Never Too Old

Somebody asked me to write about my favourite toys to play with. I frowned upon seeing the topic since I realized, I haven't had much thought about the stuff. I tried to remember some of the toys I used to play with but can't think of any. So I guess there's no story to tell then. But, since I'm already half way I might as well just tell another story. Still about toys, but not about my favourite toys. It's kind of actually the opposite (I know, how can you not like toys?).

Well, first and foremost, it might seem a little weird not having any favourite toys. Actually, I didn't have much toys to begin with. But there was one particular toy that I have come to hate (and became one of my top ten most scary things). It was a doll.

Now how can you hate dolls? Especially one that was wearing red clothes, brown hair with stunning blue eyes to top it off. It just doesn't make any sense.

This doll is all but adorable. Thanks to the film Child's Play. The doll really crept me out. The size were similar, the face, the feet, that scary looking eyes. Ughh! I can still remember how my brother and I hid under the chair because my babysitter decided that it'd be fun to watch the film with 2 scared children. Okay so it wasn't really their fault. My brother was the one who wanted to see it to scare me. But he ended up being scared as well.

Anyhow, because of the film, I ended up hating the doll. I couldn't look at its face cause I'd be imagining him as Chucky. The doll even had eyelids so whenever we shook it, they'd move. That was the scariest part. I had had trouble sleeping at night because of this doll. So when I got the opportunity, I got rid of it with no second thoughts.

And because of that doll, I've developed a phobia for dolls. Especially the ones that look like babies. I guess you're never too old to be scared of something. So growing up, my most hated toy was a doll.

P/s: okay, aku reluctant nk letak gmba tu sebenarnye sbb gila bapak scary budus! 

I.A

The most awkward moment of my teenage years

Wow, what an awkward question there. I had one too many awkward moments back when I was a teenager (not that I am that old now, just saying). Back in high school, I was quiet a shy girl (still am). I knew a lot of people but they weren't exactly who you'd call as friends. I was alone and there was like this one huge wall I put in front of myself and no one was strong enough to break it.

My low self esteem and zero confidence didn't exactly help either.

First, I should warn you, nothing exciting will come out of this story. It's plain and simple. It's boring. Read at your own discretion.

So there was I, just an ordinary girl with no super powers or special abilities to help me get through the day. In class, I sit alone, do everything alone (I know, loser!). When guys talked to me, I shivered like literally. Why? I have no idea!

When I was 17, there was this one guy who was different than others. He was very funny and I was sort of in a trance when he talks (okay, maybe I exaggerate there a little bit). The weird thing was, I was different with him. I still shivered but I could talk to him..(I have no idea what I'm writing about, but you get the idea).

So where was the awkwardness? Don't worry it's coming to you.

In class, he sat right in front of me. So we talked a lot with each other. But there was something else he liked to do when we were in class. He liked to sing to me. Loudly!

Yes. he sang to me loudly. The whole class could hear him. All eyes was on me the whole time! Some had evil smiles on their faces and others couldn't help but giggled. It was absolutely embarrassing! And yes, it was very awkward. He sang to me every class. Why wouldn't I be. All I could do was smiled shyly and embarrassingly and now and again even begging him to stop.

But, the whole drama didn't last long. He got an offer to go to a boarding school. Soon he was gone. On his last day at school, he tried to take a picture of me. But I looked away. I know, why hah..? I never saw him again...though I think he's one of my friends on Facebook..lol.

So that was the most awkward yet the most memorable moment of my teenage years. Told ya my story wasn't that interesting.

IA

Dear my 13 year old self...

That'd be nice. To be able to tell your 13 year old self about the life lessons you've already experienced. I've thought about it all the time. What if I could go back? What would I change about myself?

If I had the opportunity, I guess there's a lot of things I want to say to myself. Here goes:

Dear my 13 year old self,

It's been a while. How are you? Things are probably not too well for you right now. I remember at school we would always get bullied by other kids because we were different. I remember one time, we got sprayed by a fire hose by someone for no apparent reason. And when one of our classmate asked us to leave the class just because we didn't wear the 'tudung'. When you come home, things aren't better. It must be hard on you now isn't it?

It's all right to cry. You'll feel a lot better. Actually, growing up, that's the only thing that would make us strong. So go ahead.

