It's been a while

I can't think straight. Something is wrong. Can't talk about it.
I feel helpless right now.
Somehow, this feeling is familiar.
Thought it might never come back.

But hey, it's been a while.

The thing we longed for but can't understand

Salam all.


Gosh, seems like love is the easiest thing to do isn't it? I feel like we all fall in love too easily. As easy as falling down literally. But how do we know it's love or perhaps just an infatuation? Something that often times becomes the blur in between those two feelings. A thin line. And it often becomes the reason we say goodbye. Because we confused between the two.

Kenapa aku mengarut ni? Tapi kau faham kan apa yang aku cuba nak sampaikan sebenarnya? I hope so. Sebab sekarang aku tengah dalam dilema. Am I in love? Or am I just lonely? Argh, aku tak tahu. Maybe it is love, tapi aku tak suka nak confirmkan perasaan tu sebab aku takut tak jadi. Sebab bila aku mengharapkan sesuatu atau kasihkan sesuatu selain dari tuhan, itu jadi sesuatu yang tak bagus untuk aku. Macam sebelum ni. Jadi aku cuma serah pada Dia untuk tentukan and just go with the flow. That would be much better.

Tapi sejujurnya, my walls are still high up in the sky because of what happened before. But surely, it is slowly falling down. But I'm not gonna tear it all down sebab kita buat apa pun jangan bagi 100 percent everything. Mesti selalu ada batasan. Get it? Oh well. Berfalsafah pulak dimalam hari. Hahaha. Kbye.

Just wanna say hi.

Salam.

Hai! Wow, Blogger has new themes! Nice. Tapi kurang best sikit sebab dekat blog tu kena tekan button lain untuk tunjuk my profile. Blergh.

Kbye.

We're moving on

Salam readers!

Aku and the family mmg busy gila untuk bulan ni dan bulan depan. We're moving to a new house. Again. *Sigh* Kitorang duduk sini baru 2 taun setengah. Memandangkan abang and kakak ipar aku nak pindah rumah lain jadinya kitorang pun decide nak pindah jugaklah. At least sewanya kurang sket daripada rumah sekarang ni.

Penat memang penat. Especially skang nilah tengah dalam proses angkut barang yang muat dalam keter sikit2. So 22 hb ni baru pindah semua. Umah sana pun tengah dalam proses nak cat dinding. About 40 percent done. Ada hikmah jugak tau sebenarnya bila nak pindah ni. Sebab the exact moment kitorang dapat rumah baru, time tu jugaklah owner umah sewa sekarang kata nak naikkan sewa umah. Alhamdulillah kat situ.

The thing is kan, rasa geram jugaklah dengan owner tu. Sebab kalau rumah ni semua perfect takda cacat cela, mungkinlah jugak bernas dia nak naikkan sewa but that is NOT the case. Banyak yang rosak dan dia tak nak baiki pun sebab banyak pakai duit sangat. See? Kitorang yang banyak keluar duit baiki adalah. So my mom pun cakapla semua tu kat owner tu. And then baru dia mcam cakap okeylah, dia takkan naikkan. Dia tanya my mom merajuk ke pasal tu. Hahaha.. No fam. Mak aku pun cakap, saya bukan merajuk, tapi saya marah. Haha. Amek kau. Sebab kita patutnya mudahkan hidup orang, bukan susahkan. Harap2 orang seterusnya yang sewa rumah dia tak lalui apa yang kitorang lalui. And harap dia baikilah semua benda yang rosak kat umah tu. Kalau tak...

Anyhoo, we're gonna start our life again. Hopefully the new change of environment will be good for us all. Insyaallah. Dan bila memikirkan nak mengecat bilik aku nanti rasa macam ughhh.. haha. But tak kisahlah. Senang kemudian tak gitu? Lol. Kbye.

P/s: bilik aku tiga segi bentuknya like what is this?? haha. Sapelah arkiteknya, rasa macam nak ketuk kepala dia. Camne nak susun furniture nanti wey?!

The best people to spend your time with is always your Family

Hey guys. One quick question. Do people read/write blogs anymore?

Why I asked? Well, cause I don't think many people do nowadays. Haha. I was thinking of deleting this blog the other day (like I did long before this, but never actually deleted it). I guess I was running out of ideas. Not much happen to me. Well, a lot happened, but I don't have the necessary urge to write about them anymore. If you know what I mean.

With that being said, it's been quite a while since I wrote my last entry. Though I haven't deleted this blog yet, I did however, deleted a lot of silly entries. Stuff I wrote when I was a little crazy and not myself. Whatever that means. Haha. And I've been making this blog private during the course of the time I took to decide whether to keep this blog or not. The verdict? Well...I think I'll hang on to this piece of diary for the time being.

What's new? I just got back from a not-so-vacation last week. Me and my mom went to PD just sight-seeing and taking pictures at the beach to take our messed up minds off of something bad. You know I love beaches! The sound of the waves and the view...gosh. I used to dream of buying a house near the beach. But now...meh. Maybe never gonna happen.

Just me and my mom. <3 td="">

This was at Hotel Grand Lexis Hibiscus' lobby (the hotel definitely lived up to it's name I tell you that). Do you see that guy at the background with the guitar? Yeah, well funny story. I took a video of him singing and posted it on my IG. My caption involved something along the lines of 'cute singing guy...' I know, lame. Haha (but he was seriously good). So the next day, a girl commented on the video, saying the 'guy's name is Khai, and he said hi' to me. And I was dumbfounded. Totally shell-shocked! It means that the guy probably read my lame caption. Damm...

So about 2 days later, I was shell-shocked yet again! Because out of nowhere, the guy liked that video and commented 'thanks.' Crapppp... Now it is confirmed that he really read it. It was so embarrassing. Let me just go hide. Uhuh.

It was a huge coincidence that my aunt and her family
was coming to PD as well for their own vacation.
They invited us to stay with them for the night. And
we had tons of fun together!

So that morning (or was it that night?), I got a message on Facebook from someone I used to know. And I was kinda surprised because before that, my family talked about him a little. What a huge coincidence. Oh well, I didn't reply though. What for? He was a part of my past and I've already moved on. And...also because my aunt said not to. Lol. Because if I replied, then I might open a door that I would probably regret opening later on. And she was right (not that I wanted to though). 

P/S: I sure hope you read this Mr. H. I really do. Because I need you to know where I stand. Not next to you. I wish the best for you though!

And a little selfie. Ok. Bye. Haha.

Later guys. 

I.A.

Once

Looking at you again,
made my heart flutter,
Like the way it used to.

But it's no longer the same.

Love is blind. Sometimes it's stupid.

Someone who cares about you and love you will NEVER ask you to do something you don't like. Something you hate. They will accept you for who you are and everything that comes with you; be it the good or the bad. They will accept your ways of dealing with things, feelings, surroundings, and even people. They will respect your ways. As you will theirs.

Even if you decided to do what they want, it is only because you love them and don't want to lose them. But inside, you hate yourself. That's not right.

I.A