That One Reason

Salam all.

Arghhh....this week has been a very hectic week. With presentations and assignments flooding my brain. It is a miracle that I'm still 'alive'. It doesn't end there. Last Saturday, I got a summon. I was fined for not paying the electrical item. And the most horrible thing I said was 'stupid'.  Next week is going to get even more hectic! I guess this is the price I have to pay, being a student.  Anywho, I'm not really a the mood to talk about that. It's going to blow my head off.

Last week, on Thursday, I, together with my besties, Atie, and Ima, went to see a theatre performance entitled 'Laila & Majnun'. (we're holding the ticket). The overall performance was awesome, but sadly, it was only a 1 hour performance. We were like 'huh?' when it was over.

That's not the main issue here. The main reason why I wanted to go was because of someone. Yea, I know. A guy. See I don't know exactly what my feelings are for him, but, all I know is that, I kept on wishing I could see him. He's someone who I could say a friend. Means I know him, we talked, we waved at each other lots of times. But that's it.

Yes, it's embarrassing, but I went to the show for him. Cause' he's the... Okay, stop! (I can't say any more than what I have already said. You'll never know who's going to read this). The whole time of the show, I kept on looking at him. (But I did watch the performance okay). See the thing is, I don't think he even notices me. But it doesn't matter. I'm happy watching him from afar. To see him smiling back at me, is good enough. I couldn't possibly ask for more. He's not mine. If I want him, I have to ask from Allah.

But if he's not mine, then I ask Allah, please distance him from me. I don't want to have this feeling, any more than I should. The other day, I saw him, and of course, I went all white. He saw me, I saw him, but he didn't keep his eye contact. Yea, I got the clue. TQ.

Allah is great. He gives us all the feeling of love, care, but watch ourselves.
:)