Everything that I'm about to tell you is going to be hard to accept but you have to. I should tell you this, if you think you life is bad now, it's not going to get better when you're in high school. But no worries, that's why I'm here. You got to stop being afraid of everything. Whatever you want to do, whatever you want to say, just do it! Don't stop for other people, cause they won't stop for you.

Be sure to make a lot of friends. I mean real friends. There will be those people who would take advantage of your innocence and you should never let them. Fix your appearance a bit yeah, because well, I'm sure you'd understand. Be confident like the way you are now. Talk to strangers, talk to boys! Don't be scared of them, they're just normal people.

At home, just be yourself. Talk to mum often. And dad too. Cherish every moment you have with him because one day, you won't be able to get a taste of that when you want to. You should pay a very close attention to our little brother. He wont be strong as you are. Make sure he doesn't get lost in the battle.

Other than that, you shouldn't worry about anything else. You're 23 now and you're in one of the best university in Malaysia (I won't tell you, you should see for yourself). Your life turned out great despite of everything. You know why? Because you made it different. After high school, you decided to change. You didn't want to be an outcast any more. You started to mingle around, and we have a lot of friends! Just a reminder, when you get to main campus, you'll meet one new person. This person, no matter what she does to you, don't let her make you weak! And don't ever cry for her! But she's still a friend to us.

Keep helping other people regardless how hard it is. Keep smiling because that's how people remember us. Don't be too innocent, wait, no I take that back...it's also one of the reasons why you're liked by others, so just stay that way.

You wouldn't believe this, but you finally able to talk to guys! As matter of fact they're among you best friends now. They love to bully you too but it's a good kind of bully. I know, it's hard to understand but you'll see. Trust me.

At home, it's getting better, but like I said, keep an eye on our little brother. I guess that's all I have to tell you. Everything will turn out fine. Don't worry too much. Just be brave. I'll see you soon.

With love, your 23 year old self.

IA

Miss Brain

Okay, lepas tengok cerita Mr. Brain, ttibe aku jadi obses dengan pisang how the brain works and whether I am a right brained person of a left brained person. Google punye google, aku jumpe site yang ade quiz unuk determine that. So resultnye aku adalah right-brained. Basically, aku rase ade influence jugak with the fact yang aku ni left-handed.

• You probably get bored during long lectures and prefer to take classes with a lot of freedom of movement and thought. 
• You like to write stories and even tell stories about your funny experiences. You might be a little suspicious of other people's motives sometimes, but that's only because you can usually tell whenever someone is lying or when they're up to no good. 
• You are a little on the dreamy side--or a lot. You plan books or movie plots but you don't always follow through on things you think about. You should work on that. You are fun and spontaneous, and probably active in sports or clubs. 
• Your feelings run deep, and it shows. You have strong instincts, and you solve problems on hunches and feelings. You are artistic in some way. You can believe in things based on experience, without seeing scientific proof. 

Nak try? Click here.

Basically, siapa yang right brain tuh, ni la dia in short. Aku memang suka semua ni, except sports.

• Prefer rock music
• Right brain controls left side of body
• Prefer visual instructions with examples
• Good at sports
• Good at art
• Follow Eastern thought*
• Cat lovers
• Enjoy clowning around
• Can be hypnotized
• Like to read fantasy and mystery stories
• Can listen to music or TV while studying
• Like to write fiction
• Prefer group
• Fun to dream about things that will probably never happen
• Enjoy making up own drawings and images
• Good at geometry
• Like organizing things to show relation
• Can memorize music
• Occasionally absentminded
• Like to act out stories
• Enjoy interacting affectively with others
• Think better when lying down
• Become restless during long verbal explanations
• Enjoy creative storytelling
• Prefer to learn through free exploration
• Good at recalling spatial imagery
• Read for main details
• Skilled in showing relationships between ideas
• Preference for summarizing over outlining
• Solve problems intuitively
• Very Spontaneous and unpredictable
• Dreamer
• philosophical

Aku dapat dari sini.

The Weird Lecturer

Salam kau orang.

Bace tajuk entry ni mesti dah bole agak cite aku pasal ape. Ok, so takyah la citer.

