get bullied by other kids because we were different. I remember one time, we got sprayed by a fire hose by someone for no apparent reason. And when one of our classmate asked us to leave the class just because we didn't wear the 'tudung'. When you come home, things aren't better. It must be hard on you now isn't it?
It's all right to cry. You'll feel a lot better. Actually, growing up, that's the only thing that would make us strong. So go ahead.
Everything that I'm about to tell you is going to be hard to accept but you have to. I should tell you this, if you think you life is bad now, it's not going to get better when you're in high school. But no worries, that's why I'm here. You got to stop being afraid of everything. Whatever you want to do, whatever you want to say, just do it! Don't stop for other people, cause they won't stop for you.
Be sure to make a lot of friends. I mean real friends. There will be those people who would take advantage of your innocence and you should never let them. Fix your appearance a bit yeah, because well, I'm sure you'd understand. Be confident like the way you are now. Talk to strangers, talk to boys! Don't be scared of them, they're just normal people.
At home, just be yourself. Talk to mum often. And dad too. Cherish every moment you have with him because one day, you won't be able to get a taste of that when you want to. You should pay a very close attention to our little brother. He wont be strong as you are. Make sure he doesn't get lost in the battle.
Other than that, you shouldn't worry about anything else. You're 23 now and you're in one of the best university in Malaysia (I won't tell you, you should see for yourself). Your life turned out great despite of everything. You know why? Because you made it different. After high school, you decided to change. You didn't want to be an outcast any more. You started to mingle around, and we have a lot of friends! Just a reminder, when you get to main campus, you'll meet one new person. This person, no matter what she does to you, don't let her make you weak! And don't ever cry for her! But she's still a friend to us.
Keep helping other people regardless how hard it is. Keep smiling because that's how people remember us. Don't be too innocent, wait, no I take that back...it's also one of the reasons why you're liked by others, so just stay that way.
You wouldn't believe this, but you finally able to talk to guys! As matter of fact they're among you best friends now. They love to bully you too but it's a good kind of bully. I know, it's hard to understand but you'll see. Trust me.
At home, it's getting better, but like I said, keep an eye on our little brother. I guess that's all I have to tell you. Everything will turn out fine. Don't worry too much. Just be brave. I'll see you soon.
With love, your 23 year old self.
IA
It's all right to cry. You'll feel a lot better. Actually, growing up, that's the only thing that would make us strong. So go ahead.
Everything that I'm about to tell you is going to be hard to accept but you have to. I should tell you this, if you think you life is bad now, it's not going to get better when you're in high school. But no worries, that's why I'm here. You got to stop being afraid of everything. Whatever you want to do, whatever you want to say, just do it! Don't stop for other people, cause they won't stop for you.
Be sure to make a lot of friends. I mean real friends. There will be those people who would take advantage of your innocence and you should never let them. Fix your appearance a bit yeah, because well, I'm sure you'd understand. Be confident like the way you are now. Talk to strangers, talk to boys! Don't be scared of them, they're just normal people.
At home, just be yourself. Talk to mum often. And dad too. Cherish every moment you have with him because one day, you won't be able to get a taste of that when you want to. You should pay a very close attention to our little brother. He wont be strong as you are. Make sure he doesn't get lost in the battle.
Other than that, you shouldn't worry about anything else. You're 23 now and you're in one of the best university in Malaysia (I won't tell you, you should see for yourself). Your life turned out great despite of everything. You know why? Because you made it different. After high school, you decided to change. You didn't want to be an outcast any more. You started to mingle around, and we have a lot of friends! Just a reminder, when you get to main campus, you'll meet one new person. This person, no matter what she does to you, don't let her make you weak! And don't ever cry for her! But she's still a friend to us.
Keep helping other people regardless how hard it is. Keep smiling because that's how people remember us. Don't be too innocent, wait, no I take that back...it's also one of the reasons why you're liked by others, so just stay that way.
You wouldn't believe this, but you finally able to talk to guys! As matter of fact they're among you best friends now. They love to bully you too but it's a good kind of bully. I know, it's hard to understand but you'll see. Trust me.
At home, it's getting better, but like I said, keep an eye on our little brother. I guess that's all I have to tell you. Everything will turn out fine. Don't worry too much. Just be brave. I'll see you soon.
With love, your 23 year old self.
IA
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