Thursday, August 13, 2015

Things you never thought of but actually realises

Saw a dialogue from a tv show that says “feelings is a scary thing. What you’re feeling, will change the way you see a person.” 

It's true though. We can love someone so dearly and we could never imagine ourselves hating them in a million years. Yet, when they betray us, hurt us, disappoint us - for so many times, all the love will only lessen if not disappears. And you can hate a person so much that you feel like you can drown in it, but the minute they capture you heart with something beautiful, you break all the rules you've built for yourself and fall in love. 

So I thought to myself: yeah, i never thought about that but I think I’ve always known. That’s why I chose to make people think nice of me. Because no matter how long (or close) you know someone, the principle still applies.

I.A. 


The answer we dreamt to never hear

‘And just like that, he said - Yes.’

But it’s not a good answer to a good question. In fact it’s the opposite. Yes and No has two different meaning. Sometimes even Yes can mean something bad and ugly. Sometimes No can mean something good and beautiful. 

But the one I got is ugly. 

I.A

Monday, August 10, 2015

What we know, and what we think we know

“Don't do what you want. Do what you don't want. Do what you're trained not to want. Do the things that scare you the most.” 
― Chuck PalahniukInvisible Monsters
Sometimes there will be a point in our lives that we feel comfortable choosing what's familiar. What we know, what we understand, what we can fathom without much need of a reason. Or even justifications. It's just how I do things. And yet, decisions made, based on those conditions rarely give us satisfaction. And most importantly, solace. We don't feel happy. We don't feel victorious.

One of the reason being you know deep down in your indecisive heart, that this is not what you want. That if you have more control over your mind, you would choose what you want. That if things weren't so damn complicated, you'd be fine, and that things would be much easier if your decisions will not ripple like a pebble in the water.

You know you'd be left with a dilemma. You'd be forced to make the right decision when the most confusing thing is, even when you have made up your mind, there is just no way of knowing whether it is the right one. The whole thing about present, past and future are just so messed up. What you do today, will affect the future. But we can't see the future. You want to take a chance, yet you're scared if all the bad things you predicted would happen. So you choose not to do it. Irony.

We're afraid. Sometimes you have to do what you don't want to do because you feel it in your heart that this is right. Sometimes you do the things you want, because that's just how it's always been. Because you don't know what will happen if you decided otherwise. And you'll be the one ended up getting hurt. Then others will try to fix you. And you will try to fix yourself. But how can you fix the things you can't see?

I.A.

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