Acah mak enon. Aku sebenarnye tgh berkira-kira nak cite ke tak, nak cite ke tak. Sebab aku ade polisi untuk sape subjek entry blog aku ni. Yang menyakitkan hati, yang bongok, yang pandai, yang hensem, yang cantik yang kelako dan yang pelik2 memang patut berbangga la. Mesti akan dapat spot dalam blog ni.

Subjek aku yang ni masuk kategori pelik dan menyakitkan hati. Tapi sebab aku berkira-kira tu sbb die ni sangat pelik sampai maybe aku tak patut cerita. Dan of cos la, die lecturer. Aku macam bakal mengumpat die pulak. Tapi alang2 dah separuh jalan, aku teruskan jelah. But no real names will be mention.

So die ni lecturer Usul Fiqh. Die bole dikatakan peramah gak la but in a very absolutely creepy way. A foreigner. Aku tak tahan ngan die sbb kalau ade student lambat datang i.e lepas die masuk, reaksi die "Owh, you're very early today." Of cos la perli kan. Even tho memang student wajar la dtg awl, but cara die tegur tuh...

Next, die tak suka orang bercakap dalam kelas die, kalau dia nampak die akan emo. Emo skit2 xpe lah, ni emo banyak kot. Masalahnye ktrg cakap pun pasal ape yang die ajar, tapi die still xpeduli. Die mmg sangat anti ngan kitorang. Memang targetnye adalah kitorang. Aku taktau la ape masalah die ngan kawan aku, tiap2 kali kitorang bcakap, die akan marah. Orang lain bcakap??? Why!!

Aritu, kawan aku tu bercakap dgn kawan aku lagi sorang, aku kat tgh. Takde la bcakap pun, die angguk je pun. Lecturer tu terus soh die dok tempat lain! Ari ahad aritu pun same. Ape lagi emo la kawan aku tu. Lecturer tu pun emo sampai pergi sepak marker yang takle guna. Ape die igt bola ke??? Da la kene orang pulak tuh. Suka hati die jer.

Dikatakan yang die suka aku (bluerrk!). That's why sape2 mcm gggu aku time kelas die akan emo. Aku tak suka idea tu. Tapi ianya terjadi kerana lecturer tu msg aku kat phone cakap nak add aku kat fb. Jadah!! Memang aku tak approve lah! Takut sioot! Time dalam kelas, aku akan selalu dipanggil. Why ah? Ades.

Ade lagi la bende2 yang pelik die buat, perli situ perli sane. My God, nasib baik dah nak abes sem. Huh!

P/s: Anger aku kurang sket, kepala aku kelain kot...

IA

Where Have I Been?

Salam manusia semua.

Wahh..memang lame aku tak update blog nih. Maybe sbb aku focus sgt kat blog lagi satu kot. Aku mmg susah nak buat dua kerja dalam satu masa so gomenasai!

Disebalik semua itu, aku juga sedang giat membuat assignment Usul Fiqh dan preparation untuk presentation filem A Walk to Remember..(actually tak buat ape pun lagi). So, ke-busy-an aku melampaui kepala batas. Ahad aritu, aku g main bowling. Tipu, bukan aku main, orang lain yang main, aku tengok aje.

Arini cuti, so dapat gak aku curi time nak buat entry ni. Aku tengah busy pulak tulis another short story, tapi terbengkalai sekejap ditgh jalan. Sebab aku rase macam tengah mengarut. BI pun tunggang terbalik. So aku decide stop je. Dah 3 page padahal. Ye, aku mmg macam ni. Kalau aku rajin dan tiba-tiba dah tak mengarut, aku akan teruskan.

Pastu aku mulakan pula menulis satu cerita light, dalam BM tajuknye "Aku, Kami &...Alien". Cerita tu aku tulis sbb boring takde keje walaupun hakikatnya ade sebenarnya. Dah masuk episode 6. Cehhh...ade episode siap. Susah jadi orang yang guna otak kanan banyak dari kiri ni. Banyak sgt idea dalam otak aku, tapi nak jadikan idea2 tu concrete susah. Imaginasi aku tinggi sangat. Bluerrkk!

Kalau aku rase nak post cerita tu kat sini aku post la nanti. Ape guna aku tulis kalau orang tak bace kan? Dah...bai.

IA